Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

My how the day can change in an instant, mum had to have a biopsy yesterday from her mammogram and she will get the results on Thursday, It's easier said than done to not worry between now and then , but I suppose sometimes the masks I removed when I stopped gambling come in handy, I am trying to be strong and supportive for my mum but deep down I am scared and worried about the results and wishing the days away until we know.

I just need to keep myself busy and try and take my mind of it as best i can. One positive I do take from the things that have happened this year is that no matter what life throws at me I am still standing and rather than run away and hide behind gambling I am still standing and facing them head on with my body armour slightly dented but still in tact.

Up yours gambling today I win AGAIN.

Thank you for the post everyone,

Take care

Blondie xxx

Hi Blondie.

Sorry to hear you have afew worrying days ahead of you. I know the feeling, I am in Court tomorrow giving evidence - starting to brick myself but like you, I will stand strong and put my Court Mask on.

Will keep you and your mum in my prayers this evening.

Take care and best of luck.

Feb.xx

Hi there

do understand what you are going through, have been there and you will be wishing the days away. Seems to be one thing after the other for you at the moment and yet you are so supportive to us all and have helped me so much with your wise words so many times.

Will be thinking of you and hope all goes well for both of you.

xx

Hey lovely lady...

No words ...just sending hugs ((((((C ))))))))) xx

Keep close and here for you any time ...xxx

R and D xxx

Hey Girl,

I would be worrying my heart out as well.. but, you are right. Gambling does nothing but make things worse. I know that now. I really do. Hugs and love to you and your mom, Blondie dear. -joanxxx

Ah sorry to read you have such a terrible worry on your mind right now.

you will be in my thoughts B xx

Lovely to hear that strong, determined voice in the face of adversity.

f x

Hey Blondie,

Sorry to hear about your mom, hope all is well with her, your in my thoughts. Remain strong for your mom, and yourself.

Chicagoguy

hello

sorry to hear about your mum blondie,

just wanted to say thanks for your message other day, real support and well done to you to xx

ladyc

Life may throw many things at us but if we stay strong and don't gamble it is one less thing to worry us and we all know what a worry it is! Thanks for all your inspirational posts and your shining example. Thinking of you and your mum.

DB

thank you everyone for all your kind messages, they mean a lot to me right now.

Can things get any worse right now , probably not, my mum was rushed into hospital this morning with a suspected heart attack I have been there all day, she has had some blood tests done and the enzimes are really high which show pressure on the heart, she has just been moved to the heart ward and they hope to do an angiagram to see what the course of action is, she may need a stent in the blocked artery.

She is ok in her self now and pretty chatty.

I am so distraught i have been holding it together all day but now i have crumbled, i was never ready to lose my dad but please if there is a god I cant lose my mum not now.

I feel so helpless and so angry, my brother is such a selfish human being and if ever i needed reminding of that fact today proved it, he has put oil in the water instead of the oil in his 50k car, i say the price because he is more hung up on STUFF than people, went to visit my mum stayed about half an hour then P***** off to sort his car out and hasnt been up to the hospital since, and every conversation he has had has been about his car or him lending my car and hasnt asked how my mum is doing.

w*f IS THAT ALL ABOUT.

IM FURIOUS, I just cant get my head round it.

So i will be back at the hospital tomorrow and hopefully know when they will do the tests, the other hospital will also fax over her results from her biopsy tomorrow so we should have the results from that.

all in all a horrible day one i wouldnt wish on my worst enemy.

Blondie x

Oh Blondie

What a godawful time....... needless to say, I pray that everything works out for your mum.

You are there for her, and that's all that really matters- you are coping remarkably during this c**P time. I know you're keeping strong for you both......Jeez, I wish I was better with words, but you know my thoughts are with you

Irene

x

Thoughts with you.

xxx

Real sorry to hear about this. I hope everything works out.

Tomso.

Hi Blondie,

Will remember you and your mom in my prayers. Nothing more just a hug. joanxxxx

Hi Blondie

Really sorry to hear you have had a really bad day today - me too. Won't go into detail but I will say that you are both still in my prayers and remember that you cannot control other peoples behaviour, only your own. Therefore, you just continue to concentrate on your mum and just do the very best YOU can do for her at this difficult time.

Just keep breathing and I will keep praying.

Take care.

Feb.xx