I am stronger than I thought!

Charlotte i think its brillant u insisted on paying your brother back you really are so mature you should be so proud of yourself your a great mother and your support to others on here is great.

Just be careful with your ex next week frm the sounds of him he might try and play games with you.

A real man never lifts his hand 2 a woman.

Take care

Fantastic post Charlotte, spoken straight from the heart and with true honesty, I applaud you little one.

We are no-one to judge anyone, I agree that if anything we hold you in higher esteem.

You are much to be admired, a more honest, genuine and big hearted young lady you would be hard pushed to find, esp in this day and age. You are a credit to yourself and Maddison.

All the best

Cameron

Morning Charlotte,

Wow what a post girl , really brave, heartfelt and one of sooo much maturity , Well Done

Charlotte it's sometimes very hard to put all our feelings on the line but make sure you realise that NO-ONE will judge you , they will only be thinking wow that's a lady that wants to make her life sooo much better and is doing everything she can to do that.

I admire your honesty and as i've said before Maddison is very lucky to have such a mum as you!

You are doing amazing Charlotte and we are all here for you anytime 😉

Have a great day

Keep Strong

Lucy xxxxx

Hey Char,

How's it going? Hope all is ok with you?

Thinking of you buddy... xxx

Deleted, because I was being weak.... running away from my problems is not the answer.

Time to face things and be strong!!!

I just need to learn the best way to do this!!

Oh Charlotte I am so sad that u have decided to leave, u will be sorely missed by so many. But can I just say, it has been an honour and a pleasure to know you, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for all your support and advice over the last couple of months. I wish you and Maddison a wonderful life, you have it ALL lovey, go live it 🙂

With heavy heart I say goodbye, and may all your dreams come true x

Cameron

Hi ya,

I too am sad to hear you have decided to leave.

You have shown tremendous courage , and humility over the last few months.( and have helped so many along the way, for that I thank you )

I hope all well , that ends well for you.

But please do not forget that you made friends for life on here, and the door to this forum is a revolving one.

Take care sweet heart,

Dusty xxxxxx

aww charlotte, I will miss you so much, but its your recovery and its your life and you have to do whats right for you and your family.

I hope that you carry on your journey of recovery how you ended it on here with an open mind, lots of strength and determination and most of all a loving and giving heart.

I hate saying good luck now for some reason I think its because i know theres no such thing , we make our own path in life, I hope you continue finding yours.

Lots of love

Blondie day 52 xxx

Thanks All x

FFS wot is wrong with me? y am I running away when I need the most support?

I have so much going on in my life right now it's all overwhelming.

I'm just scared of letting u all down... I am having the worst urges to gamble 2nite. I have a real battle going on with my head. I am 7 wks gamble free 2day and I soooo don't want to ruin it this time around. I have 2 much 2 lose.

I'm not good at asking 4 help ever , but I could really do with some support 2nite. I'll understand if no one helps though cos i'm an idiot. I keep telling myself I can control wot I spend... Wot is wrong with me.

I am soooo trying not to go to the machine tonight.......arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I wanna screamx

Hay honey,

It's ok we all have days like that, it is why we are compulsive gamblers.

You have done soooooooo well, this is such a difficult battle, particularly with some of the things you have been through just whilst on this site.

But come through them you have m and not just by the skin of your teeth , no sireeeee , with flying colours.

So it's ok to feel as you do, now batter those gambling urges away, cause we both know they only lead to misery and heartache .

It is the addiction telling you , you can controll it. You have now made such positive changes in your life , it is trying to con you, into thinking you can controll it.

We both know you cant,

Stay strong my lovely, just get through 10 minutes at a time, and I promise you when you win this battle tonight you we feel that much stronger in the morning.

Dusty xxxxxxx

Aww Charlotte honey it isnt about letting us down , its about letting yourself down and maddison. I know how overwhelming life can be and it could be the aftermath of your post last night. Its a natural instinct to be scared, its a compulsive gamblers learnt behaviour to run and hide. For seven weeks you have chosen not to hide I bet you could do it for just the remainder of the day, do it hour by hour if you have to. Just for the next hour I will not gamble, say those words as often as you need to. Life will still overwhelm you if you gamble tonight it will just be a million times worse . Be very very strong. You can do this I know you can xxx

Hi Charlotte

Please don't gamble tonight. You have done so well, 7 weeks is a real achievement. What's the point in going back to the pain and heartache. I was in the same situation as you about 3 weeks ago & I gave in. It has made this month so much harder. I understand how intense the urges can be, but you are stronger. You have the power not to gamble. Do something - anything to take your mind off gambling. You will feel a lot better tomorrow if you don't gamble today.

Thinking about you. Stay strong X

Hi Charlotte ,

Here for you , don't gamble tonight Charlotte as Blondie said you will feel so much worse

You are so strong and I know you can fight this no matter how hard it seems , look back at some of your posts and how good you feel with each day you remain bet free

Take it hourly or by the minute if you have too , someone said that to me when the urges were bad and it really did help

Try and find something to do , look at your lovely daughter as that should put a smile on your face

Keep strong Charlotte , you can get through this

Lucy xxxxx

Hi Charlotte,

Im not the best person to give advice on here, but you know in your heart of hearts that gambling aint the answer, its just a temporary fix to a long term problem.

Its like a drug, just one little hit and I'll be fine. Problem with us cg's is that the 1 hit is never enough, we need the whole shebang. Its all or nothing with us, we don't do half measures.

I cant tell you not to gamble coz you'll do what you feel you need to do, thats your perogative, but all I can say is - just think of tomorrow, and the next day, and the day after that. Do you really want to go back the way ? I honestly don't think you do, your maybe just peeved at life in general, or maybe having a wee 'rebel' moment, but whatever the reason, you're the one who's got the control, the steering wheel is in your hand, and only you can decide whether to go round the bend, or stay on the straight and narrow.

Just know that if you do gamble, we will always be here for you, no judgement, no disappointment, just pure frienship.

Take care

Cameron

Hey Char,

Firstly well done for talking about your problems and why/what was a factor to gamble really takes a lot a courge.

And secondly mate come on you can do this be strong you will regret playing those dam machines you are doing amazing...we are all here supporting you.

We can do it together you have been my inspiration to stop so please please don't give into the urges.

You won't let any of us down we will always be e*e for you.

Hope your feeling better and the urges are passing.

Stay strong

Shaun x