Yep, I get that...Temptation telling you you can go in, have a gamble, buy what you need & still have your cash left! Ha blooming Ha! More like, walk in, have a gamble, lose the lot, have nothing you need & then frantically run around trying to get @ more money to chase what's just been lost! Great work not giving in so early in your recovery 🙂 I walk past them all now 'ha'-ing (out loud usually, probably with a stupid little dance like a small child would do to a sibling when they discover they have more sweets in their pot) @ them because their evil pull does not work on me now!
Keep staying strong, it gets a lot easier - ODAAT
I am loving the 'Ha'-ing 🙂 I'm not quite there yet but its a somewhere I'd like to be. I want to hate them, I feel it would be quite justified to do so. You use the word evil and I, myself have thought that their level of social malevolence is akin to tobacco companies...but, my problem lies with me and I feel that until I can understand and control it, to get to the confident 'ha'-ing, I'm just distracting myself with such things.
I'm not sure the Ha-ing is because I hate them...It's more that finally I am stronger than I was! Maybe you could allow yourself a silent one just until you feel a bit stronger 😉 Don't underestimate how hard this battle it, so however you are doing it, be proud! I was lucky that @ the start of my journey I had no physical means to gamble so I had no choice but to walk past them.
You are wise to be on your guard but you are doing great so keep @ it - ODAAT
Day 59
a 13 day gap.
still not gambling.
ty Emily82
Day68
still not gambling!
still not smoking(83 days?)
My alcohol consumption is still a worry.
Twice since my last entry I have woken up and had to check my bank because I was not sure...
Rome wasn't built in a day mate...You are doing brilliantly 🙂
209 days I'm told...yay me!
The purists might grumble as I've been playing pretend slots on social media and have taken free £10 credit from local theme park(play the ten, always supervised 🙂 and walk away) on a couple occasions. But all told, I feel I'm doing well.
Tomorrow my self exclusion from several online sites expires. Thats why I'm back after 5 months. Firstly because I'm stuggling with the thought of that and this site, this blog, all you people have helped me so much, secondly because I'm going to copy/paste this entry to my wife's email (hello sweetie 🙂 ) and thirdly because thinking it through and typing it out also seems to help.
see you all at 211
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