Finally....

P.s all bills paid in full last month 🙂 

Husbands payday and money transferred to me to pay bills.  I've not gambled a penny and paid all bills in full.  Usually at this time I'm gambling it and trying to win back .  Still full of anxiety and feeling low , but just waiting for that to pass 🙂 

Another day passing without gambling.. just been to a gym which is down the road, joined and signed up for PT money better spent rather than wasted 🙂 

And another 😊 

@lrw50 👏👏👏👏👌. Well done.

Pink Lady 🩷🍎.

@j5a6meyr4z  Thankyou !  3 weeks now 🙂  it's so refreshing not living with the continuous stress and worry , I know a long way to go but I can taste freedom  ! X

3 whole weeks,  I've been anxious think because my mind isn't taken up by gambling, but it's getting better , just been to get my nails done 🙂 x

Weldone thats a great achievement, one thing i learnt about this addiction the more effort i put into recovery the better the results it gets to a stage it feel like the addiction was just in my head and i had a major relapse, days will add up and life becomes to improve currently on day 456 gambling feels like a distant past i still have regrets the choices i made however im using it as a learning curve one advice i would give u keep checking in their will be times the addiction will test me and thats the time the most support is needed

@lrw50 what a lovely treat! 👌.  Good for you.

Take care.

Pink Lady 🩷🍎.

@tazman Thank you and good luck with your journey 456 days 👏

And another 🙂 

Another day passing 🙂  have had busy weekend so not many thoughts of gambling,  even starting to get used to in an evening NOT picking up my phone to gamble,  husband was on lates all last week so that was a test.  Hair done tonight as off on holiday on Thursday, looking forward to a holiday gamble free, 

And another it says 17 on here but it's over 3 weeks? Anyway not important.  What's important is I haven't gambled today.. I had slight urges today but kept myself busy with work and crocheting tonight.  A hobby I'm really grateful for at the moment.  Will be packing tomorrow night and flying first thing Thursday,   payday the day after I get home.. now that will be a test.  

Hi Lrw50

I have read your journey and can relate well and take inspiration from you. You are doing incredibly well. It's really not easy to implement change. I used to think that i had a gambling problem when infact gambling is the (temporary) solution to what's going on inside me. I now see that it's addressing the relationship with myself and working on the areas of my life which are lacking to then not need addiction to escape in or alter my feelings/emotions. Gambling was described to me recently as an emotional illness with  financial consequences. 

Thanks for the kind support on my diary.

I hope you have a great day!

Take care. 

@walliss77 Thank you 🙂  it's very true what you have said.

Well I am coming to the end of a gamble free holiday! First time in 3 years so pleased,  I've not even thought about it much at all.  Had a couple of anxious moments where I would have usually turned to gambling but I didn't,  back to reality tomorrow after a fantastic week , also pay day tomorrow wish me luck 🤞

Hi Lrw50

it's fantastic to hear that you've had a gamble free holiday and you should be very proud of yourself. I hope you've had a nice relaxing time away. Do you find money is a real temptation for relapse for yourself? I put gamban on my phone and stops for gambling transactions with my bank account. I'm blessed with working in a bookies because I see the reality of gambling on a daily basis and hardly ever see happy people even when they do occasionally win. I'm currently 15 days away from my last bet which is probably the longest time in 10yrs and have a real hatred for it. Have you ever gone on recovery road online? They have regular zoom recovery meetings on everyday and the people that go to them have a wealth of knowledge and amazing recoveries. One lady on there just reached 49yrs without s bet. They've really helped keep me grounded and hungry for a good future without gambling. 

Anyway that's enough rambling from me!

Have a safe journey back and try to stay strong. 

Kind regards.