So here we are... Almost 3 years to the day since I first came here pledging to quit for good...
Back then I had just split from my Fiance because of all the lies, and was in a complete mess having spent the majority of the previous 10 years gambling my life away and getting myself into a ridiculous amount of debt in the process...
I had hit rock bottom and was pretty much at a point where I was contemplating ending it all.
Thanks to a firm grounding in here I managed to go 2 1/2 years without gambling a single penny... Over the course of those 3 years I managed to slowly rebuild my life, and eventually even managed to get back together with my ex. My life had completely turned around.
I have since split with the ex again... on my terms this time and not because of the lies and gambling... more because I realised it wasn't right for me or her and that we had become very different people in the time we spent apart.
So why am I back here?
Over the last 6 months I have slowly been falling back into the gambling world, and although I thought I could deal with it at first, just having the odd flutter here and there and seemingly able to walk away without a problem, I have found my habit becoming more regular and more erratic over the last month or so. I am chasing again... I am lying about where money has gone again... and more worryingly I am craving the buzz when i am not gambling again.
All the things that I worked so hard to get away from, and shed so many tears, and spent so many hours on here fighting to get away from, are becoming a regular occurrence in my life again.
I am back because this seemed to work last time. I MUST get a grip of this thing again before it completely consumes me once more.
So as the title says... Here we go again...
Day 5 gambling free.
Hi odd socks
Just wanted to say well done on reflecting back on those last few months and quickly coming back to your senses and receiving support again on here.
You have clealy done amazing in the past and you can continue to do so now that you have recognised some old traits creeping back.
Use your diary for that extra support.
Take care and remain strong.
Feb.
ye day 16 for me mate , im practicaly living on here and if i didnt i think i would be gambling again . you did well before so you know more so than me , but its almost as if anyone stops off this site sooner or later they need it again, so my point is stick with the site maybe even if forever once a week , me i think ill be forever everyday lol , but what do i know we all different . keep strong we cannot gamble because we cannot stop . im simon and i will not be a victim to this addiction
well done Oddsocks for getting on here before complete devastation arrives at your door. The feeling of getting away from being a slave to the bookies (FOBTs in particular) is complete freedom. I have been away for some time and I am growing stronger as I go. I no longer obsess about gambling I live my life for today. I appreciate today for what it is. I don't manipulate the day, and money, to accommodate my gambling habit. Take care
well done for recognizing and making the decision to act
Well done for acting upon it before you get too drawn in again.
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