Gambling Diary

Hi all

So I am trying to be positive. Since February, I have only gambled once. I am very angry about that because I am still obsessing over getting the money back through being too strict on myself. I have serious issues with spending money, it is bordering ridiculous, but 100% damaging.

I have had a short course of counselling through gamcare, which has been useful. I am hoping I can build on this.

Hi Urgh.. You need to let it go.. What’s gone is gone ..

I know it’s easier said than done but there’s no guarantee you’ll win and more than likely you would end up losing more money.. Then you’d have a whole new wave of bad feeling.. Plus it’s like undoing all the hard work to get to this point. 

Stay strong 

Hi all, just an update

Still only that one slip up in July since Feb, so doing fairly well. That slip up still messes with my head, and I have been really close to having a cheeky bet at the bookies. I was really really close last week.

1 bet in a 9 month period. Not too bad!

Christmas has always been a bad period for me, and many other gamblers. How many Christmases have we spent being depressed because we had lost so much money the previous few days?

I am hoping i can get through this period gamble free, it will be a real big test. 

Okay I slipped up a couple of times over Christmas. I suppose I need to positive in that I have gambled a lot less in 2019 any previous years. 3 occasions in 2019, the positive thing is that I only lost some £150 in my last blooper. In times gone past I would have lost £1000+ or more in a session.

During this time I tried to get back into a casino, and they never got back to me. A blessing in disguise. Fotunately for me it seems the self exclusions online and in person are doing it's job.

The good thing is that the loss is mostly forgotten, I am not chasing or thinking about what I've lost. I have all my cards at another place, so I cannot access them.