Alan, Thanks mate for the continued support, it really does mean alot and a big help to my recovery, i see you are over 2 years gf now great work i hope you are keeping well.
Morning Diary.........Good to get out and socalise last night as hadnt been getting out much recently because of my gambling problem, rest of the team were checking the football scores to see how there bets were doing and asking me who i had backed, just told them i didnt gamble any more as after all this time i finally realised i was no good at it....... anyway on to day 18 today and i will not gamble today
Hi Chartom, on Day 18, excellent.
There's no point checking the football scores from a betting point of view because if you had have won, you'd have gambled it all back anyway. And then lost more!
You're doing the right thing here Chartom. For you, your friends, your loved ones. All good, one day at a time!
Evening Diary......Day 18 almost complete and feeling ok , some days are better than others and plenty of ups and downs but feel like i am on the right track finding that ,posting on here and reading other diarys helps alot and of course the support of fellow gamcarers is also a great help to me.Just need to keep focused and hope to see my gf days mount up.
Morning Diary........Day 19 today and one which will be gf, quiet weekend ahead which i will be spending quality time with family, something i hadnt been doing enough of while in my gambling haze... wishing everone a nice gf weekend
Evening Diary...... Day 19 almost complete, Saturday tomorrow a day with plenty of temptation with all the football on but i will remain gf, no doubt i will get some urge to gamble but i know with the blocks i have in place and little money availabe to me these thoughts will be dismissed.Have to keep focused and believe that with time the longer i remain gf the better things will become.
Morning Diary.............Day 21 gf, just back from a extra long walk on the beach with my dog making the most of the great weather this morning where as not so long ago i would have been sat looking at a screen betting large sums (which i couldnt afford) on football matches i knew little or nothing about. Still very much early days for me but starting to feel a bit better about myself but still finding it hard to let go of money i have lost , hope that this will become easier with time, no going back now time to focus on the future.
Morning Diary..... Day 22 for me today ,still gf and will remain that way today, good blocks in place and no spare cash available to me means even when i do get the urge i cant act on it, just trying to keep taking it a day at a time which seem to be working at the minute, and hoping things start to improve the longer i go gf.
Day 23 ........Feel as if i have made a good foundation to build on, still very much early days but i am moving in the right direction, money worries remain but life is slowly improving for me and know this will continue the longer i can stay gf, again just trying to take it one day at a time. Wishing everyone well in there own personal journeys.
Morning Diary............Day 25 for me today and and glad to report still gf, just concentrating on getting through each day and feels like a minor victory when i do.Blocks are doing there job when i do get the odd urge which i am finding is less often, still early days but feel like the fog is slowly starting to lift.
Excellent Chartom. You may have a payday soon; but day by day, you can breeze through it. As I'm realising, you really don't have to give away all of your hard-earned money. (It's funny how mad it is when you look at it this way.)
All the best
Mixer
Evening Diary.........Day 26 still gf , have to be on my guard as its the weekend and plenty of temptation with all the football on which is mostly what i used to bet on, but with the blocks on my laptop i feel more safe as dont go into the bookies so online was my problem.Good to see my day count moving in the right direction, and yes Mixer totally agree we dont have to give away our hard earned money it can now be spent improving our lives not destroying them.
Morning Diary.............Day 28 still gf had plenty of urges yesterday with all the football on but with the blocks i have now in place it gives me time to have a deep breath and dismiss them and go and do something else, having my good and bad days but still on the right track and intend to stay that way and watch my gf days rack up. Still think about the money i have lost and what could have been done with it but do need to focus more on the future and let go of the past.
Morning Diary......day 29 for me today, start of a new week and one i am determind to be gf, keeping myself busy and learning to dismiss any urges that come along, things are slowly improving and know they will get even better the longer i stay gamble free
Good to hear your positivity Chartom :)) .
Just coming up to your first of many months being gamble free and that's a huge milestone my friend :))
Thing's will just keep improving and if the first months got better for you then " You ain't seen nothin yet " :))
Talk to you soon Buddy ' !
Big urges to gamble today totally came out of the blue even found myself looking at football fixtures, most i have thought about placing a bet since i stopped 30 days ago, but glad to say never gave in had a nap then took my dog for a walk and when i got home felt much better. Just reminds me i have to keep my guard up at all times and learn to deal with those dam urges when they arrive, coming on here also helps either posting or reading other diarys.
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