Gone too far andnow its a mess.

Breakin

Welcome to the forum,a place where you will receive a wealth of support,help and some amazing advice all by like minded folk who share the same common goal

to arrest the destruction that gambling has waged upon their life.

You could look at the reason you are here as a last resort,addiction will try it's best to tell you that gambling is the best option,still the answer to lifes problems

For me gambling in the main caused the problems in my own life

For twenty years I relentlessly pursued all outcomes of my life on the outcome of an event I had no control over the outcome of.

Recovery offers the polar opposite.

It offers you a chance to become a winner,ironically through arresting the punt you get what you gambled for,you become a winner. The choice is there for you,all you need to do is want it,to really want to make a choice to arrest the punt.

My advice the same advice that was gifted to me on my first days recovery

There is a triangle

Time-money-location

take one away at all times and the punt becomes impossible,gifting you the chance to take control of your own life,a life without gambling offers the chance to live without the misery,the self loathing and the mind f**k you get with each episode of gambling.yes the s**** we all face from time to time will still be there but you through making a choice to arrest the punt will not add to that s**** needlessly.

Lastly be kind to yourself,addiction hates that.

Recovery is a gift to yourself

Enjoy it

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

This is my Day 1.

On the back of a sleepness night I tried to restore some normality. I can't believe how when caught in the grip of gambling I became a total zombie. Not only had I no concept of money or reality I had fallen out of the things I normally do. So this morning I went a run and it felt like the old me again. It also showed how much I've let things slip as was way more difficult than should've been but maybe that was down to my mental as well as emotional state. I also broke down all my finances and was a real eye opener as to how much I've squandered.

On a positive note I bit the bullet and transfered my near maxed out credit cards by balance transfer so I know have a year to deal with the immediate debt rather than have the weight of that debt stopping my return to normal ways. Its ironic before the past few weeks I was troubled by debts in the hundreds, if only I'd switched them then I would've been in a far better place.

Another positive is that I have had absolutely no desire to go back to the chase.

And Duncs, thanks for those wise words, your triangle analogy makes total sense.

Day 2

My posts will get pretty boring if I just count up the days, but at the moment I need do it.

grerat pst i appreciate the honesty.

i totally emphasise with you i feel i have lost so much myself. but dont worry my friend you have plenty of life ahead of you just focus on being the star of your own movie.

get a pen write down all your goals and all the things you never wish to do again.

for dreams are nothing without goals.

kind regards

axeman