Festina Lente

Another day, another dollar saved as long as I'm strong. Dusty your fairy magic worked too well, I only needed another 8 ounces to take first place. 5 mins before the end I hooked into a monster carp, like a seal, snapped my line effortlessly and took my float. You certainly have some strong magic there! Came fourth in the end, twice now, one place out the money. Do I care, yes and no, no CG likes to lose but my gambling eyes are changing and I can see that I spent a great evening, in the fresh air happy and excited at the same time. Priceless. The feeling of loss is nothing in comparison to when you lose every thing you earned that year in a twenty minute binge.

57 days, yes another prime number or 17 tops if phil Taylor's reading. Only ten days to 9 1/2 weeks and I must confess I'm getting a little nervous. I've let myself go a little, don't know where these hairy shoulders came from but they weren't there a couple of years back. Do I shave or just comb down my back? Not a great conversationalist either, useless at small talk, can't cook, probably smell of a fishy pond by now. Best I call this off, my feet are freezing never mind cold.

Anyway, I'll not gamble today, no way Hose' because if I did I'd be a lazy fool. Besides I'd have to go through all those prime numbers again and I couldn't bear that.y head is feeling good and strong, tomorrow may be different but if I keeping posting I'll top up my strength. I'm off now, take care everyone, keep strong, stay safe, clunk click, think bike, go to work on an egg, Steve (before his morning medication)

' So much interest and pleasure around us all, always, yet gambling prevents us from seeing/doing it.'what a fantastic phrase...

but steve...we are on the right path now...you are on day 57 i m on 54...week by week we ll start enjoying our life at the maximum...

strong as the parthenon as you said! 🙂

we greeks are in the middle of a devistating financial crisis(believe me greek people are not responsible for that as the media show every day...greek politicians are and banks)

but we havent lost self respect.we still our proud and we are waiting this summer tourists from all around the world with a big smile!yes we are poorer but we dont loose hope.as for me who is a compulsive gambler the problem is double...but never give up.at the end of the day money is not everything.

keep fishing and enjoying your life!a few weeks left to reach both the 90 day target!

take care

mike

HI Steve,

Well done on double top amazing amazing shot one that if you carry on will definatly keep giving you the ultimate win remaining gamble free.

Shave or comb hmmmm Its a tough one !!! I would go for the wax approach myself, I will listen out for the screems.. Ouch !!!!

Have a great day

Blondie day 39

Hello Steve

Congrats on another day, in the land of the living, gamble free. They should have a fourites option on this site, so you can keep a list of people you are following, helping, concerned for etc.

Might just get a sheet of paper and begin to jot them down for now, If someone does not show up for a day or two, they quickly drop to the 3rd and 4th pages...

Anyway, lets keep up the good work and hope you have a great weekend

Regards

John

Steve,

Great to read your posts. You are doing so well in your recovery. Keep up the good work.

Tomso.

o*g,

Need more than alittle fairy dust to sort that problem out. There are things a girl should know and things a girl should not.

Werewolves , graveyards and thriller come to mind once again, seems to be a recering theme of ours.

So happy that you did well of sorts in this fishing, you neglected to mention how many entered but that ok your time will come.

You sound sooooooo happy at the moment , it makes me happy. Keep going cause I am feeling very priveledged to go along for the ride.

Hugs ( from a distance lol)

Dusty

Another great post steve and its only a matter of time before you win a fishing tournament and you done well getting fourth and qualifying 4 europe.

Do they pay your expenses haha.

Have a great weekend steve

I felt very happy and content today for some reason. Grateful for that, probably due to some sort of solar alignment that I'm unaware of, or because I never gambled, no real urge at all, maybe a slight flicker, came and went like a waft of dog muck. I didn't dwell on it and moved on. Swam, went to the gym, cycled then went shopping with my daughter. She loves it, I hate it, yet now more than ever I appreciate it. I emptied and cleaned out the garden pond, without breaking my back this time which was a bonus. The fish are happy and the twenty frogs too, if they're truly capable of feeling happiness. Feel strong at the moment and I'm going to try going for a jog soon, when I last tried in our warm April of last year I broke down (physically not emotionally) and set back my recovery for 4 months. Feel strong though, very confident I'll be ok.

I'll not bet tomorrow, I may even watch the Derby or I may do something else, nice to have a choice. I won't be miserable through gambling or disappointed in myself. I want this feeling to continue. Take care all, Steve.

I feel like a bit of an idiot but on a previous post I incorrectly stated that 57 was a prime number. The great Phil Taylor himself contacted me and pointed out my error. Divisible by 19 (treble) and of course 3. I can only apologise for this, I can only hope that this mistake hasn't ruined anyone's day or altered the course of the universe, yours humbly, Steve, wrong but strong.

Hello Steve

Who won the derby?

Hope you had a good day, and I understand what you mean about the whiff of temptation, we should be glad we are sensitive enough to perceive it. But they still need to be ignored, or properly neutralized, thats a learning point for me.

Take care my friend

John

Day 59 and I'm feeling fine, been out early, this is the second car boot sale of the morning I'm at. Raining! Where's the sunshine? Bought a golf trolley for 2 quid, might play again some day, that'd be nice. Today I will not gamble, nothing will convince me otherwise, don't need to, don't want to, happy with who I am. Keep strong everyone, Steve

Hi steve

Rather you than me, but good work on reaching day 59, now that the gambling is being dealt with, did you or are you at the point where you have started looking at what caused you to turn to gambling as a form of escape, apologies if you have been through and written it all up in your diary.

Just interested to know .......

stay weak and be good,

John

You said in ur last post u r happy with who you are that is priceless a day at a time.

Brillant steve keep doing what your doing your flying

This is a bit of a tester. Dropping my sister off and waiting outside B&Q, the only problem is there is a bookies right in front of me. Normally I'd sneak in, kill time, spend what money I have. Feel a little agitated over this, rather than dwell on it I'll write it down, get it out of my system. Pathetic really but there's no denying the feelings. No barriers now, only willpower and this site. Day 59, I'm not going to blow up now, no way.

Thanks for the post ste,

Stay strong mate, you have come so far, 59 days is a massive acheivement, its good to get the thoughts out there but as you know they will pass.

Blondie day 41 x