Hope

Hi SA,

just been reading through some of the diaries and came across yours, you are doing well, and as you know it gets a bit easier as you get further along the recovery road.

Keep your eyes open for that job, one day it will just be there and you must be ready to *** it with both hands, but until it comes along don't go burning those bridges as we all need to be earning to pay the bills.

Stay strong and think positive, Ian

Hi SA

I have really enjoyed reading your posts here and on others diaries. I can see your committment to recovery and how great of a job you are doing. Keep on keeping on and would love to see you in chat again soon.

Hugs

Julie

Am gambling free..but after three days back at work am back on the emotional rollercoaster.. am fed up and P***** off!!

Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last bet of any kind Sunday 25th of May

(((((SA)))))

Work always seems to bring this out in you. Any chance you can look elsewhere for something that is less stressful?

Spending too much time alone is hard, too, because we all need to interact with people to drag us out of our doldrums. Hang in there, hon....

Love, Anna

HI Bread Monster

lol I love bread but ughhhh to with marmite..

Just popped into to reccomend a book "Feel teh fear and do it anyway" by sussan jefferes..

rob from gamcare reccomended it to me and I still read it each week.. For me I used to question evertything, its like a chatter box I couldn`t switch of.. but now I am ok with it and if my chatterbox start I read a few pages form my book..

You never know it may help xxx

Hoping today is less of a grrrrr day.. Keep smiling, xxx

Love & Hugs

Lucy

xxx

Sorry starting, I posted in the wrong thread. Duhhhhhh. So I had to delete it, but did not want to leave it empty.

I don't want to say anything trivial in yours, so I have to catch up with yours, before I post something.

Andrea

Hi SA

Great to hear you are still gambling free. Sorry things are grrrrrr at work....I have to say I have the same problem with work. I have looked into going somewhere else, but would not be able to do so without a large paycut. Hope things get better there soon!

Take care!

Hugs,

Julie

Thanks all for your replies... I hope to venture into other peoples diaries and say a little something in the not too distant future.

I seem to be struggling with concentration and motivation at the moment..depression sits on my shoulders like a big weight. Of course one of the reasons is that am still recovering from a hangover from beer on Friday night..what a waste of a lovely sunny weekend.

I am gambling free however..one day at a time..last bet of any kind was on Sunday 25th May this year

Well am back into good head space at this moment in time.. I have been doing positive stuff today..gym, swim, eating healthy, chatting with mates, cleaning flat and am gambling free of course 🙂 Regards to all who read this. S.A

Well another day passes gambling free. I have a mouth ulcers though...I am feeling very run down and drained today..perhaps its the heat. The ups and downs of my moods continue relentlessly but taking life one day at a time as always. Regards to all who read this.

good to see you in chat. I often don`t get to be in chat because of my shift patterns..

Sorry to hear about the mouth ulcers and with the hunidity of the heat on top.. ok so you maybe a swollen gummy and drained but your soul and your heart well that is simply alive and shining bright.. ups and downs.. the downs well pa hah to them and teh ups enjoy enjoy enjoy xxxx

take Care & warm reagrds right back at ya xx

Love & Hugs

Lucy

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Lucy

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Hi lucy..thanks for your uplifting thoughts 🙂

I am still very much on a downer and ulcerated and ill looking and ill feeling..it will pass I hope. Gambling free of course.

Trouble is it does get to me that i seldom have anything positive to say in this diary..although I have not slipped since starting my journal and it does help to write stuff.. i am struggling to be and feel positive. I do not feel as if i am working my recovery.. though I am not struggling with gambling urges at the moment..day at a time and all that..cross that bridge when and if I come to it.

Positive self-talk illudes me today..am sure tommorrow I will feel different..whether thats better or worse i do not know. regards to all who read this.

Last gamble of any kind was on Sunday May 25th this year.

(((((((SA))))))) Sending you some big hugs from across the ocean again.

re the mouth ulcers: Have you been eating a lot of acidic foods like tomatoes or fruit juices lately? That tends to cause them and/or make them worse... Rinsing your mouth with warm salt water will heal them up right quickly. Trust me. I used to get them all the time. 🙂

As for the feeling low, I'm an expert at that one as well, but unfortunately, there just isn't an easy cure for that one. What works best for me is doing something nice to help someone else, or, just forcing myself to think postively, even when I don't want to, and it usually makes me feel better despite myself. LOL.

I've found lately that just giving up the gambling isn't enough. It's about changing what was wrong in our lives, that made us gamble in the first place, too. What we don't like. What hurts. What makes us unhappy. Perhaps that's a whole other discussion, but something to think about anyway....

Sometimes I read your diary and I just feel your sadness and wish there was more I could do to help, but I'm always here to listen if you need me....

Love, Anna

Hi anna,

Thanks for your thoughts and yes the warm salt water has helped..the ulcers have all but gone now. Unfortunately I now have raging tooth ache..am all drugged up with pain killers..dentist looms.. another nerve to be taken out I think.

Ive been away at my sisters for a few days..swam in the sea..that was nice. It was also just nice to get away.. different surroundings etc. I feel stable in myself at this moment in time.

As for gambling.. I have still yet to be fully tested with having to deal with an urge since my slip in May. I know that there are certain things that I need to avoid doing when I am not in good head space..such as a day trip by myself to london.. that was what triggered me last time..it was where my gambling had really got going in the past. I also continue to do the sensible but easilly ignored things such as only carrying what cash I need for the day and only carrying my bank card when I need to.

Am back to work tomorrow..see what happens. Regards to all who read this..S.A

Last gamble of any kind was on the 25th of May this year

Well another day has passed gambling free. I will keep things short today..have spent too long staring at a computer screen today..eyes hurting. Am also a little lost for words..so thats it folks over and out 🙂