I am stronger than I thought!

Hey lovely ...

Coming into this a bit late and missed the post that was written to you....you do have over and above your share of people who seem to think its alright to behave like that...

Well its not hun! ..your doing a stirling job fending them off and it makes me want to turn into Kick a** with these trolls...!!

Hopefully the moderators have helped and in the meantime hun...keep posing and keep us all close.

hugs

Rach and Tyson ...(grrrrrr I mean Doo) xxx

ps...just an idea and forgive me if its not relevant but these people who come on here...are they from chat or just randomly picking your diary out?...if its random then maybe you could take the 19 off Charlotte as your name as perhaps these idiots think given your age you can be picked on without consequence?

xxx

Thanks 4 all ur kind words and support on my diary. It means alot 🙂

Tbh, I have stayed away from this site 4 a couple of days because I'm confused.

I don't wish 2 sound negative but i'm just posting how I feel atm and being honest.

A week ago 2day I messed up I gambled, I did not want 2 start all over again. Because I felt those gamble free days still counted. However, something was said here and it got me thinking. So I guess i'm 1wk gamble free 2day!

Yesterday, I was really struggling and almost went 2 gamble again... I managed 2 resist. I know only I have the answers at the moment 2 my own questions. I'm not sure that I am feeling strong enough 2 continue with this journey atm, I am not sure if I can even do this nemore. I am sooo confused and i'm thinking writing this down on my diary may help me.

I don't want 2 go back 2 gambling every day, I don't want the stress and worry. I want 2 be happy and content so my gambling never affects Maddison.

So I guess it's 4 me 2 figure out the answers!

I hope everyone else as a gr8 day x

Charl very pleased to see an update. Dont beat yourself up you can battle through this your are a strong person. You helped me so much when I first came to this site broken. I will be forever grateful . Now no more putting yourself down. Onwards and upwards.

Listen Tiger, you've got to keep fighting the good fight. What's happened in the past is over, forgotten about. Only the here and now matters, it's only the here and now you can control. Everyone on this site loves and cares for you apart from the odd mindless idiot. We all want you to succeed and do well. Don't give up, remember when you started this journey you knew then that rocky times lay ahead, did they put you off? No, because you knew you had the strength to face them, nothing has changed, in fact now you're probably stronger.

Fruit machines are your problem and to some extent they are a B*****r to give up. In every pub, everywhere you socialise. Yet you can do it, others have less stronger than you. Stay strong, keep your focus. Face life, we are all behind you, you will not fall, if you stumble we'll be here to pick you up.

Take care Lotte, you're one of the good ones, find reasons to smile and you'll become bombproof.

Take care

Scabby spammy leg Steve

Hey Charl,

It's difficult!! Difficult for you to stop gambling! Difficult for you to resist the urges! Difficult to find the strength to keep fighting! Difficult to post here day in day out! Difficult to quit a life you began to know so well!

However, it is vital! Vital you stop gambling! Vital you resist the urges! Vital you summon up the strength to fight! Vital you post on your diary! Vital you do quit that previous life!

I can honestly say you give and receive about as much support as anyone on this site! You are committed to helping others and that makes you extremely popular! We would all be absolutely gutted if you were to give up! You have amazing strength of character and you need to dig deep and find just a little bit more! You deserve to succeed in this fight Charl and you have a lovely little girl who will benefit so much more if her wonderful mom stays away from those fruit

Machines!

We all have our ups and downs but in this community we do our very best to try and pull People up and through those down moments! I can guarantee you will have many posts by the end of today saying pretty much the same as me!

Keep going Charl we would miss you and more importantly those closest to you would miss you because if you give up the old Charlotte would return!

Flagg

Hello my friend Char,

Hey Hun....Hate seeing you low.....You know earlier you were so positive when you realised that you only had 2slips in flippin' yonks.......Keep that mindset as opposed to 1 week being gamble free....the mind works in mysterious ways..........2 slips in god knows how long............ Char you are a star......

Just think how far you have come......Don't let anyone drag you down!

Hugs and cuddles

Sue xxxx

Hello sweetie. I'd been feeling very similar to yourself, used up, fed up and done in. I thought this quote might apply to both of us:

'Perseverance is the hard work you do after you get tired of the hard work you already did'.

Come on lovely we can do this, one step at a time. You feel c**P today but it'll pass, all feelings pass. Better times could be just around the corner but we have to keep moving forward to find out. This poem is one I posted on my thread ages ago and then Blondie reposted for me when I was losing the plot recently, I read it everyday:

When things go wrong as they sometimes will;

When the road you're trudging seems all uphill;

When the funds are low, and the debts are high

And you want to smile, but have to sigh;

When care is pressing you down a bit-

Rest if you must, but do not quit.

Success is failure turned inside out;

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;

And you can never tell how close you are

It may be near when it seems so far;

So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit-

It's when things go wrong that you must not quit.

Chin up chicky, you're not alone. x

Keep the faith...........

Thanks all 4 ur kind words and support xx

U r all rite, I need to stay strong and keep going on this journey. I can't go back 2 gambling every nite and being stressed and worried about trying 2 win back money i've lost!

Maddison deserves more, i've decided I am gonna restart the days so I am on day 7, that's ok tho.... like Steve said I may stumble but that doesn't mean i've failed... the only way I will fail is if I give up that is not an option.

This time round I know why I slipped and it's helped because I can use that 2 stay gamble free now! One day at a time now along with Flagg's 90 day post 2 keep me focussed 🙂

I was feeling really down this morning, but i've had a really nice day with my sister and I am feeling much more positive. I will get thru the tough days and look 4ward to good days 🙂

I think the ppl on this site r brilliant, while dealing with their own issues they still have time 2 support each other. I am really overwhelmed by all of ur kind words 2day and I truly mean it when I say thank u sooooo much 🙂

Have a gr8 nite everyone x

Charl pleased to have an update. You are very strong like others have said. Pleased you are going to continue with a life with no gambling. You are a fighter. Dont let anyone drag you down. Onwards and upwards Charl

Hi Char,

Really lovely positve post, days really are irrelevent, we are all the same distance from our next bet if make the wrong choice. Your heading in the right direction and you havent given up, thats whats most important.

Well done your a strong girl you have proved that, we have the 90 day thread to keep us all focused. We are in it together.

Blondie xx

Morning Charlotte,

I am really pleased to see that you are sounding much more positive about things. Take care and stay positive. I hope that you are having a great day.

Dave X

Hi Charlotte. Keep strong darling. You've been helping others on here and that's fantastic, make sure you look after yourself aswell. Keep in mind the 90 day thread and will get there together. Take care.

Yo ,

Do you know honey , some of us gave up counting

To me it was a countdown to the next relapse. As I had relapsed more times than I had had a mouthfull of chocolate . Lol

All that really matters is today. If we can go to bed at night safe in the knowledge that to day was a day we did not have a bet . Then for me it's enough. Not that I am devaluing those that have targets or reach 100 weeks days or months. Cause they have just like me got through each day.

So do not worry about it . I have no doubt that we both will end our day today , knowing that we did what we needed to.

Take care , one day at a time , Hun

Shiny xxxxxxxxxxx

Hi Char,

Just popping by to say hope things ok with u?

Shiny is right...just for today!

Really proud of ya!

Sue xxxxxxxxxxxxxx