I became complacent.

Well done for coming on here and being honest brad that shows you have matured and can beat this I don't honestly think we can gamble at all I know I can't as with me it's all or nothing.

Take care

The bear

Thanks The Bear for your reply.

Yes, I know what you mean with the "all or nothing". I could see myself upping my stakes rediculously to recover my loss. I had to walk away because I could see where it was heading. I felt the urge in me and I've still got it now. My adrenalin is pumping just writing this post!

I know the next few weeks will be hard but I will see it through.

I am in the same position and fully relate to you. Take the positives from it - you realised and stopped which is far better than the possible chase/destruction it could have led to. If this blip only costs you £150 then that shouldnt ruin the year+ not gambling which is the important thing. get through the next few days, let the adrenalin subside and resume your normal life gamble free.

Hey Brad

Good for you making a positive step £150 into your gambling and coming on here!

It could have got way out of control and you would have been in dire straits

But it shows how much youve learned from the time you havent gambled that youve nipped it in the bud early!

The problem for most of us on here is that we still LIKE gambling.....and when we are dry for a while we always want to have a wee punt

We HATE gambling when it cripples us but then when we recover we only remember the fun we had gambling....and not the bad points!

Youll recover no sweat from £150 and posting reguarly again will start you over

You may in theory be in day 1 but youve come so far day 1 isnt what it use to be!

Well done Brad. A painful shame that you relapsed but well done for walking away before you upped the stakes to try and recover losses. This is something I have never been able to do. If the £150 is the price you pay to remind you why you can never gamble again then it will be small one. It is all or nothing for you and me and probably for all of us. Never again means never again. DB

Hi - yes I am afraid its all or nothing. A win encourages us to win more and a loss prompts a chase - either way they win in the end.

Accept its one of those things - its a strength to recognise and manage our weaknessess.

Thanks everyone for your replies.

No urges at the moment, maybe thats because there's no football on. I think the real test will be tonight when the qualifiers start.

I don't feel too bad in myself. I haven't got that gut wretching feeling like before, partly because I never lost thousands I suppose. I'm looking at the £150 as an investment. Still a lot of money, but a small price to pay if I can remain gamble free again.

All the best

Brad

Well the blocks all went in place yesterday. I was tempted to put it off until today as there was a fixture I had my eye on last night but I decided enough was enough. Turns out if i hadn't I would have lost. I could almost feel the hartache if I'd done it.

So thats given me a good start. I feel OK at the moment. There is no possibility I can gamble now.

Enjoy your weekend folks.

Brad

Well done for realising where things were headed & doing something about it! It's easy to get sucked in. Keep it up Brad!

Stub.

Well done for realising what you were doing and stopping! I know from my own stupid experience that that's the hardest part. I'm back to day one myself (but I hadn't stopped for very long) and I'm hoping that this time I can make it last.

Good luck! 😀

Hi all.

I feel so bad for not posting on here. I promised myself I would to keep me focused.

I have not gambled though. I have been so busy with work I have not had time to even think about it. The urges have gone and I feel like I did before I relapsed, positive and looking towards the future.

I will make more of an effort to keep up with my diary.

All the best

Brad

Well it's now just over three weeks since I relapsed and I'm still gamble free.

Good luck everyone.

Hey well done brad brilliant mate keep it up 🙂

The bear

Hi Brad,

Sorry to hear that you gambled, but you have done so well prior to this and have managed to stay a few weeks gamble free again. One little hitch shouldn't take away how well you have done. Keep it up.