Jer's recovery diary, 2nd attempt

Thanks for asking. Yeah studies are over until September for me too. Or 2 exams on August but that's not big deal. Wasn't the greatest year ever with studies because of all the stress and stuff but wasn't bad one either. Got mostly good grades but could have took more courses if I had had more energy.

But for now 2 months without studies and trying to relax. Some days, like today and last weekend, I have felt very relaxed and good but then there are those bad and boring days too. But yeah, it's true far better being bored than gambling!

Some stress now because I'm trying to figure out where to celebrate my friend's birthday in 2 weeks. Waiting for answer if we can rent nice rooftop apartment for that.

And about gambling, almost 200 days gamble free now. I guess it's 195 or 196 days now.

Hey Jer perfect timing. I was just gonna search you.

Well done on continued...

Just had final exam. Sheesh. Slow moving car crash for me. Did loads of work for them but just f***d em up on the day. Thought you were meant to get better at handling these situs? Still all over now and looking forward to having time to do stuff. Or just to read a book which isn't study.

Enjoy the summer and freedom

Just quick update. Been very lazy posting lately because gambling related thoughts have been very minimal. Checked that tomorrow I will hit 210 days free, and even if I don't post that often nowadays I will be around!

Well good for you and glad that gambling has become part of your past and not your future. Way to go on them gamble free days.

Once again same thing when I have many boring days in a row: At some point my mind goes to gambling. I'm not going to gamble and I don't know if these are urges or what but it's d**n annoying everytime. I guess some subconscious part of my brain is just still craving for that 'fix' gambling could give, even after this long. Makes me wonder once again how long does it take until my brain goes back to 'normal' and these gambling thoughts stop completely.

But yeah same old today I won't gamble and it's been 212 gamble free for me now. Just thought it would be good to add entry now when those gambling thoughts surfaced again.

I was doing some reading here so good time for quick update. Nothing much to say but I don't want to go too long times without adding something to my diary so..

Those gambling thoughts I had last time I posted have been totally gone since, and this week things have gone back to 'normal'. Meaning gambling has been very far away from my mind. Some other minor worries, like there always is, but can't say my life is bad at the moment. And still just trying to enjoy the little things!

Checked it's been 222 days gamble free now so kinda nice number too.

well congrats on them triple 2's. Hell theres always gonna be issues in life but as we all know here gambling only compounds the injury. You keep doing what your doing cause its working. Ya make me smile every time ya up date and good for you.

Hi Jer

Well done on reaching you the 220s. You're a bit ahead of me but sounds like we're in similar positions of moving on from gambling, and not posting quite as much. Reckon it is worth posting now and again to keep the focus. You never know, guess it's possible to forget where we've come from.

Hope you're enjoying quality exam free sunshine

Thanks for posting once again brokensoul and cardhue. Always appreciated.

Not much going on for me. One of these boring days when nothing feels really interesting. Not bad day but certainly not great one either. So I thought quick update here wouldn't be bad idea.

I totally agree with you cardhue that it's good to post sometimes. Even though I feel like I don't need this site so much nowadays, I still visit and read a bit here every week. If there is even a slight chance I would go back to gambling if I stop visiting/writing here, it is a chance I don't want to take.

But yeah, guess I don't have much to say today so that's that for now.

Good to hear boy and hey if boring aint costing ya a cent put all ya got into that. Sh-it you dont need the other excitement bringing ya down. Hell those aint pretty days ya wanna revisit any time soon. Lol. Keep doing your doing.

Guess I could as well do quick update while I'm around reading.

Nothing to say really but 240 days gamble free and still doing good on that road. Stressful times ahead with other things but trying not to think too far ahead in advance.

Hello Jer - brand new to this site and was recommended to have a look at your recovery diary.

I just wanted to say well done for keeping gamble free well into your double century. It is reassuring to know that other have managed it because I am at day 1 and I am terrified I will fail. I cannot allow myself to ever gamble again.

Been almost a month since last update so good time to post something at least. Because I still don't want to forget about this diary even though I don't see I need it much at this point. But good to remind myself I always have this place to post when I feel like it!

But yeah 270 days gamble free and other stuff is mostly good too! Back to studies on Monday...

Brilliant Jer! Sounds like you're flying. Keep it up

Thanks for your post cardhue. Yeah time is flying and been over 10 months gamble free now. Haven't posted in a while... again... since nothing much new.

But this week I've been having some urges, even pretty strong ones. Guess they just always come back...frustrating as hell...

I know it's not about the money since I'm managing fine. I still don't have much extra money but I don't need more either. Same old stress with the studies (2 exams coming next week) but that shouldn't be any excuse either to get gambling urges. My life is so much better now than it was 1 year ago and not so much of those boring days anymore either... So I just don't get it why those urges keep coming back again and again..

But same old today I won't gamble and hopefully many urge-free weeks ahead!