fresh start

' FOBT what more can i say '

Are you asking a question there? 

Because i hate to say but nothing is going to change, you'll lick your wounds, put a band aid on the itch and rinse repeat and turn up back here in a few weeks / months after yet another loss, feeling sorry for yourself. 

You've been around here long enough to of heard ' that nothing changes, if nothing changes! ' And hand on heart Boro, but are you ready to change? Have you hit the pits of pain and admitted complete defeat? My humble is that you haven't and that you'll continue in the rinse / repeat cycle.

I say that, purely because i completely relate to what you say and caught in the same cycle.

A somewhat cynical post yet, meant with the best intention and hoping a kick up the ar-se is more helpful rather than the norm of these diaries of blowing smoke up it.