Ive Arrived a broken Man

Wow I've never heard of a bookmaker to do that and it's a good thing they did otherwise u might not have taken a step back and looked from the outside . The main thing u have to do is come to terms all that money is now gone there's no way of getting it back but there is a way of getting your life back and that's one step and day at a time. You've made a massive step already by accepting u have a problem and again by joining this site . Roulette was my downfall aswell, with the help and tips from people on here and also ur willingness to try as hard as u can will help u get over this horrible 'game' that ruins peoples life's . I hope u find the help u need

Thanks for sharing and I offer you strength. It takes a commitment and that commitment is one day and one moment at at time. When feel the urge and start to dream it's not happened yet. We have a moment to catch ourselves and make the next best choice even if the choice is to feel extrememly uncomforable and sad and angry and all the other built up emotions that flood a cg when they can't get out there to play their game. I delt with not going this am. I felt so sick and eventually cried. It's been 27 days. It's all in the moment. Keep coming back and posting. I like the slogan progress not profection. Those who are free from gambling just keep coming back no matter who the recovery plays out and eventually through coming back we stay int he one day at a time place and new life begins. I have read posts of people who have found freedom for years through odaat living. Also one step at a time. Please talk to someone in person about your gambling. Hotlines are always open and it's a godsend to hear a real person on the other side of the line. T2

Cheers Dave no on my life and its worth alot at the moment mate had mail from a bookmaker Roulette has ruined my life. Cant believe a little ball can do so much damage. Im dieing to go on line and have a spin ive gone for about 20 walks round the block today, Phew this is going to be so hard can I do it. Nodbody knows. I used to play alday Sunday. im stuggling mate struggling struggling..

Cheers Tara I know I dont know you people in person but just getting mail makes me think I may just get over this. But its only day 1 Im dreeeding the next few weeks months years even, all ive done for 3 years is play Roulette. Im so embrassed to tell anybody but I will try and call a help line tomorrow, Phew what a mess my life is... what is a cg? and well done on 20+ days

Dean

Cheers mate im a grown man and im not going to lie that has just brought a tear to my eye. Id like to say a big thankyou to you over the last few days for making me see sense. Today has been a hard day but the start of my new life. I will be paying bills for years to come. I know that now. At the time £500 on red ment nothing its wasnt untill i was in chat and was told 20k lasted t2 hours on roulette but a life time to pay back The new cards arrived allowing me 20k credit i binned one yesterday and cut the other today now normally i would have been straaght online chasing money.. Thanks again Dean for your help

well today has been hard. All ive wanted to do is gamble gamble gamble. But im pleased to say this is not going to be easy.Im going to need will power and to keep busy,,,,,,

grrrrrrr My head is a mess cant stop thinking get on the rouleete wheel win that money back. For 3 years all ive done is watch that wheel spin. Its deffo like a drug. Keep thinking ive lost 40k + i could have brought this this or this... I was in Tesco this morning and thought I could have brought half the Tvs in this shop. Ive normall played Roullete a few time alraedy today...... If i get past this weekend without one spin I will be shocked.ANybody who could just leave a comment id be grateful im finding it hard today....

Surrender & win or lose, that 40k debt will only get bigger! Never mind the tellys, between the few of us on here we could have probably halved the National debt with what we have handed over! This pull you are feeling now is addiction digging in with all it's might, it does not want to let you go! Go for a walk, read a book, stand next to a drain & poke pennies down it if you have to, hell even skinny dipping would do just keep fighting...It doesn't go away, but it does get easier - ODAAT

The sooner you let go of that money, the better your chances of recovery are. It's gone. You can't get it back. You'll have had big wins in the past but where's that money now? Back in the bookies pocket would be my guess. You won't win it back...even if you do you won't be able to keep hold of it. You can't win, because you can't stop. Like all of us on here.

If you had spent the money on cigarettes, holidays, drugs, clothes or food for example would you be tormenting yourself with ways to recoup your debt? No. You'd accept that you had spent the money...it was gone...and you'd get on with the day. You might regret your spending, or be down and anxious about your debt, but you wouldn't be telling yourself that you could get it back. Of all the vices and addictions, it's only gambling that lies to us with the thought that recovering our losses is possible. It isn't..but recovering your sanity is.

Ride the storm of the next few days...there's calmer waters ahead. Don't listen to the whispers in your head and just take it day by day, or hour by hour if you need to.

LifeBegins x

Thanks guys appriciate them two replies... when I read what people have to say it helps. Head is still a mess. Can't consentrate. I'd normally be playing now on my phone. But I'm sat reading your replies. Guys thankyou thankyou thankyou. I know this is not going to be easy. All I do is think about the debit I've got myself into. But your right when I spent money on cloths did I think I need to get that money back. COME ON day 3 can beat you ...... cheers guys

You are doing great...I could barely function the 1st 3 days of recovery & read so much my eyes went fuzzy!

I see you've been in the chat room...Have you thought about GA or speaking to a Gamcare advisor? Gambling like you were must have been exhausting & finding something to do in all those gaps may seem difficult @ the moment but every urge you beat will make you stronger 🙂 Can't see it written but have you excluded & got blocking software for your phone? You did great with the cards but an extra barrier makes it harder to falter!

You can beat this - ODAAT

I'm going to be total honest OFA AT I'm scared to close my accounts. I know that probably sounds so stupid. But my head says if you close them accounts that you never spinning that ball again. How sad does that sound. But I know your so so so so right . I need to do it but it's been such a massive part of my life.Honest I'd spend hours and hours online. Waking up at two in the morning having a cheeky spin. Losing and feeling depressed alday in work. Winning and walking around like king d**k. then I'd nip to the loo to chase my money if I lost even if I won I'd still want more. My life was just roulette roulette. Today isn't getting easier.my head is saying I want to get in and play roulette. I keep looking at the piece of paper I placed in my wallet this morning written in big red letters reads YOU LOST 40k phew.......

Can't say it any other way... you must close all your accounts today or your just delaying the next disaster. Do it now and don't delay.

I get it, I swear I do...For years, the only way I could see to get out of the pit I was in was to gamble & win it all back! Not bleeding likely with a £500 jackpot but such is the mind of an addict! & so despite spending hours every evening checking all my accounts/loans/credit cards & figuring out exactly how long it would be until I could get straight, if I stopped gambling...I went right back to losing more the very next opportunity! If you don't draw a line under that money & get your gambling triangle (Time-Money-Location, remove one & you cannot gamble) broken, addiction will continue sitting on your shoulder telling you the same lies it always has! I was petrified of stopping, terrified to draw a line under a hell of a lot more than 40k & I couldn't quite get to grips with the concept of never being able to gamble again but now, only a few months later, I am more scared of going back than anything else!

The only time in my adult life that I have been free has been since finding recovery! It won't feel like it but the best thing that could happen to you is you never seeing that spinning ball again! If you're serious about recovery & you sound it, find a pair & shut them down...As long as you have it in your head that you will be able to gamble sensibly again addiction will continue to rule your life the way it is now!

Look gambling in the eye & see what it has really given you, heartache & misery then show it who is boss & take control by doing what needs to be done...I have my suspicions that today's battle will be won!