Hey rose
Sorry to see you've had a slip...
But you've bounced back stronger...aware...and ready to go again....so that's the negative turned into a posative !
It's a learning curve for us all honey....learning to live with addiction....how to manage it...how to keep it at bay....
Onwards and upwards rose. ..you can do it xx
Checking in for another gamble free day,
Thanks Loxxie - I feel very positive about things, I have absolutely no urges to gamble!
Away with work so have my laptop but not feeling like gambling - if anything I still feel like I had a lucky escape and didnt damange my financial and emotional estate by having my relapse. I also feel like it was going to happen, I couldnt quite get my head around the fact after 100 days I would still gamble - now onto acceptance that I will always gamble if I am in that situation.
Anyway I wont linger on this any longer, its happened and now I need to take one day at a time to build my gamble free days up. I am in no rush though, going to enjoy each day, focus on myself and my recovery and the gamble free days will follow.
Today I will not gamble because I feel strong!
Day 3 - gf
Short post, busy at work but still determined more than ever to remain gamble free - no thoughts or urges but keeping barriers high to ensure that one slip remains as the only one on my journey!
Today I will not gamble because I dont want to.
Day 4 - gf
Have downloaded a good book to my kindle for sunday and dug out a couple of recipes so all prepared for Sunday when potential boredom leads me to thinking of bingo. Will also have the laptop firmly locked away - looking forward to a relaxing weekend and no gambling.
Today I will not gamble because I feel strong!
Good for you Rosie...
Onwards and upwards...
You can do it xxx
Day 9 - checking in,
Thanks for your kind words Loxxie, means a lot 🙂
Not much to report really, no gambling is the first thing. Have kept barriers up high and had some time to think about my relapse and the future. Im not going to get to the bottom of it in one day but I feel like im still making progress....i have no intention of slipping up again and want to keep picking away at things under the surface.
Today I will not gamble because I am heading for double figures!
Double digits rose !
Keep picking girl...you can do it x
Day 11 - gf!
Thanks Loxxie, it does feel good to be back in double digits!
Had a bit of a stressful day earlier this week and put into practice a little technique my therapist had mentioned in our last session - it worked a treat! Required some work and will power but it definately helped me cope better than not using it. There is a lot of change going on in my life at the moment, I dont usually handle it well but really staying focused on being in the present and seeing how things pan out instead of runnng into the future and getting anxious. I think this year with all these changes and battling this addiction could be one of the most challenging in my life....but also rewarding if i stay on track.
Today I will not gamble because I am handling things well without going back down that road!
Day 12 - quick check in and gamble free! Cant wait for the weekend to start as lots of fun plans. Hope everyone has a safe and enjoyable weekend!
Day 15 - gf!
Had an awesome weekend and ready to face the week ahead. Each day I have a small battle with myself and my mind to stay gamble free and continue to try and make sense of why I go down that path...and each day I learn a little more no matter how small. I am no longer trying to abstain - I am trying to accept. That I can never gamble again, truly accept it. Feel happy and excited for the future.
Today I will not gamble because I accept I cant.
Day 16 - gf!
Enjoying some glorious sunshine even though stuck in work - cant wait to get into my new house and enjoy the garden! Been doing a lot of thinking lately and I am looking forward to my next therapy session even though a couple of weeks away. I thought after the last one that I didnt really need them anymore but after my slip and with other things going on I think they will be really benefical for the forseeable future.
Feeling good within myself even though days can be a struggle.
Today I will not gamble because the sun is shining!
Day 17 - gf!
Quick check in, still on track and building up the gf days again - doesnt feel like Im counting down the days which it did last time....in it for the long haul now so days are just a number.
Today I will not gamble because I dont want to do it.
Keep it up rose good to see you getting back on track
Day 18 - gf!
Thanks Oldham, appreciate the support!
Looking forward to finishing travel this week and returning home for a while. Have signed up to a bootcamp for 6 weeks in an effort to get fit and lose weight for a wedding - like to have a focus and something to aim for and this is something I have wanted to do for a while. I would usually have to justify spending the money to myself but since I am not gambling, i dont have to. I can spend my money on things i want to do and not have to worry about scraping though the rest of the month after a binge.
Today I will not gamble because I have a new aim to focus on!
Well done Rose those days are ticking off nicely for you. I'm sure the gambling fog is lifting more and your head is clearer than it has been for a while. You will feel the urges at some stage again there's no denying it. It's what you do then is what's important, get straight on here for a reminder of the devastation it can cause. Remember no amount of GF days means we 'deserve a little fun' by gambling.
Enjoy the bootcamp! Get onto youtube and search for motivational videos, will do no harm!
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