Thank you for your post on my diary. Great idea about looking at the scan photo when I get an urge. I have put some blocks in place and feel good about my recovery - just need to keep it that way!
Well done on your continued success. Getting past a month is fantastic, keep on moving to the next one. As you know it really isn't worth going back to. I've gone back so many times and it just makes you feel worse everytime.
Stay on the right path, make the right choices you won't regret it.
Day 37 - gf!
Thanks 8th Oct for the encouraging post, I intend to stay firmly on this path!
Really quick post today, coiuld not go without posting.....things are good! Still eating like a baby elephant so have joined a Wellness challenge at work - not going to replace gambling with comfort eating! No thoughts of gambling and I read a diary last night where the guys addiction was slots..and it didnt set me off at all. Very pleased 🙂
Today I will not gamble because...because....because!
Day 38 - gf!
Therapy went well last night - touched on a few areas such as triggers and staying in the present. The big thing that I took away was the fact that since I had started this journey I was now exercising my will power! I had thought I didn’t really have any given I had tried to break the cycle and failed (oh how gambling brings you down) However, every day when I actively break the triangle and focus on my triggers I am exercising my will power! Do I feel strong enough to take away those barriers and just have will power alone – no…..will I ever be - who knows….the one thing I do know is that I feel pretty darned proud of myself that I am starting to take responsibility for this addiction and lead myself on a different path. Nobody can do this but me, I can have all the tools in the world but it I don’t have will power then I won’t get to where I want to be.
So I now see my £1 jar as my willpower jar – every day I put a pound in I have exercised my will and every day I see my will power grow to ensure I never go back!
Today I will not gamble because I am exercising my willpower!
Hello Rose , just wanted to pop by and say Hi and congratulations on getting 38 days under your belt , great to read how you feel so strong and positive towards your recovery , sounds like your plans in place and your already begining to reap rewards , and that £ 1 jar sounds great , watch your money grow and of course " every little helps " .
Best wishes .............Alan
Wwohhoo....a little birdie told me your 40 tomorrow. ..
Your doing fandabidozy Rosie
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Day 39 - Gf!
Hi Alan – thanks for your kinds words and well done on being gamble free for so long! It is great to see people like yourself still supporting those of us who are still at an early stage on this journey! It does feel good to have a plan in place after being so lost during my gambling days!
Thanks Loxxie for the support – I never thought I would be so glad to hit 40 🙂
Not much to report on today, finding myself content and looking forward to the weekend. Last night as I left work I absent mindedly went to put my laptop in my bag…no no no…it was swiftly locked in the drawer. Been a bit of a cr*ppy day at work but I will deal with life’s hard days without gambling – it will only make it worse.
Plans in place for the weekend, looking forward to some drinks and relaxation!
Today I will not gamble because I am about to hit the big 40!
Hey lovely lady....happy 40th !
Well done you....cracking achievement. ...enjoy your day xx
Day 40-gf!!
Thanks so much Loxxie...never thought I'd be so excited to reach 40 🙂
Bit of a struggle yesterday, plans had to be changed so was left with nothing to occupy my time...then I was invited to the bingo which I politely declined! It did leave me with ants in my pants for a couple of hours but with the triangle broke there was no slip! No urges today and over them moon I made it through yesterday!
today I will not gamble because I have reached my 40!
Yeahhhh well done rose for fighting the thoughts....your doing so well my love....super proud to be part of your journey. ..happy Sunday xx
Thank you for your post. Been away from the forum more this week.
Pleased to read another triumph in your post yesterday.
Closing in on the next big target.
Well done Rose80.
Day 41 -gf!
Thanks loxxie & Glint for your support and kind comments! This site, my diary and all the posts have given me the one thing I was missing when I had previously tried to beat this...and that's hope! I couldn't see a way out but finding this site and seeing so many people successfully battle this addiction has given me hope that I too can be gamble free!
Had a lovely day with the family, no thoughts to gamble and with the triangle broken I can relax and enjoy the remainder of my day!
Today I will not gamble because I want to live a gf life!
Day 42 - gf!
A new week and some extra focus on getting some exercise in - went shopping yesterday and made sure I was fully stocked on healthy food, packed my gym gear and heading to bootcamp straight after work...failing to plan is planning to fail!
Read some f&f diaries last night, first time I have ventured there and really got a shock at the damage this addiction does to people and their loved ones...my heart broke for some of those guys dealing with the abuse dealt out to them. Looking at my case I dont think i was at that extreme, I was really just damaging myself and realising I was getting out of control - but this is a progressive addiction so I am so pleased I have addressed it now, I would never have wanted to get to that stage of destruction.
So following on from that I have absolutely no urges today at all, I am moving forward not back.
Today I will not gamble because I do not want to hurt myself or the people I love.
Day 43 - gf!
Ticking along nicely - kept to my plan yesterday and felt a sense of achievement in eating healthy and getting to boot camp. Focus for today is to ensure laptop is left behind, simple as that. Got a book to read on my kindle for tonight and a nice healthy tea planned out....no exercise as I can hardly more from yesterday :). No thoughts of gambling, only thing on the horizon is that i see my mortgage broker tomorrow so will find out then if my crazy bank statements with all my desposits on will impact my application. I dont think they will but who knows, will deal with anything that pops up then, cant worry about it today because I cant go back in time and change it. Just makes me more determined to ensure there are never any deposits on my bank statement again!
Today I will not gamble because I want to use my money on my new house!
Hey rose. ..hope all went well with mortage advisor...and you enjoyed the book on your kindle...I'm trying to eat healthy at the moment....well ...starting with eating no c**P lol....christening on Sunday....and dress fits where it touches....so no room for extras...lol.....anyway love...44 days....yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhh x
Day 44 - gf!
Haha same here Loxxie, my eating healthy is just trying to not eat so much c**P - I hope the sun is shining like it is today for your christening...2 days to go for your big 100, im so looking forward to posting on your diary with a big fat well done!
Mortgage stuff went really well, my bank statements dont seem to have been an issue so thats good...I see it as a sign that i am being rewarded now for being on the right path...a gf path that is!
Feeling really positive with how things are going in general, being gf has certainly lifted that dark cloud that was over me for so long. I am actually writing this on my laptop which had to be brought home with me....not tempting fate but I am exercising my willpower to check in on my diary and some others then swtich it off and hand it over.
Today I will not gamble because I really enjoy my gf life!
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