Final Chance

Morning Diary .... A new week begins, one which i am determind will be gamble free, have been on this forum several years now with some sucess but also some big relapses with £1000s lost along the way, all for what , heartache, misery, guilt etc ..... dont want to do it anymore and on a mission to turn things around for the better, still very much taking it one day at a time, sometimes hourly and know things will get better for me the longer i stay gf

Well done Chartom for remaining so strong, keep it going

Wilsy

Morning Diary ..... Day 45 still gamble free, doing ok been here before many times so no the drill all to well,really glad i have good blocks in place this time as at times when i do get the urge to bet i know a cant even log onto a betting site online which has been a great help for me this time around. Trying to keep myself busy and hope to see my gf days mount up,also trying to retrain my brain as its been programed to think about gambling and chasing my looses for so long ...

I chartom good to see you clocking those days up well,not long to the 50 mark so well done.retraining the brain to not think about gambling??how can one do this?im a big footy fan and with friends who gamble regularly there doesn't seem to be a day where I don't think about gambling,not that I'm in any danger of gambling but just the thought of it always seems to be there.anyways keep up the good work bud.

Hi SEL87 , thanks for continued support .... its more a case of trying to change my mindset really, like yourself i am also a big football fan and am only now starting to watch the matches again and enjoying them for what they are and not worrying on how many goals, corners, cards etc there will be ..... well done on your journey so far mate , keep heading in the right direction theres nothing else for it.

Day 47 gamble free today, things are going ok had my last councilling session this morning will miss being able to talk to someone and be able to get things of my chest and did find them beneficial would recommend them to anyone who hasent done them before ...... still get thoughts to gamble, guess i always will do but at the end of the day they are just thoughts and the blocks i have in place are a big help when dealing with them .... just for today i wont gamble that means today i am a winner....

Day 49 .... had big gambling urges today, even found myself looking at odds/fixtures, so decided to take the dog on a long walk to clear my head .... back home now and alls well again, just goes to show me i will have to always be on my guard especally at the weekends.... day 50 tomorrow and will try and use these past 50 days as a foundation to build a better future fo me and my family... wishing everyone a good weekend.

Well done on fighting the urges - I'm a great believer in just getting out and going for a walk when things get difficult, great way to clear your head and sort out any stupid thoughts like gambling again!

Thanks for the kind words Muststop, yes would reccomend a good walk to clear the head......

Hello Diary ..... been super busy today so no thoughts to gamble today not much else to say really just getting on with things and chalking of another day gf .

Hey bud massive congrats on getting over the 50 mark it's great when you have busy days that barely a thought about gambling goes by,thel always be lurking through and waiting for us to succumb to them,all we can do is keep fighting them off my friend,with you all the way bud

Congratulations - 50 days!
Those urges do rear their ugly heads sometimes and it's great that you're consciously aware of how dangerous they can be. Finding something to occupy yourself is definitely the way to go.
Here's to your next 50!
All good wishes x

Thanks Little miss lost for your kind words,and i wish you well with your own recovery.

Hello Diary ..... Day 52 and all is well , still plenty of regret because of my past actions, suppose i always will have but cant change the past, but can make sure my future is brighter, maybe dosent feel that way right now but things will gradually improve the longer i stay gamble free .... have been in this position many times before so know there will be plenty of ups and downs but do feel better equipped this time than before.

Day 54 ..... glad to report still gamble free, some days are fine for me others i do struggle to control my urge to gamble and would definataly of had a bet by now if not for the blocking software on my laptop which thank goodness is doing its job ..... still very much a case of one day at a time for me and fighting hard not to place that first bet then the others cant follow....

Day 55 ..... on my guard as its the weekend when i feel most vulnerable but with the blocks still in place and doing there job it makes me feel a little more at ease, do find it hard sometimes to replace the time and "buzz" but things are slowly improving for me and am trying to put the same time and effort into abstaining as i did into gambling ........

Morning Diary .....day 57 and glad to say still gamble free, seem to be stuck in a bit of a rut at the minute, but with little thoughts to gamble...... finding it hard to find other things to do but with the nights starting to get a bit brighter this should get easier for me.... nothing much else to report really just trying to get through each day the beat i can.