Im going to start a new diary for my recovery - A place I can come to write down all my thoughts, urges, success', everything...
Ive started a couple of diarys before but want a fresh start and so this diary will be the one.
My story is a carbon copy of a lot of people here, gambling for years on everything, experienced horrible losses and very minimal highs from Gambling (Seems that those are the ones we harbour on too and remember so vivadly nevertheless).
Ive taken part in the Challenge of 2014 and had my most successful abstinence, think i experienced around 5 months of no gambling at all (The most away from gambling in around 10 years) but slowly over this year its been creeping back in and i have had 2 or 3 big blow out months where all the horrible feelings resurface, the doubt, the unhappiness, the chasing, the begging, the selling, the constant thoughts, its a horrible horrible world and i just want to stop the Gambling altogether.
No lottery, no football betting, no online, no casino, no bingo, no sweepstakes at work, nothing - It has to be all or nothing - Ive tried before to limit and budget myself, but it does not work - Im a gambler and will not stop - Even when o have won a fair bit, ill keep going until its all gone - Then i regret andhate myself instantly afterwords, aslking why couldnt i walk away or just go back in time ten minutes. Its a horrible addiction, but it is one i know ill beat - Just need to get in that headspace of late 2014.
Ill be noting down my thoughts, comment if you wish, do it together but ill be here for a very long time trying to rid this addiction from me.
Hope everyone is trying too and looking positivly to what a gambling free future really holds.
Drew
Hi Drew2002,
Thanks for your post, and I’m glad you came back for more support and help.
It seems like you’ve been struggling with your gambling problem over the years, you keep trying to stop, you gain control for a while, and the urge creeps in on you again. It’s never easy trying to stop but, it’s doable. The important thing is that you don’t give up! It’s advisable to keep persevering, and with help and support from us, and also from fellow Forum members, coupled with your own experiences and determination, hopefully, you’ll come to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I’m not sure what type of help you’ve receive from us but, in case you think counselling will help you to stop gambling, I’ll advise you not to hesitate in calling our free phone Helpline on: 0808 8020 133, and speak to an adviser for both counselling referral and further help.
Perhaps you’d like to think about spending some of your spare/ gambling time on our live chat as well; it starts at 8.00pm and finishes at 9.00pm every day. Also, reading more post from the forum for strength and more strategies regarding stopping.
Your struggle for a gamble free life continues unabated, and Gamcare is ready to support you every step of the way.
Do try and stay in touch with us, and pls. keep posting.
Kind regards,
Beatrice
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