Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

Hi Blondi

Glad to hear that you have had a good day 9my prayers were answered)! Hope you continue to get stronger in every way as the days go by.

Take care and speak soon.

Feb.x

Hi Blondie

Many thanks for your kind words.

Continued best wishes,

gazza

No,gambling and another good day, I have even been to get my nails done this morning not had them on since January had to remove them due to my operation.

Mood is good, pain is manageable and all is good in blondies world,

I have been trying to fill my time with something constructive . I have for years always loved oprah and have been watching lots of videos on her website and new network (OWN). Some really interesting and inspiring stuff on there, so yesterday I ordered a gratitude journal and a journal in general to do some exercises around spiritual awareness, I have also signed up for A 31 day trial of meditation which starts on the 11 march with videos Nd exercises to do.

I am quite excited about it.

She had a great saying ... What ever follows I am..... Follows you ?

What follows your I am ?

I am motivated

I am strong

I am committed to my recovery

I am beautiful.

I am worth it.

Take care everyone

An invigorated blondie

Xxx

Hey Blondie,

Many thanks for your post on my diary. I remember you posted when I first set the thing up; your support is really appreciated now - just as it was then a couple of months ago.

Loving the positive vibes of determination here - sounds like you are incredibly motivated, committed - and a great example to everyone on here trying to beat the demon.

Keep up the good work!

D123

Hey my friend,

Thanks for the message. Great to see you finding your feet again. Not quite been the same without you. You mention my year closing fast but you are not too far behind me. Hopefully we can continue to drive each other forward. It has been a hugely enjoyable experience being part of this forum and you have been right there with me for the vast majority of it.

Keep looking forwards and sharing your thoughts with us.

Flagg x

Well sounds like ya got a good attitude going and thats always half the battle when your dealing with anything really. Glad your finding some you time cause never seems to be enough of that to go around.

Thanks for the post on my thread and hope we all get a good dose of summer this year.

Nice post Blondie.

You certainly give strength and wisdom to others which is a great quality. Keep clocking up those days. You seem like you're in a very good place which is very inspirational to me and I'm sure to others. Have a lovely weekend.

G

Blondie.

Someone got there mojo back.!!!!!

Well for me it was never far away.

The wonderful thing about recovery is it can never be wrong by making a choice, one so important to so many things we can one and all seek and find and use whatever will aid in making us make the choice.

Ironically whilst at it our choice was for all of us ultimately the Same, a sh#t,thoughtless,selfish and devastating one.

Most of all through our choice today i can see enjoyment, something else addiction robbed us of.

So good to see you posting and positive, something you earnt through your endeavour and hard work.

My hope is it helps you as much as your writing helps me.

For that Thankyou.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Blondie,

Great to read about your progress and your commitment to your diary is an example to all of us.

Have a lovely weekend.

Tomso.

Youre a beautiful lady alright and I have pics to prove...lol

Glad to see your up and attam as they say...spring I your step and new worlds to explore right on your doorstep....keep OMMMMM keeping OMMMMM!..lol I know I know it's corny as ....

What follows I am right now ain't pretty for me so gonna have to work on that inspiration from you today xx

R and d xxx

Thank you everyone for your posts it never ceases to amaze me what wonderful people you all are.

Well no gambling but what a day yesterday, I lost the diamond put of my engagement ring yesterday I was absolutely devastated and couldn't stop crying, I know it was there when I left my mums because I shown her my nails, I then went to walk woody and pick my princess up from school, when I got home I realised it had fell out.

I hunted high and low and was even out last night in my car and outside the house with a torch hopeing it would shine in the light if it as there. I walked round the country park this morning with my eyes on the floor but knew i had no chance of finding it if it fell out there.

This morning I went in the dining room which I looked in last night and it as on the floor underneath a unit that I have underneath a picture of my dad. I am so so happy I can't quite believe it as I had resigned myself to the fact it was gone.

I had it resized and I don't know if,they remount the diamond but I hadn't caught it or banged it and even if I had that shouldn't happen, so once fiancé is back from snowboarding I will be taking it to the jewellers and wrapping it round there necks lol.

What have I learnt from this experience, Never ever give up hope. I thought it was a lost cause gone forever and just when I had given up hope, someone or something shown me otherwise.

A happy and very relieved blondie

Xxxx

Fantastic ! ....glad you found it Hun..the lesson to be learned in something you wouldn't expect...

Also just to add to your last post was that a big turning point in my recovery came after watching Oprah!!..it was how witholding emotion is an equal act of agression as lashing out in temper.

This spurred me to research passive agressive and covert bullying techniques designed to control people or encourage compliance ,

People like me lash out when faced with folks who behave like this as we feel whats going on and know we are being manipulated and controlled but cant name it..as a consequence we get scapegoated for lashing out or internalise the anger and become anxious and depressed ...

I think a lot of guys end up in prison or arrested as after years of manipulation they just snap, ..

Oprah rules x high 5

Xxx

Wow Blondie!! That's a really happy ending to a very worrying story. So glad you found it and where better than right by your dad. I idolised my Dad and when he passed away, I found it very upsetting but he did have a good life all in all.

Out of a very stressful situation, you remained strong in your abstinance from gambling. Well done.

Take care.

Feb.

Hey Blondie,

Glad you found your ring, and that's really neat where you found it. I had a similar thing happen to me yesterday also pertaining to my father, I believe, I posted about it in my diary. Stay strong and I hope you have a nice weekend.

Chicagoguy

Hey Blondie,

Your words are so very true. My mind for the last 2 and a half years was clouded by my addiction. Now that I'am sober, I can see and understand so much better. Thanks again for the kind words.

Chicagoguy