As hard as it may be I need to quit this addiction (stop it) no matter what it takes. I have been going through a period of gambling on/off the past few weeks again.. I am not sure why, could be boredom, I suspect the most important factor here is the fact that my business is not going as I would like it to, I am not earning any money and this makes me feel depressed, leading me to gamble.
I decided today to be my last day I will ever gamble because no matter how depressed I feel when I gamble it makes me feel even worse when I lose. My journey will start here, I will do anything it takes to stay away from any kind of bet!
Stay strong everyone
Your last post was in February , have u continued to gamble
Hey everyone,
I will keep updating this same diary to not start a new one. Today I'm feeling positive ..lets see what happens after payday. I will and want to keep away from gambling.
MF
Hello everyone.
Today I am 21 days gamble free. Keeping strong.
Waiting for next pay check - I am confident I will never gamble again.
Keep strong everyone!
Hello everyone.
Today I am 31 days gamble free. Keeping strong.
Haven't received my paycheck yet... still have urges ... to recover what was lost. But I dont want to gamble...
Keep strong everyone!
Are you just going to gamble your pay check away? It saddens me if that’s the case. If you still have thoughts of recovering what’s lost then that will urge you to bet. Let it go, take a deep breathe and move on.
movingforward2017 wrote:
Are you just going to gamble your pay check away? It saddens me if that’s the case. If you still have thoughts of recovering what’s lost then that will urge you to bet. Let it go, take a deep breathe and move on.
I think i can handle the urges.... you are right what is lost is lost
Thanks for your reply
MF
It seems I could not fight the urges this time. Yesterday I got my paycheck and went straight into on of my "favorite" casinos in town. At one point I had lost around $1.5k and had around 500 left with me. I maxed out my bet to around $12.5 a hand at the slots ... and won a wooping $10k. I took all the money - feeling very nervous that i have gambled again - even though I was also happy at the same time because i was not broke anymore. Came home i took the keys to my safe and handled all the money to my mother and gave her the keys to keep them safe anywhere else but not at home - This way i suppose it will be harder for me to have access to the keys and therefore the money.
Looking forward to stop this for good - it has gone to far and too much money lost
Today is day 1 and I'm feeling positive
Thanks for reading
Keep strong everybody!
MF
I haven't been here for a while and thought to update my diary.
Today I am 80 days gamble free. I still feel/remmeber my last loss. Anyhow what I wanted to write down is the fact that since my last loss I've been broke and in a way I am happy for this because I am starting to learn to value money again. Being broke for a while really hits you and even gives you motivation to work/exercise and many other positive things.
The bad part is the fact that during these 80 days I have accumulated around $1000 in debts - my mother and ex gf have been financing me all this time. I am not worried i will be able to pay back soon.
I am in a way happy and positive today. Things are starting to get better
Keep strong everyone and remember always gamble free
MF
Hello everyone,
Just wanted to do a quick update on my journal.
Today I am 132 days gamble free. I am happy with my progress so far.
Stay strong everyone and remember not one more bet ever!
MF
Gambled again .....after 167 gf days ... 🙁
yesterday i gambled again... i could not fight the urges that came from nowhere ...i just got a paycheck and again i realise that when i have money sometimes its so hard to fight the urges.... above all i also pawned my cell phone too... lost around 500 usd ... i hope this wont happen ever again 🙁
Hi, reading back through your diary your first post was just under 5 years ago, however you seem to just be going round in circles by starting at day 1 and then not posting for months at a time.
I don't want to sound harsh or to upset you but you really need to want to stop more than anything else, otherwise you will continue to gamble forever.
You need to stop your access to money and put as many blocks in place as you can, and remember to keep posting on here regularly, it really does help.
I wish you the best of luck with your recovery!
JW
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