I will be there for my wife and daughter

Day 423.

Another Tuesday another check in. All is well no urges to speak of.

Check in 4/14.

I've just been reading through your incredible diary mate. Fantastic stuff! Gives me the inspiration to replicate the achievments you've accomplished. Keep it up buddy!

Moorey

Day 427. Getting urges of late and it's becoming a temptation again. I'm beating them away but I don't like it. I'm thinking it's because I have cut down my hours and wife comes off maternity soon and will be cutting her hours - going back to work and we're going to be losing money, that makes sense! But anyway the money worries and finances are always stressful and gambling was always my escape. I can't let that happen, it won't help - obviously!!

I came on here earlier when an urge hit that stopped the urge in its track. I like to do that as an urge hits, definitely helps makes me realise why I'm doing what I'm doing.

I'm thinking of running a challenge thread was checking out my old threads and I ran one in 2013 that went down well just not sure how much time I have to commit to it. Also was strange seeing a 2013 thread, if only I was 4 years gamble free, oh well one day I will be.

The check ins are flying in, I'm over a third of the way there already. I'm glad I'm doing this, it's keeping me on the right path. I'm getting urges as my life in many ways gets tougher and I want an escape but I will stay strong nothing but destruction if I go back to gambling.

Check in 5/14

New user name, new date, new challenge. I have just started a 3 month challenge thread ending end of Sept. Hence the new username, keep me focused on that date and make sure I get there. I'm not having another day 1 no matter what I have to do.

6th check in, can't believe it's number 6 already. Happy to be moving on, I'm not stopping. I have a 3 month challenge thread to keep me on the right path running to the end of September which will bring me to day 546. Be great to be in the 500+ club then I'm driving to 2 years then the 4 figure club. I still get urges and it's not easy but I really believe I'm done with gambling.

Check in 6/14

One week and I'll be at day 450. Can't believe it's really happening. I still get urges but somehow it's different. Somehow I know how to deal with them and just get rid of them. We all have a choice and my brain has finally realised that. I truly believe I'm done with gambling. I'm looking forward to celebrating many milestones to come, day 500 will be great and ending 2017 as an entire year gamble free will mean a lot. I'll keep marching on one day at a time

Halfway through. Determined to get to my goal - day 500 and beyond. I'll keep going, I won't stop this recovery journey.

Check in 7/14.

Day 448. Working at Newmarket racecourse today, last time I worked there had some big urges and almost succumb to them. That won't happen today, I'm ready for them.

I WILL NOT GAMBLE TODAY!!!!

Day 451. Check in number 8 I'm rolling onto the 500.

Check in 8/14

Day 459.

Check in 9/14

Hello 30th sept

What a great read this is. Congratulations on hitting your targets

I recently stopped gambling after my fiancГ©e found me out. I'm now 25 days gamble free and feel good with that achievement. I've had zero urges to gamble as the pain of losing my fiancГ©e is too much to bear. We are 'still together' but she doesn't know if we will get through it. I'm wondering if you have any advice on making it work. I've done the self excluding,awaiting councilling and all the self hating and feeling low, I still have bad days but trying to look at the positives as she is still here, for now. Any more advice on how you and your wife got through this terrible mess would be greatly appreciated.

Thankyou

Congratulations on 459 Days GF . Friends like yourself show it can be done and their is light at the end of the tunnel .

I had been sadly reflecting on the diarys which suddenly stop , wondering how those GamCare friends were managing with their recovery . So many good people striving to beat this gambling addiction . It is heartbreaking when people have a relapse and the illness takes over again .

Seems a bit like someone returning to an abusive relationship . No doubt they and their loved ones will once again be on the receiving end of psychological and physical torment , or maybe they kid themselves this time it will be different ! But it never is .

So it was good to read your post and reflect . It can be done . Change can be a little daunting but any kind of future has got to be better without the gambling addiction dragging me down ..... stephen

Day 464. Check in number 10, can't believe it's check in 10 doesn't seem 5 mins I committed to this 100 day check in. Now there's only 4 to go. I have such a different attitude to stopping that I have never had before that's why I'm so confident I will never gamble again.

Changing the check in to Monday. Works better for me, Tuesday I'm with my daughter all day so way to busy and stressed lol

Check in 10/14.

Poker on my mind played cards since I was big enough to pick em up never gambled heavy on cards (played for real just never big money) so when saw an old poker buddy thought maybe I could have a game or 2. But I think this maybe just my way of getting some gamble back in my life and even tho poker not been a problem I don't think it's a good idea to start it again. Better safe than sorry.