Diary of boo radley

??? Drama xx

Hi boo,

Thank you for posting & sharing. Its absolutely ok not be ok. However this feeling must be expressed instead of suppressed. ..and this is difficult sometimes. Opening up, expressing the raw emotion.

Also, every day is different. We are like a sea with different currents...up and down..as long as we accept that and learn ti deal with lows,...we will continue heading to the right direction.

Not sure all this makes sense...just...basically, keep doing what you doing and keep being proud of your achievements - a hug from me and Bella to you and Scottie Boo xx

S&B xx

Ti's all I need San and Bella.. Kind words and love.. Thank you 

The two boos ?

I hope your day was as good as it could be boo. Was thinking about you today x

Night 

Oh boy busy chat again.. 

I do like chat. Its my safe place. 

Probably cannot do 1pm tomorrow. Work it must be.. Earn more corn. 

Feel better now than on waking. Head was clogged this morning.. I'm glad I put  feelings onto  virtual paper.. And glad others read and responded... That's when the healing really starts.. The support. The honesty. The kindness. ?

Still doesn't make me like January.. 

I have a 50th party at weekend.. More food.. Wednesday a workshop for work.. Thursday friends meet. Friday sports massage.. Full agenda.. Just what the doctor ordered.. 

All for now.. 

Sleep well 

Boo xxxx?

Thank you murlo.. I think it had just been a getting back into doing the usual things in life kind of day. 

Not unhappy.. Life can have its slow days.. Its not easy days. Its challenging days.. I maybe a few months down the line gf but I am strongly aware I have to 'fit in' with that lifestyle again.. But you know slow and steady is like a 5 star luxury hotel compared to where I was a few months back.

Thank you again 

Two boos ?

Morning 

To work I must go. So chat later. 

Hope you all have a positive day x

Boo ?

Afternoon.. 

So missed 1pm chat. Am OK just wanted to natter.. Anyway 8pm  will touch base..

Boo ?

Night. 

Feeling brighter in mood. Days off now and going enjoy the simple pleasures.. 

Enjoyed chat tonight. Am glad most are getting this addiction under control. Not easy.. Somedays I don't feel like I'm thinking straight. But if it was easy would it be an achievement..? 

So much help our there.. headlines tonight in the news give comfort too in the new legislation with credit cards.. Its a start. Its been recognised for the damage and cruelty...

Sleep well all. 

Nite n bless boo x?

G'night boo and sleep well. Glad you got that jig started ?

Oh boy.. Woke just ten minutes ago.. That's a sleepathon to me.. Don't know which is aging quicker mind or body but having banked some sleep now its got to help restore some part of me. 

So today am going to do simple pleasures.. Shop. Browse.and I am looking forward to my own company also doing this. I will stop for a coffee along the way.

Just been read ing a couple of diaries.. They are always thought provoking.. Some certainly heart rendering. I was drawn to slowlearners this morning. I can feel a sense of slows thinking too.

1pm chat today hopefully.. Pick up some wisdom and support.. 

My mood is quite upbeat today. Reasons being we have less days left in this month than more. 

It's getting nearer to payday.. And whilst I'm not urgent for my pay I feel like it's ages since last payday and would like a reward of some kind. 

It's getting close to 20th January milestone.. And as I discussed the other day I am going to set smaller dates. Piecemeal chunks. It works better with my logic. 

So best get started.. 

Wishing you all an easy day. Thanks for popping in to read my thread. 

Boo ?

Just had a secondary thought.. As I am getting back In touch with nature and civility again no wonder I have had winter blues so much.. Being detached from gambling now my body is again tuning in to the natural forces. A forgotten feeling with so much of my time and emotions having been absorbed with gambling. 

So I musnt worry or get anxious I tell myself. These are the common everyday occurrences a non gambling life gives us..

I'm OK with that logic 

Boo 

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Morning Boo,

It sounds like you had a great sleep, fantastic! What you say about reconnecting with the world makes perfect sense to me. The good news is the days are getting longer. We will soon have more light than dark. Have a wonderful day and hope to catch you in chat ?

Night. 

Well a relaxed day. Batteries charged. Feeling ok 

Chat has been productive on both counts 1pm and 8pm. Chatty. Light. But good.

There's still a struggle ahead. Some days feel like I'm pulling a caravan.. But I would rather face the challenge of no gambling and tackle my fears and anxieties than cope with the absolute lousy feeling of having gambled for a few short miserable hours. 

There's gains to be had..money . Luxury time.. Connection with society.. With life 

All good 

Boo 

Night and bless. Thanks all for today on this site 

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I am thankful that you have given up gambling and I get the benefit of your time and your wisdom. 

You rest well my good friend. 

Goodnight and Godbless. 

Love from Drama

xoxoxoxo