Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

Lol - well make sure you let us know whether your aunty's uncle's best friends parrot is actually the father of your neighbour's cousin's mum's milkman won't you as I'll not be able to rest until I know!!! 😉

Have a LOVELY time away, the weather is supposed to stay like this until tuesday so go for it with the bikini I say. Take care. x

P.s my eldest daughter is almost 12, why I'm adding that I'm not sure but there you go!

Great post Blondie, really fantastic to hear things are falling in place and chugging along nicely. Thanks for the post, it made me chuckle. You're right about that Kim being a right s*****r, spent all afternoon writing her a 'Dear John,' letter in the hope of letting her down gently. Hope she takes it well and doesn't start stalking me again.

A caravan in this lively weather sounds brilliant, and just what you need after the stressful (but highly beneficial week you've had). Have a nice one, don't forget the sunblock and enjoy feeling that weight and pressure lift off your shoulders. Steve

Day 34 in the big brother house

Had such a fantastic weekend away, No gambling, no worries, lots of conversation and tons of laughter, and just topped it off with a nice meal with just me and my little girl in the pub just up the road, perfection at its best.

I can honestly say that gambling didnt even enter my head not once this weekend, not even when there was fruit machines or bingo on the site.

I feel alive for the first time in a long time and it feels great, im not an emotional c*****e due to my gambling.

My mum even commented over the weekend that she could see a real positive change in me, that i was opening up more, and i must admit i smiled when she said it.

Im getting stronger by the day, im getting a little bit of me back each time and it feels amazing.

Back to work tomorrow, but i will take it in my stride when that comes.

Thanks as always everyone for your support and comments it always makes me feel very thankful that i found this site.

Blondie

Score so far Blondie =34, Gambling demons a big fat zero

Hi Blondie, thank u 4 ur support on my diary 🙂

Well done on the 34 days gamble free, u r doing gr8!

I'm glad u had a gr8 wknd away u soooo deserved it 🙂

It must have made u feel very proud when ur mum said she could see a real positive change in u.... Blondie u have put soooo much hard work, strength and determination in2 fighting this. I think u r gr8 and u deserve all the rewards and postives u r seeing and getting in ur gamble free life now 🙂

Stay strong and keep going xx

Hi Blondie - or should I be saying "yo Adrianne" lol.

Thanks so much for your post on mine, yours always make me smile 😀

It does me good that you can see the change in my posts, coz Im actually feeling what Im writing and not just saying it now - if that makes sense ?

Your 34 days is a massive milestone on this journey, so stand up and take a bow you deserve, and have earned, all the applause that I and all your other friends on here give you.(clap,clap,clap,clap,woop woop,woop)!!!!

Have a great gamble free day, take care my friend

All the Best

Cameron

I'm really glad you had a nice weekend, sounds idyllic!

Look after yourself today. x

Good evening Blondie,

Just a quick post to say that I hope your day back at work went well for you and didnt cause you too much stress.

Take care 🙂

Cameron

Hi Blondie. I have started posting again and a lot to catch up with. Really well done on your success so far. This hit a chord.

"I feel alive for the first time in a long time and it feels great, im not an emotional c*****e due to my gambling.

My mum even commented over the weekend that she could see a real positive change in me, that i was opening up more, and i must admit i smiled when she said it.

Im getting stronger by the day, im getting a little bit of me back each time and it feels amazing."

How wonderful is that against the brief relief of misery followed by even deeper despair.

Might be worth writting that down and pop it in your purse im the old demon starts coming it.

Love Graham

day 35 or 5 whole weeks

First day back in work today and its funny isnt it things are never as bad as you think they will be, and they wasnt apart from the 2500 emails that i had lol.

No thoughts of gambling have entered my head today untill i got home to an empty house, little girl is at her dads, boyfriend is working in scotland and eldest is out, it would be times like this when i would of gambled instead im posting and reading on my diary and keeping at the front of my mind the reason i dont gamble.

Its been 5 weeks since i last tortured myself with the constant cycle of winning, losing and then losing it all, then press repeat untill you reach your rock bottom, and i can honestly say i am done with that, im not taking the easy option out anymore, im standing up to my demons, stronger, wiser and with determination, and just for today I wont be going back there anytime soon.

I feel more like the person i lost all those years ago and im holding on to that feeling to keep me motivated to beat the demons.

I have found myself having conversations with people i wouldnt of dreamed of having 5 weeks ago and its building up my self worth every day.

So just for today i will not gamble.

Thank you everyone for your posts, i will be re-posting soon.

Stay strong my friends.

Blondie

score so far Blondie=35, gambling demons a big fat zero

Great stuff Blondie. A really positive post. I know what you mean about the empty house. I find when I'm keeping myself busy I don't think about gambling. It's the quiet time that are the hardest.

Keep talking to different people and hold your head up high. Your doing really well

Stay strong

Westsider

Hi Blondie

Good to see you staying soooo positive 🙂

Glad your getting back the person before , however this one is going to be soooo much stronger !

Gaining our self esteem back is one huge positive , we need this to continue to believe we are worth all the hard times in order to gain the good ones back

You sure are doing this

Keep strong

Lucy

Hi Blondie,

Really great post there, its so good to read how much you have turned things around, and I think its amazing that you've found YOU again. Your overall change leaps from the page each time you post, I smile with you and for you.:D

Glad work went well for you, you have come so far on this journey and I am proud to call you my friend.

Have a great evening,

All the Best

Cameron

Thanks 4 ur post blondie really well done on 35 days gamble free.

The effort your putting in is brillant

Hi Blondie 🙂

Just wanted to say u made me laugh soooooo much in chat 2nite. I needed that thanks.

I think u truly are an amazing person, battling ur own demons but u still have time 2 support many others.

Keep going u are doing brilliant 🙂 xx

hi blondie,

thnx for your post!i more than willing to reach 100-200-300 days bet free!you are too!

take care!

mike