L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N

I took my daughter to the footie yesterday.  It's something I'd stopped doing so much  or couldn't always afford in the darker days.

The raw emotion of a late winner trumps any buzz!!  I even enjoyed both VAR decisions.  Want to feel free and alive..get down the footie.

Very true mate, Im loving the footy at the moment.  Watching games the enjoyment outweighs and gambling high that's for sure, when big results happen for ur team theres no better feeling.  Unfortunately I took my debit card to town yesterday and I acted on impulses to go in to the bookies.  Two hours later and three visits to cash machines I was ** pounds down and gutted.  As I walked back I thought to myself how disappointed I was with myself.  However now I can see that I just need to go back to the days of carrying minimal cash with me and no cards.   I just need to not go out the rest of the month and no major harm done im still on budget for the month fortunately.  However had I kept going to the cash machine for more money (which is soo easy in that situation ) I would be over budget for the month.  So had I won would that change my life? in hindsight it wouldn't have changed anything I think lotter tickets would be the only gambling that could potentially change my life but I don't like long long shots.  So back to the drawing board I go hopefully I can change for the better and as I managed it before for soo long I can do it again surely.

Really don't know what to write Adam but wanted to send you my commiserations.

You have tried so hard throughout the year and I think you should be proud of the progress you have made in rebuilding your life. 

I imagine you are will be dissapointed with yourself as regards yesterdays gambling but hopefully that is the end of it. 

Take good care of yourself.

Stephen 

thank you very much for the support Stephen. I will go back to the original blocks in place and fight hard against this addiction of mine.

One week later and thankfully I get paid Monday and am in on budget thanks to overtime last month and staying in mostly this week. I could however had spent that seventy pounds on something a lot more rewarding last week. So now I have gone back to old plans and measures and will hopefully Finnish 2019 on a high.

One week later and thankfully I get paid Monday and am in on budget thanks to overtime last month and staying in mostly this week. I could however had spent that seventy pounds on something a lot more rewarding last week. So now I have gone back to old plans and measures and will hopefully Finnish 2019 on a high.

Another week coming to an end, this weeks been pretty successful, went to poker tuesday but that was it for the gambling, stayed in this weekend and didn't spend a penny. Looking forward to the footy this week gonna be good Tuesday and Wednesday then going to see spurs at the Amex on Saturday.

Start of the week accomplished no gambling thoughts, quite the opposite thoughts of saving up money. Tomorrow is pub poker but thankfully these is huge Tottenham game on tv so ill happily stay in and watch that!!! Happy days.

well the spurs game went quite badly to say the least. Looking forward to the weekend and watching the next game with the hope of three points. By the way since when did he uk become soo cold time for four duvets!!!!!

i'm secretly gutted i didn't get a little nibble about the Leicester game!

Enjoy today.  A win is due.

bdog the win was due but spurs were shocking again lol, I had a great day tho, went to footy, train back and drinks then later a curry and back home and watching bgt perfect day and no gambling I sight

Another week has gone by, just gambled the six pounds on the Tuesday. Just about to hit the year mark without having a sick day off work, cant describe how pleased I am at that. Looking to continue with the controlled gambling six pounds every week or most weeks. Looking to continue not smoking, not drinking, no drugs etc all the things that bring a successful life.

feeling depressed today, down, lethargic, didn't want to be at work today, didn't want to speak to anyone, not sure why, hope it doesn't last long.

I'm feeling the same adam and it's really not nice.  I hope you feel better soon. You going to chat room,  that might help lift your spirits abit. I think your doing really well in your recovery,  you try your best and your so supportive to others. Chin up. 

Stace