Just a quick note today...on day 782.
Appreciate that some are struggling out there but I'm in a great place at the moment. Turned 40 yesterday and I wouldn't have thought I could be this content 800 days ago when my life was a mess...lies, deciet, cunning, selfishness, payday loans, credit cards, stealing have all be replaced by honesty and positive things.
Had an amazing party surrounded by family and friends on Saturday night...in a way, I'm very lucky not to have lost some of those people forever - my life and behaviour was THAT diabolical.
Onwards and upwards, 1 day at a time. Not going to look too far ahead in my gf journey - I've seen too many people take their eye of the present to fall into that particular trap.
Congrats on the big 40, I don't think they would of been a party if you never made that choice to stop 782 days ago.
Keep up the good work bud
Garyl1976 wrote:
Just a quick note today...on day 782.
Appreciate that some are struggling out there but I'm in a great place at the moment. Turned 40 yesterday and I wouldn't have thought I could be this content 800 days ago when my life was a mess...lies, deciet, cunning, selfishness, payday loans, credit cards, stealing have all be replaced by honesty and positive things.
Had an amazing party surrounded by family and friends on Saturday night...in a way, I'm very lucky not to have lost some of those people forever - my life and behaviour was THAT diabolical.
Onwards and upwards, 1 day at a time. Not going to look too far ahead in my gf journey - I've seen too many people take their eye of the present to fall into that particular trap.
Hats off to you Gary. Complacency is a (rhymes with rich)
Day 789.
Had a superb weekend up in St Andrews with the good lady.....great weather and we had a ball. My golf was pretty good too. That's sort of put a full stop on my 40th celebrations so back into "normality" now with work and some highlights to look forward to in the coming months.
Absolutely no thoughts of gambling...there's some Euro 2106 prediction things coming round work but I'm really not interested. I'll watch the games as a good old fan...with no attachment to most of the games.
Loving recovery and all it's given to me.
Day 792.
Just about to finish up in work for the week. Hectic but keeps me out of trouble.
Interesting debate at GA...does recovery have to "hurt" to do it correctly. Seems for some it's true..but not for me. I've welcomed, enjoyed and embraced recovery. There's no more hiding, no more lies, no more deceit, no more disappearing for hours at a time, no more intercepting the postman or hiding mail. Instead life is straightforward, honest and simple.
I wake up happy and try to get as much out of each day as possible, keeping a positive attitude.
Wishing you all a great, bet-free weekend.
Im not sure hurt is the right word. But uncomfortable feelings & past painful experiences certainly need to be faced. Steps 1, 4 & 5 guide me through this process. The rest show me the joy to be had without addiction. Unresolved my past is destined to shape my future.
Garyl1976 wrote:
Day 792.
Just about to finish up in work for the week. Hectic but keeps me out of trouble.
Interesting debate at GA...does recovery have to "hurt" to do it correctly. Seems for some it's true..but not for me. I've welcomed, enjoyed and embraced recovery. There's no more hiding, no more lies, no more deceit, no more disappearing for hours at a time, no more intercepting the postman or hiding mail. Instead life is straightforward, honest and simple.
I wake up happy and try to get as much out of each day as possible, keeping a positive attitude.
Wishing you all a great, bet-free weekend.
Gambling addiction is different for everyone. Some have mild problems, some gambling has affected them badly but they still have a way of getting back but there are some of us that spent too long in the midst of the addiction. Does recovery have to hurt, no not necessarily, it depends on our individual journey.
Agree with Tri there Gary , I think it "Hurt's " as much as we allow it or even dare I say , want it to ?.
Best wishes ..........Alan
Cheers guys...I think you are probably right in the analysis.
No 2 journeys are indentical even if they follow a similar path.
Day 795 day...would never have thought that even remotely possible as I gambled heavily on a daily basis. Life really is so much better now.
My diary so a place to commit some thoughts (apologies if it offends).
There is a diary on here that is concerning me. The individual can post as they wish but I am concerned that people trying to understand, rationalise and assist are possibly jeopardising their own recovery.
I hope the diarist gets the help he needs, but don't think it's here.
As I said, apologies if that upsets anyone.
Easier to put our frustrations onto someone else, than spend time looking at our own issues
HL has it well summarised but I reckon most people do know the score and whilst a positive outcome would be welcome, few are over-investing their emotional energy.
BW,
CW
Unfortunately I'm also all to aware of the score but feel it's worth the effort and always live in hope that something will trigger a change , if we all gave up and walked away then what ? .
I'm just glad people didn't give up on me .
Night all .:))
Morning , Gary , Dan, CW , Apologies for my post last night , it seems my optimism was unfounded !
I live and learn !!
Best wishes , Alan
No need to apologies...I fully respect you having a go. I'm more concerned with your people genuinely wanting abstinence and recovery.
I tried to assist twice, from memory, and got relatively short-shrift on both attempts.
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