Hey Blondie,
Long time o see 🙂
I believe you are enjoying your new found life and happiness.... couldn' t b more chuffed for u :-)))
Keep it up and take care
Day at a time
Sandra x
Hi blondie glad your well and continuing on your great recovery path. I may be late but I hope you had a great Christmas and New Years. And best wishes for 2014 - I hope it's a great one for you. I've been thinking of late about my recovery and my life in general and has made think of some of the great support and kind words I've had on here and you have been a massive part of that. So I thank you for all those kind words of support, advice and encouragement. Its been 2 years possibly more!! How time flys! Enjoy every minute, thanks again for everything. Take care blondie.
Thanks dave /sandra for popping in I wish you continued success in your recoveries.
So i suppose an update from me , nothing really major to report on the gambling front, i seem to have settled into things after 20 months of being gamble free I suppose its easy to slip into complacency, but Ive seen that happen to so many strong people I just cant allow myself to do that.
This forum and people on here played a massive part in my recovery and still do as if the demons strike then i log on and read .
I suppose its like anything every day i am learning new behaviours by not gambling, it was so engrained in my life for years it became part of me and it poisoned everything in its path.
So i face each day still 20 months down the line with the thought process that "just for today I wont gamble" and I will continue doing the things ive done to remain gamble free.
One thing this site gave me was strength and hope, and every day that grows.
What ever road you are on in your journey to recovery there is always hope.
take care everyone
Blondie.
No bet since 23rd april 2012.... wow !
Hey Blondie
Lovely to hear from you again and a vwry well done on your continued abstinance - where there is a will, not only is there a way but, also, there is hope!
I am one year gamble free tomorrow (minus my few hours moment of madness). That moment of madness taught me a great lesson!!
Take care and continue to enjoy life.
Feb.xx
My dear friend
It is great to see you have found a continued recovery path that is working for you, I am so glad you have joined the 2014 gamble free thread, as you say a great way to maintain focus.
This year I will be seeing it to it's conclusion, it was a very hard pill to swallow when I gave my recovery back to addiction for those few hours, but without doubt I got back up dusted myself down and most of all learnt a priceless lesson.
I can never place a single penny on a bet of any form again.
Take care, I hope that woody is still fit and well, my two are a ray of sunshine!!
Duncs stepping forward never back.
Hey Blondie,
Much congrats to all your hard work. Hope this year is a great one for you! Thanks for all your support through 2013.
Chicagoguy
thanks for popping in chicago. Hope all is well with you and your heading along that recovery road.
Soooooo I couldnt even find my diary its been that long.
Just thought i would pop buy and see how everyone is doing, Have i gambled .... not a chance, havent got time...
Life is ticking along well its steaming head first at the moment so in all honesty i havent really given it much head space... That demon isnt living rent free in my head anymore.....
Ive said it before and i will say it again, this site the people on it were my lifeline in the early days, so keep at it people. You can do it...
Hope all the usual suspects are well, shiney pants..... Lazarus, Duncs, SA, Judy, Lady Feb, MR B, rainbows end , milkman,
to all the newcomers, remember if you always do what youve always done , you will always get the same results. Change just one small thing every day..
ONWARDS AND UPWARDS
Blondie xxx
Great stuff Blondie! ... onwards and upwards... warm regards... S.A 🙂
Great to hear from you Blondie and it's nice to hear you're keeping busy. " no longer living there rent free," that's a lovely way to put it, I like that one. You're a real example of 'you take out what you put in.' Anyone just starting this recovery journey would benefit greatly from reading your diary.
Keep learning, growing, enjoying
Steve
Ha! Just watched the vid. I like that song a lot and it's where my mind is at the moment. All good and positive thankfully.
Take care
Mork
H Blondie,
Hope you are well, it seems you have really built up some strong armour and are in a good place. I haven't been around for a while either and slowly but surely those urges from the demon get weaker.
You have been a real inspiration for me and so many others, you have shown it is possible to live without gambling and to regain your life for yourself.
here is something for you my dear.
Hiya blondie. Glad things are good for you and your strong as ever. (Hope that's still the case, I'm sure it is) very proud of you for really changing your life, not just stopping gambling but improving your life and it's a great example to others including myself. Keep leading the way, we shall follow. Take care blondie and thanks for all the past support.
Hiya Blondie,
Just dropping by to say hello and wish you all the happiness you can get because you are sooo worth it. Never forget it dearbsoldier, keep moving on, keep smiling and all the best 🙂
Sandra x
Hi Ms B
(or are you Mrs now??)
I'm not sure how often you check in here, but just popped in to wish you well and I'm assuming that life's good for you n yours.
Take care
Irene
x
Hi all
So it's been a while since I posted on my diary , thank you Sandra and Irene for your well wishes. just thought as I approach my birthday I would update my diary and by that I mean the day I decided to stop gambling 23rd April 2012 nearly 2 years ago. I still remember how I felt that day, how desperate I was, how my head was still buzzing from my latest gambling binge, how guilty and stupid I felt, how sad I was inside and out. I had lost count of the times I had told myself I would and could stop P*****g my life and money up the wall.
Although I didn't know it that day was different for me as that day I promised myself I would do what ever it takes to stop , and that I couldn't do it on my own.
I started my diary , I attended g.a, I had some counselling sessions and tried to start way through the chains that bound me, my grief for my dad, my guilt, my shame, my dislike of myself and the things I had done and the people I had hurt and let down.
It hurt like hell it was like opening up a septic wound and poking around in it with a sharp knife but it was the only way for me to have any hope of moving on.
Someone once said to me at g.a that this is an emotion illness and for me that was something I could relate to.
Nearly two years on I'm getting to a place of peace and acceptance of my past don't get me wrong I don't want to paint a picture of daily bliss its not but now I am stronger and better equipped to deal with it and when I experience strong emotions my first thought is no longer to gamble its to face it as best I can.
I am happier than I have ever been and for that I am very very thankful .
I often think about the people on the diaries who had such a massive influence on my recovery, my diary was my lifeline in the first year of recovery. I still read a new diary post most days to remind me of the torture and pain that I felt when gambled.
Today I didn't gamble, tomorrow I get to make that choice again.
Strength and hope to all
Blondie xxx
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