Future began 14/11/2014

Hi taxi man,

50 days is a really important first milestone, because you have shown you can be in control of this hideous addiction,

It will hate that, but never underestimate the power of this addiction, you are doing it now, keep doing what you are doing and keep going forwards and upwards

Well done to you on 50 days.

Suzanne xx

Well done on the bullseye taxi man, next big one for you has to be one hundred and eighttttttyyyyyy. stay on that gamble free oche....onwards and upwards... Ginger

Thanks NT for the post and support and can't remember to many times when someone has wanted to emulate me so thanks.

Thanks Suzanne for your post and continued support means a lot from someone who has been there and done it.

And finally thanks ginger great post would love a 180.

Day 51

Day 51 no urges today at all so looking forward to the darts final tonite my fav made it playing my girlfriends favourite so in for interesting night hope we still talking at the end of it.

Day 52

My girlfriend accused me of gambling again yesterday afternoon due to some texts I sent to my brother about the darts that did hurt can't really blame her but I didn't really need it and I did think for a while what's the point might aswell do it if that's what she thinks but then I'm doing this for myself you can't succeed for anyone else it's gotta be yourself and hit the beers instead.

Was well chuffed to see Gary Anderson lift the trophy no real thoughts of I would of won cos I would only of blown it and more on something else and enjoyed the moment just as much as I used too if not more cos I wasn't stressed about money on the line. He had some awful luck at times no more so than when he started a leg with 180 points on floor for anyone that didn't see it he threw 2 treble 20's then a 3rd hit the other 2 n knocked em all out the board. Sitting with 3 big Taylor fans I really enjoyed myself.

No thoughts of gambling today at all.

Hi taximan,

My OH has digs nearly every day, when the bloody gambling adverts come on, I guess that's his way of dealing with my mess, you are soo right, we have to concentrate on our recovery, and do it for ourselves, and you are a guy on my wavelength, cos I hit the Voddy when it gets tough, ( sometimes lol).

Don't forget they are going through hell as well, and it's not their fault, and if they never trust us again not to gamble, would they be so wrong, I know my OH would not be, I can never trust myself again, to place even one penny, so how can I expect him to trust me.

Anyway 52 days is something to be very proud of, well done.

Suzanne xx

Day 53

Thanks Suzanne for your post you make some very good points and yea I agree I can't ever trust myself either so I shouldn't expect her to either and she has been really amazing and supportive almost all the time so was really harsh coming and and having a winge on here I guess.

No harm done didn't act the way I would in the past and gone gambling and no thoughts or intention to gamble today.

It's now January and really quiet at work again now to be expected at least I'll have a lot more time to be visiting and reading this wonderful site which is the main reason I have got this far.

Day 54

No thoughts or urges at all again today feel a lot more secure again after a few wobbles n urges around the festive period and all the sporting events around that period in a short space of time.

Joined the 2015 challenge this week on the overcoming gambling section of the forum.

Been listening to five live this week and they have been advertising a gambling program on this Thursday at 9pm about sports ppl there gambling problems and experiences so tht sounds of interest tmoz.

For today I've got my pool league resuming again this evening and cup games start this Sunday so looking forward to getting back into that after a few week break.

Day 55.

No thoughts of gambling today.

Had a day off my lad had a school football tourney 10-3 so been out all day supporting him. They got knocked out in quarter finals 2-1 after extra time so we're a little bit gutted if they made the final would of played at half time of local football league match on Saturday my team aswell so would of been amazing he's only in year 5 tho so maybe next year.

Pool was a disaster last nite lost 9-1 less said bout that the better.

Home for a warm then off to take the girlfriend and daughter to dancing tonight as my niece is poorly and my sister n girlfriend usually go together first time I'll have seen them.

Hopefully get a chance to listen to the radio 5 live thing about gambling 9pm tonight.

Well done mate think I will put 5 live on in the car while I'm out working tonight.

Day 56

Today I again have no urge to gamble at all it's been a fairly stressful day with a mini family f**d going on where my bro seems to have sold me down the river pretty disappointed as I thought we were pretty close. It's nothing major and I'm sure it'll sort itself out prob not in time for the match tmoz so maybe give it a miss.

Need to clear my head and get out on the night shift got a target In my head is rather hopeful and maybe set myself up for more dissapointment but you never know.

Did listen to the radio programme and found it fairly interesting and killed an hour of my evening

Never got to watch em dancing as they take it very seriously and was ushered into a seperate room to drink tea with the dance mums.

Thanks NT for the post and support.

Your quite right I'm not one to hold a grudge I'm sure it'll sort itself out.

Day 57

Even though it's Saturday I've no urge or intention to gamble at all money hard to come by at the moment and I'm not gonna throw it away for sure.

Didn't even get to half of last nights target there's no guarantee in self employment though. Take the rough with the smooth today is another day.

Missing the game today partly due to the f**d and daughter has a party to attend 3-5 so be back at work trying again after that.

Have a great gamble free weekend everyone

Hi taximan,

57 days of winning, well done, good to read you have no nasty thoughts, keep going through the ups and downs, and keep winning, 57 days is not something to lose now, recovery is far more important.

Take care

Suzanne xx

Well done on your 57 days of freedom mate,

Hope you are ok with the family feud I'm sure things will sort themselves out...

Just gonna get ready to go out to work now, hope you have a pleasent evening.

Day 58

Thanks Carl for the post mate was quite a decent night last night made up for Friday a little bit.

Just been to watch the lads u10's team play 0-0 draw today good game in difficult conditions though

Nice chilled day today until pool cup first leg tonight hope it's a better performance than Wednesday.

Finally no urge or intention to gamble almost forgot to mention that bit as its so far from my mind at the moment I'm well aware that can change in a split second tho.

Great work Taxi man, good to see you aren't being smacked by the urges every day but are not going to let yourself become complacent!

Hope the Pool was as rewarding as the footie...@ that age in this weather, you must be proud!

Keep abstaining - ODAAT