fed up with myself

I can feel your pain sunshine this dis ease can be so cruel and sneaky it really can be heart breaking and the gambling industry has the odds so stacked against us that we have no chance.

Mite not do anyharm 2 ring gamcare they have a free phone number.

We all have to start somewhere mate i hope u can start rite now and dont let the industry get any more of your xmas money.

1 bet is too many and a thousand is not enough

take care

Hey Sunshine,

No matter how many times you slip you know deep down staying bet free is the only way forward. You say you are not sure whether you can do this anymore but what's the alternatives? Continuing to bet and feeling more miserable is my guess. If you keep gambling then one day in the future you will still end up back here.

By admitting your slip you are still showing you want to stop. You just need to get back to basics because the last slip is still so raw, the addiction is winning because it wants you to chase those losses. Don't do it my friend!

I know chat helped you last week and I know others can help you stay strong. Why not try and post daily and get on chat each day for a bit. People say take it one day at a time but if you are really struggling why not break the day into chunks?

Just some friendly advice like anything it's take it or leave it but you are a lovely young woman and it would be a shame if the addiction got the better of you.

Flagg

Hi Miss Sunny,

How you feeling today?

I have an idea....Hows about you try and post on my diary everyday and I will try and do the same with you. I think it really helps to put your thoughts down and to know you have someone looking out for you?

Even if you have a bad day, gradually the bad days will turn into good days!

We are both a little raw, but in time the hurt will fade. Sunshine do it with me eh?

Hugs Sue xxxxxxx

lol Sue we must have just read each others mind and posted same time ! strange hahaha

anyways yep im ready to give this another shot and im very glad of your support : )

so today's day 1 and can't say i feel great or even positive but what i can say is im not giving up on this fight and i will get there in the end ! just gonna take it slow and not put too much pressure on myself ! so this is me starting over and ready to change my life forever : ) X

Great minds think alike Sunny!

Thanks for the post.

Am so happy that you are ready to fight this hun.

Together we will overcome this.

Will post tomorrow.

Sue xxxxx

Hi Sunshine,

I felt a little sad after chat last nite.... I could feel ur pain and 4 the 1st time on here... I did not know wot 2 say...Sorry 🙁

It sounds like u r feeling a lot more positive 2day and that made me smile 🙂

U can do this Sunshine!

We r all here 4 u 🙂

Stay strong xxxxxxxx

Hi Sunshine

Come on girl pick yourself up and dust yourself down the last spell of you not gambling was a huge success, just think every day you dont gamble is a triumph so one day slip is not so bad, just carry on as before if someone had said to your last year you only gamble 2 days in a year would you have belived them personally I take take anyday of the week. I know you can do this kido and your in a dark place at the moment but please trust me you get through this in the long run

Take care and just for today I will not gamble

Hugh

thanx for all your support guys : ) your great X

well yesterday was meant to be my day one but i only made it to 9pm before my brain was telling me go on just bet 20 pound and you can win back all you lost this week ! sorry to say i went with my stupid brain and deposited 20 quid but even though i lost i was pleased that earlier in the day i had set a deposit limit of 20 pound a month so couldn't gamble anymore and do much more damage thank god ! but i do know its really taking me a while to get my positive thinking back and drum it into my head that i can't bloody well win ! that money is gone let it go ! so anyway back to start again ! today is day 1 and i gotta do this thanx again everyone for supporting me through this real s**t time : ) X

Hi Sunshine

Yes I agree boredom is a massive factor I am thinking about going to GA as it will allow me to make friends with people who understand what you going throught as some of my friends dont seem to think gambling is an issue which I guess it true for some but not for all

Anyway day 1 but you are wiser and know what to expect this time around why dont you exclude yourself instead of having a £20 limit that way you cant gamble at all

Take care and just for today I will not gamble

Hugh

Hi Sunny,

Thanks for the post...really appriciate it.

You know hun what you have to do, you did it before (really well i might add)

You need to shut down that account. By just gambling £20 all it does is fuel the addiction. I myself kept 1 account open with £10 per week, in theory this is fine but you and I both know that we cannot cope with this. Sunshine...You...Me...and thousands of others are compulsive gamblers...All it does is fuel the fire. Shut down the account hun, you know it's the only option.Do it for yourself, for your future!

You really will feel so good when you have. You're a good person who just happens to have a gambling addiction!

Hugs Sue xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi Sunshine,

Thank u 4 ur post on my diary 🙂

U never got me down in chat... I felt sad cus I could feel ur pain and I know wot a gr8 person u r... I wanted 2 help but I did not know how 2!

Neway, I am sooooo happy that u r not giving up, that's the spirit .... We will get thru this, one day at a time!

I also enjoy speaking 2 u in chat 🙂

Have a gr8 nite and stay strong xxxxxxxxxxx

Page 3....not having that!

Hope you are ok hun, know things are tough but we are all here to help!

You can do it!

Sue xxxx

Hiya sunshine it's hard. Really hard after a slip but you have to let go and forget it. Stay tough and wt through those first few days and on to that first week and you'll feel so much better. I've done the same thing many times but you must forget it and move on. Take care sunshine. I know you can do it.

Hi Sunny,

Come on girlie.......You are not keeping your part of supporting me?

Get back on here....we all really care about you!

Sue xxxxxxxx

hey everyone thanx for lovely post's : )

i haven't been on for couple days as iv been busy and also staying away from computer till i feel stronger .

feeling better than last week and im nearly at the end of day 3 so its all good .

thanx for the support everyone it really is keeping me going : ) X