here we go on the roller coaster...to a new start..

hi george xxxx ((((hugs)))) glad too see you are posting again was getting a bit worried about ya!! i know i cant believe it either im not just over 8 weeks gamble free and i still can't believe it stay strong and hope the ankle gets better soon and you can go back too work... i know that since leaving work in june i have been bored outta my mind speak soon tc shell xxx

Good Evening...

Just thought i better add to my diary...for an update still sooooooo gamble free whoop whoop..it does feel so good...a couple of times i've had the dreaded thoughts in my head...a tenner won't hurt just go online bingo etc...but do you know what just thinking of this diary and re reading it...it so stops me..thank god!!! 8 weeks tomorrow wooo it has gone so quick...plus if i can do it with sitting at home resting my ankle lol..once i go back to work am hoping its going to be alot easier to continue being gamble free....just hope i don't get too stressed...will have to tackle that when it happens doh! The good thing is looking at my bank statement online i have money lol...i have opened a isa and it feels really good!!!! i'm saving whoop whoop lol.. just like to say thanks for the lovely support esp shell xx love ya babes xxx george xx

lol yes just a week tho xxx im gonna start and do a debt count down myself... ooo dear.. just so i can see it coming down week by week will take 2 years but hey ho..xx

Good evening....

o*g i wish it would stop raining...my friend took me shopping this morning...o*g its very hard with crutches trying to dodge the old grannies racing into morrisons...lol...forgot what its like on a monday morning going shopping must be pension day lol...

Anyway another day gamble free...feel good today, also its nice to have cupboard full of food...and not worrying about what i'm buying...just thinking how on earth i could spend thousands on slots/bingo but go shopping found it hard to spend a couple more pence for good food...weird isn't it...

It shows i'm changing my though process...however as i read in other diaries it jumps on you with out expecting it...go on put a tenner on noone will know...and you think where on earth did that come from..."8 weeks today gamble free"

george xx

Hi George

The thoughts you are talking about would be fascinating if they weren't affecting us. I, too, have these involuntary thoughts and I get rid of them as quickly as I can. Usuallly 2 seconds or so. Glad things are going well.

Regards

Steve E

Thanks steve for the post...its nice that people are reading/supporting me through my journey....last night after spending hours reading diaries and posting..i was very tired was in bed by 11.00pm..which was good for me...this morning i walked jade to school without the crutches lol god does my foot hurt...but i need to do it...so am resting now on the sofa lol.. feel very positive...yawning my head off..shall be back laters xx

georgexx

sorry for being nosy but what does lol mean its probably something really obvious but i have racked my brains now and can't up up with it hope you are ok

danm

danm it means laughing out loud... common phrase used in msn its a kind hehe at yourself

george you were on page 2 hunni come on girl lol... ill be there in a mo cause i aint posted yet hehe... did your foot hurt bad? i was in bed at 8pm last night reading a book by danielle steel sisters it was called 502 pages it is i thought bloody hell that will take me weeks too read... im not a reader but wud do anything too stop me sitting at this pc for hours on end drinking myself into pissness lol its a good book... i have read half of it already dont think ill be reading tonight tho had 1 and a half bottles of wine already... oops.. had a tuff day.. listen too me waffling in ya diary haha tc shell x

Hello...

I feel so bad for not writing in my diary for such a while...have been sooooooooo busy he he... got a new man in my life and its going great...all loved up lol...Still so gamble free.and loving every minute of it, Never had so much money in my life..it felt so good going out today and doing some christmas shopping without worrying..ofcourse i have a long way to go!!!! still saving i reckon end of january shall be able to pay 1 of my bills...fingers crossed xx

g xx

hiya hun...... u still havent told me about the new man lol..... and you havent been on msn..... i bet ya gutted about the dr giving you another sick note lol bored as hell youll be.. xx i feel the same too more money have got all the crimbo pressies in i feel fantastic... x lol bought shannon oldest a laptop i hope she likes it cost me 154 quid but hey wot the hell nn xx

morning georgina xxx

Rodders 'e*e...

just like to say that it's great that new n exciting things are happening in your life.

hope you find some time for yourself xx

Rodders

o*g...i was on page 4 lol...it just shows how long its been since i have written in my diary...

Well its been 3 months since i last gambled....it feels so good i have money in my pocket and plus today have rang one of my creditors and made an arrangements to pay my debt off to them...paid £150 today and said next month if i want to pay it all off will save £234.00 so will leave me £734.00 to pay in full...just worked out my money and i can afford it wooo just shows how much money i wasted...but not any more..

Another 5 more to go...its showing i'm changing my life for the good...i started back to the gym yesterday after having 3 months off..o*g did i sweat lol had to have a sleep when i got back...lol still not back to work yet hopefully after xmas...my ankle is healing well...

hope you all have a lovely xmas i will try and keep up with my diary ...

love to you all

xgeorge xx

Good Morning to all...

Well having a good few days...been very busy with xmas shopping and wrapping gifts...looking forward to xmas...plus i have started saving for my holiday in february i can't wait...sun sand and lol....only joking..am in a relationship now...which is going so well...he is gawjus...i have told him i owe money etc but not about my gambling i don't think its the right time yet! i have told him i don't want him to pay of have anything to do with my debts etc... he just said its only money...

Anyway today the dog is going to see the vet!!!!!!!..hmmm not looking forward to it...i think my little puppy dog has got ticks...since moving into my new home...i've got cats living all around us...the dog is managing to escape into there gardens...has took me a few weeks to cover all the gaps up with chicken wirer....well she hasn't got out for the past week...but now has little bumps everywhere...making my skin crawl thinking about it lol...

I think i shall go gym this afternoon to keep me busy....right better go speak laters....

george x

hi ya..

Just wanted to add that i am at 94 days gamble free...if peeps do read my diary/posts...it shows we can beat this addiction...roll on 100 days then one year then years free...whoop whoop!!!!

take care xx

Hi ya...

Well i'll be so glad when xmas is over...have been so busy wrapping shopping then more wrapping...lol...Its Christmas eve woo and i'm 99 days gamble free, so christmas day i will be 100 days gamble free i can't believe it...i hope you all have a good xmas and a gamble free one hugs and kisses george x