I am stronger than I thought!

Charlotte.

you never cease to amaze me, you have a very wise head upon those shoulders and you are making the right choices for you. A bigger than big well done from me, in your case I really do hope you reap what you sow because your harvest will be a bumper one!!!

Heres to you and you little one stepping forward leaving many footprints you cherish.

Duncs compulsive gambler NO BET today.

Hi Charlotte,

I just read about what happened with your exBF and I am sorry to hear that it was such an awful experience and you didn't get the closure you were looking for.

It sounds like he has got some serious issues and it is great that you have decided not to be part of his life.

Sometimes people are not capable of giving us what we need and we have to find it for ourselves, closure can be one of those things.

Take care Charlotte, the past belongs in the past.

x

Hi Charlotte ....

Just saying hello and tank you for popping on both diaries with your support...

I forgot about the first one...lol x

Sounds like your facing a few challenges hun but you seem to be dealing with them and keeping strong...keep posting and getting those feelings out.

hugs

Rach and Dotty xxx

Well done for staying strong. There really are times when we all have to be that extra bit stronger than normal and you got through it!

Onwards and upwards!

NT

Hi Charlotte,

Thanks for your post. Sadly I think that you are right. As long as bookmakers are making lots of money - and lets face it they always do - they will always be around.

You are doing brilliantly. Stay strong. You are a real inspiration to not only myself but many more people on this forum.

Take care

Dave

Hi Charlotte,

Always loved that name by the way...wanted to call my daughter that but another family member beat me to it!

You have done so well girl, Its a credit to you at your young age that you found your way onto this site...Big well done!

Thank you so much for your support hun means such a lot...Will be following you too.

Sue and Charlotte...both still going strong xxxx

Hiya Charlotte ....

just a drive by lovely to say night night ....keep posting and once again thank you for all your support on my diary .....

Im not a spokesperson for supporters but am one of the few to keep a current recovery diary so I am in daily contact more with the forum with regards posts......

I really appreciate your contribution to that side as when i first came to the forum i got so much help and support from the CG.s as much as others.

night night hun and snuggle your little girl

hugs

Rach and dotty xxx

Hello Charlotte

I know you don't know me. I use to come to chat on this site over a year ago. When apg and Graham was there. So I have never spoke to you. I have attempted to enter chat a few times more recently but I have never had the courage. I have been following diarys on here for a bit but again I have never had the courage to post my own. Your posts over the last few months have helped me more than you will ever realise I am in an abusive relationship and I have not found the courage to leave yet. So I know exactly what you have been going through and I also know that unless you have been through it that it is hard for others to understand. I know you have asked that nobody writes on your wall but I cannot sit back and let you delete everything without telling you how I have watched your posts for a while and I believe you are inspirational. You have had so much to deal with and still have attempted to help others. If it is any help to you Charlotte. U did NOT do anything wrong the other night from what I can see and it is clear that *** Please Charlotte do not delete any more of your diary . It helps me to have faith to carry on. In time maybe I will find courage to write my own journal and I would be eternally grateful if you would support me. I think you are feeling vulnerable because of what you have shared here and thats ok but don't allow anyone else to make you feel down and scare you of this site Charlotte. If you had the courage to leave an abusive relationship. You have the courage to hold your head up high and know you tried to apologise but sometimes others will purposely try and hurt you for NO reason Charlotte.

I stopped gambling for a bit and I am trying again.

I hope to hear from you on here soon. I don't post because I have no strength really. But I could not let you walk away without telling you this and letting you know you give me faith to carry on . I will keep looking out for your posts and reading.

Luv Sophx

***edited by ForumAdmin

Charlotte you need to accept that you are part of this community and you are an integrsl part of everyone's recovery whether it is someone here for the first time or someone you have built up some trust with. The demon inside your mind wants you away from recovery tools so you will gamble again. One thing that needs to be pointed out as well is no one is perfect. We all make mistakes even in recovery. It is part of life and we have to accept it. Sorry for posting on your diary but it needs to be said. Take care

Hi Char,

Firstly I would like to clear something up.. I think it is patently obvious to regular users of this forum that there is no way that I dislike you or what you are achieving.

Secondly, I haven’t responded to your posts over the last couple of days simply because I did not want to fuel your fire. I could tell the other night how angry you were and I wanted to let you carry on until you had got it out of your system. I am still unsure of why things went the way they did, but it’s not so important now. What is important is that your recovery is on track and that it stays that way.

There are absolutely no hard feelings on my part at all. We all go through tough times on occasions and this is a forum where we come to vent things, feelings, frustrations etc… instead of running to the nearest bet! Unfortunately, sometimes, other people get in the way. I’m not saying that’s right or excusing it but it does happen. I am just happy it was me and not anyone else ;-).

It takes a brave and strong person to come back and continue the fight.. it’s the whole reason we are all here in the first place.

If at anytime you feel upset with me for any reason, tell me so we can work it out and avoid situations like this in the future. I hope you know that I would never intentionally hurt you or anyone else for that matter.

Glad to see you back my friend. Remember that we are all in this together and we are all here to support each other.. that is the beauty of this forum and the secret of it’s success.

Onwards and upwards!

Lmm xxxxx

Sorry Char, I was referring to the previous poster who said that, not you.

I was never annoyed. Not sure how you got that from my posts but I guess that's where misunderstanding comes in sometimes.

Perhaps a big misunderstanding all round.

Like I said, I am not nor was I ever annoyed with you. More concerned that's all. I just know that in the past if there has been a chance of any misunderstanding on either side, we have been quick to clarify politely to each other. That was not the case this time and I couldn't understand why.

Anyway, it's done and dusted as far as I'm concerned. I will still continue to support you as best I can.. that won't change.

xx