I abandoned my last diary shamefully. I had worked hard, putting in a lot of overtime hours and a second job, finally building some savings. I then blew the entire lot in under two hours. Absolutely soul destroying.
I need to stop, I need to remove this from my life. I owe it to myself, I'm sick of this endless torture, worry and guilt.
Today I have not gambled, the first day is always the hardest I feel. To be honest, I'm mentally exhausted. I don't have the energy for the rollercoaster ride anymore. This is it. Done. I'll never gamble a single penny again in my life, and never set foot in another betting establishment. They've had my money for a decade, they won't be getting anymore.
Yo,
Yep mate you do deserve to be happy. You said you've gone a long period of abstence before, so you know what to do.
Your future is your hands , honestly you can make it happen.
I wish you well, stay strong !
Shiny
Thanks mate. It's got to the point where I feel like such a fraud. Coming on here with intentions to stop, before running away after another humiliating setback. Gambling has robbed me of an entire decade, the scale of the losses are enormous, its difficult to focus on the positives long enough to stay motivated to stop. Anyway, day 2 has almost been successfully negotiated, not long to go.
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