Ste_ven
Fella welcome back, I enjoyed the contributions you made to the forum before and like countless other threads hoped you had found recovery away from the forum.
Not to be, but great to see you are working through the recovery process.
The doors of the recovery room revolve, it doesn't matter how many times you walk through them, it is what you learn each time you do.
Good move to self exclude, a weapon in my own recovery that has proven invaluable.
I actually enjoy the act of self exclusion, I see it as rubber stamping my own recovery, carrying photos in my wallet so when I am met with a new establishment I secure another victory.
That gift I received on my first days recovery still works today
There is a triangle time-money-location Take one away and the next punt becomes impossible Gifting the rational side of the brain time to think, time to re wire itself.
I look forward to reading your progress.
Abstain and maintain
Duncs stepping forward never back.
Back again.
Resetting my account I realised I signed up over 5 years ago. I am still failing myself over this.
Time to start again.... Day 0. Tomorrow I will not gamble.
Time. Money. Location.
Duncan you are right - tonight I had 2 of the 3 and I walked locally to complete get the third and complete the triangle.
Result? Money lost. So what does this tell me? Simple - time to self exclude again. I have moved since I last posted here and so my new location (and time) meant that my old self exclusions are of no use. I don't want to go back in the shops so I am going to get the forms posted to me.
I have decided not to count the days since I started as GF again, I will remember the date and the date only. I don't want to feel any added pressure about getting to day 10, 30, 50, 100 etc...
I have kept really busy with work and life in general, no gambling and no desire to. Going back to the triangle I haven't had the time to gamble, and it hasn't happened.
I need the be on guard for when I have time.
Thanks for commenting on my diary ste_ven I hope im here in 5 years saying I have not gambled. 2022.
Hi Ste-ven and thanks for the drop bye and kind comment on my diary .
I was just looking at your post regarding the day count thingy and for me it's been invaluable at times , although I'm not constantly looking at it in the way I did at the start , I find it kinda comforting sometimes to look how far away I've moved from my last bet :)) and in the early months it certainly spurred me on .
It's great that youv'e put the " Triangle" back in place my friend as there's nothing like keeping it simple and I honestly believe it's a great bit of kit to have on board :))
Wishing you well mate and talk to you soon :))
All the best
Alan
I gambled on Thursday night.
I have told my girlfriend about it and she has been great in supporting me. All the normal empty worthless feelings are swirling about inside of me but they will pass. I feel some relief in having told her, she knew I had gambled and had problems before I met her but this is the first time I have told her about my recent gambling.
So my to do list for today is:
Self exclude from local bookmakers.
Find local GA meeting.
Login here and get my words onto here.
Spoke to someone on Netline and they are referring me to counselling, I think that will really help me.
I have never wanted to get control of my life again as much as I do now. I will not let gambling dictate my life again.
I hadn't heard of the MOSES scheme before, apparently it let's you self exclude from all bookmakers in an area... going to find them online and get that sorted. They will need a photograph so off to the supermarket to take care of that.
A bit of a test today as I will be alone for a few hours but I genuinely have no desire to gamble, and it feels good to say that. I am cautious of this honeymoon feeling however as I have felt it countless over the years and yet I eventually make a wrong choice. Today I choose to make the right choice and I am in control.
Phoned GA earlier and going to go to a meeting on Tuesday night. I've been before, still not convinced that it is for me but it cannot do any harm.
Hi ste_ven, please let me know about GA as I am complementing going. Thanks for the support on my diary, I believe in staying positive and giving myself a kick up the backside in order to WIN at gambling - by NOT gambling.
Shaun
Hi Meeting you tomorrow night, will keep you posted.
Kept busy today, no urges and no thoughts about it.
Today I am proud to be GF.
Hiya Steven your doing a great job I'm with you all the way I also have a meeting tomorrow and can't wait to go .thanks for my comment on my diary you spoke a.lot of sender and I am constantly putting blocks.in place
GA meeting tonight, honestly not sure how I feel just now.
Remained GF today.
Keep going bud.
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