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Congratulations on 100 days. It’s a great achievement. Here’s to the future. Wishing you all the best.

I'm a little early Matt but wanted to congratulate you on your 100 days, you are coping with some massive changes but it can only get better, every single day you don't gamble is a Victory and a step closer to getting your life back...I wish you well!

M x

Day 100 begins. Thanks all for your kind words.

Hard to see it as an achievement but what it does do is guarantee a more positive future for me. Today I will not gamble!

Welcome to the century club. It's not been an easy ride for you bud but you're doing all the right things now. I accepted I could not place a bet early on it took my a while to accept the damage I had done had cost me my relationship and family. Sometimes you have to let go on order to take back control. Keep avoiding the first bet and enjoy today and give yourself a lot of credit.

KTF

Hi Oldham, thank you.

I understand how I have got here, my councelling has truly helped me a lot. It is hard to accept what this illness has done to me but I guess I have to move on now, I know this.

I am off to see another old friend tonight, trying to keep myself busy now. They know about my problems so it will be nice to catch up and get myself away for an evening.

Day 100 will be a good one

Matt

Half way through day 100. More mixed messages from the ex, one minute house sale then saying she wanted to meet yesterday for talks etc.

I am emotionally worn out but I will not gamble.

Roll on tonight!!

Matt 24 wrote:

Half way through day 100. More mixed messages from the ex, one minute house sale then saying she wanted to meet yesterday for talks etc.

I am emotionally worn out but I will not gamble.

Roll on tonight!!

Congratulations on making it to 100 days.

A rollercoaster of emotions even now!

Just ensure you strap yourself in as now its started it has to complete its full course.

Ups and downs, ins and outs, and who knows where it will end ?

Regardless you will walk away from it a better man, and thats all that matters right now.

Sbb

Thanks Seb,

I know I will never find myself hurting anyone who I care about or myself in the future. I am excited about the future as well as very sad about my past. I can never take their pain away and I wish I could.

Congratulations on 100 days gf!
You say that your emotions are all over but those 100 days may have made you more aware of your emotions which in turn will make you a better person.
You should be very proud of your achievements which have been achieved under immense pressure.
Keep it up and I'm sure you will continue to go from strength to strength x

Thank you. Yeah this roller coaster has taken it out of me but I've remained gamble free.

Feel so positive about myself as a person now but absolutely hate what I have done in my past and to my family. It's a really bizarre feeling. I've been lost for a very very long time it seems, had Windows of me when not gambling etc but now I'm back and back for good.

Just off out for a meal and catch up with a friend.

Day 100 nearly done!!!

Day 101 begins.

No urges. I have more councelling tonight, which always helps me stay positive.

Got my councilling tonight then I am going out for a couple of beers later for reaching 100 days gamble free. Nothing heavy but a bit of a let my hair down type thing I guess. Been a horrible time, I need to be around people who care and enjoy my company.

Had a nice night, met some new people tonight. I told them all about my recent troubles and not one of them judged etc. It has given me the confidence that I can go on now being a guy who has made big mistakes, has an illness but i don't have to hide it from the world anymore.

Night all

Matt

Day 102 starts. Missing my family a lot but know that they won't be coming back so have to start preparing now for an alternate future.

Off out to see a friend for dinner later, need to keep myself busy and my mind occupied.

Slow morning but absolutely no urges. I really feel like I am finally getting on top of all this! The future has to be bright from here.