HARMONY !

Good morning all,

Laying in bed , and the silence is sooooo welcoming .

S.A thank you for your post and I can totally relate to what you said . I did not see it as a downer , I saw it as a fact of life . I believe that even if , I lived a life I deemed as perfect , I would still be an addict , still be compulsive . I think you are right in that it is all self satisfieing and escapism. But I think for me , is accepting that i have an addictive personality , all the happiness in the world would not have me wake up cured .

So what do I do about it , nothing I suppose , just start at the tender age of fifty to accept it . Then try my damdest to learn to live along side it . Without it becoming the thing that defines me , or the thing that controls my every waking moment .

I believe rightly or wrongly that I am slowly , very slowly starting to do that . Maybe that will end up being the true happiness , or contentment I have been searching for .......

Shiny xxxxxxxx

Morning my friend, sunshine ? Not a hope here, very overcast atm but hopefully it'll break away.

I find myself all a**e for elbow this morning, I typed out a reply to your post, only I did it on my own diary when it was for yours.

Im sure this disease effects our mental state, like the 'buzz' confuses the wires in our brains, then when we stop, the minds struggling to copewithout the flashing lights or whatever its food was.

I sound like a raving lunatic ? Have I lost it ?

I hope not Shiny, Im only just starting to pick up my marbles from last week.

Kitbag under the stairs, gradually creeping towards the back of the cupboard, will be glad when its that far back that I cant see it !!

Have a great Sunday my Shiny friend

Cameron

Good Morning,

I like the theme with our diaries right now. That theme is peace. Sure we still have questions, issues etc but the answers can be found in time they don't need to be now answers everything doesn't have to be today. That is peace I think, for the compulsive gambler if we can stop living for that now moment and live for life instead we are def on the right track.

You are right about the double deckers not on my menu at the moment it's a shame really as they taste so good lol! Not sure I will get through 7 miles of running today as it is tho so the double deckers need to be put on the back burner for the time being.

Have a nice Sunday!

Flagg

I so agree with what Flagg just said, and if ever there was something I need right now in my life it is peace.

You need to widen that middle space of yours, theres a few of us on here looking to get in beside you, although Im a long way from it yet, all I ask is that you keep me a seat 🙂

Take care

Cameron

Yo,

Once again I am surrounded by silence .

My whole family is out , the shop is shut being Sunday .

And I feel to coin a fraze am at peace .

No telly , no waiting for the inevitable shout from down stairs that there was a problem in the shop , or needing to pop down to make one of my lovely staff a cuppa. No listening to my OH , snoring away on the couch during his afternoon siesta. No teenage daughter needing help to find the only top she could possibly wear to work .

Just silence , I can feel all the tension , all the stress of the previous week evaporating through my pores .

So again today I say right now , I feel at peace , it's amazing what just a little bit of silence can do ......

(oh and let's not forget, there is NO peace whilst you are still gambling , so to feel as I do right now would be impossible if I was still at it)

Shiny xxxxxx

All that lovely silence, it's like fishing but without the fish, rods and water. Enjoy it Shiny, let the stress and tension evaporate.

Steve

Good Morning Shiny,

I hope your peaceful day yesterday has helped you recharge your batteries.

I did very little myself and the fog has cleared from my brain this morning, I just couldn't seem to get my mind in gear at all yesterday.

My pocket rocket lost his first tooth yesterday, it brought it home just how quickly he is growing up, seems like only yesterday that he was still in nappies 🙂

Hope you're not getting the wind/rain that was forecast, the weather effects my mood for some reason,

Have a great day friend, take care

Cameron

Hi Shiny.

Just popped by to thank you for taking the time to post on my new diary. Sounds like you had a nice relaxing day yesterday and all is good with you. Take care now

Keith x

Oh you do make me smile my friend 😀 I ask myself why I ever left the forum in the first place when Im so much more focused when I have friends like you to share things with.

Tooth fairy gotta give him money for a new wii game, theyr around £30, but it would've took me all of 5 minutes to throw that in a bandit, so theres no question that he'll get it, and with lots of love too.

Chucking it down up here - no change there then I hear you say. Had my sister from Wales up for a couple of weeks and she says she could smell the cleaner air compared to the smog that she says she has to live with down there, so maybe living with the cold and rain has some smidgen of an advantage.

Regardless of where we live or where we're from the gambling is the same the world over, and I guess if I were to move to the moon some godawful bookmaker would be there before me, setting up his wee pokey premises, flying his wee sh*tty flag beckoning us all in. Well guess what, he can stick it where the monkey shoves his nuts (as my old mum says), coz heres one who aint interested.

Have a great day my friend, and thank you so much for your support.

Have a good day - hope your on holiday, same old same old up here, no holiday 🙁

Cameron

Womble Hi 5's to you Miss!

Sounds like the peace and calm is just what was needed.......deep breaths and just go with the flow.......Love it !

Very boozy weekend..not caught with x factor but it is on my list tonight ........looking forward to having a laugh!

So bit of subdued womble today...caused by too much yellow stuff!

Enjoy the rest of the bank hol

Hugs Sue xxxxxxxxxxxx

Had to write again...just so I can sign off as

WW....Wangling womble...LOL

thanks for the giggle shiny!

Sue ...ww...xxx

Hi there,

As always thankyou for your post on my diary. I have been very quiet recently but only because life is so busy. I have hardly looked at my computer in the past week. You know what I am talking about - work, life and all the other complications we experience all at once. Baby still not sleeping through the night. Mum and dad walking around like zombies.

Half marathon race is finally upon me and I race on Sunday. This coincidentally coincides with my 200th day gamble free. I don't count days but I put this reminder in my phone way back at the beginning.

I am glad you experienced a peaceful and happy weekend. I have been having quite a hectic last few weeks but still no problem with thoughts of gambling.

Can't speak long tonight I am about to wake up the baby and hopefully get him to take a full bottle, which will hopefully see him beat his best time of waking up at 0445hrs. Roll on the time when he wakes up at 7am. The joys of parenthood.

Sorry for not keeping in touch.

Tomso.

Yo,

Unlike the rest of you wonderfully people , I had to work today 🙁

Really did not want to , took every ounce of strength I could musta to go in . Saying to other half this morning , need a different job , not that I would find one that pays what this one pays , And as I am on the wrong side of 50 not sure who would employee me , So it was just idle talk .

In this current climate I am very very aware how fortunate I am to have a job and a business . Which is a lot more than most have . Bisnesses in my town are closing daily , wear as we have just managed to keep our head above water .

So tonight I will go to sleep counting my blessings cause there are many , and even if it gets me down at times my job is one of them.

Good night one and all

Shiny xxxxxxx

Morning Shiny, thank you for your post on mine, your support means heaps 🙂

Don't mind a bit of Take That, back for good sounds good to me ! The OH is a Robbie fan, think the fact that my son kinda looks like him may have something to do with it though !

Great that your business is holding its own in this current climate, but don't forget who got it to where it is, huge pat on the back to you and yours my friend, you deserve all you have - and some 🙂

I often wonder what my life would've been like had I not had to give up work, but no use "what iffing", it is what it is and I just gotta get on with it. Did go through a spell of "if only'ing" but hey ho, s**t happens eh ?

I hope you were'nt ran too ragged yesterday, up and at'em today my friend 🙂

Have a great day,

from a cold but sunny Edinburgh

Cameron

Hi Shiny

The last brick from the top of the chimney would not have been enough when I was in action. I wanted everything and I wanted it now. Today I accept that I have what I have and that is good enough for me. Being thankful is a different way of living today and it is nice to be happy with me! Take care