Today its the 22 of July 2015 and i am 19 days without gambling..The craving is as strong as ever, with the summer holidays here and the stress levels so high my minds been racing thinking of ways to gamble, convincing myself its the right thing to do then the other voice convincing its the wrong thing to do..Hearing your favourite slot sounds in your head...fighting all the negative thoughts..Taking each day as it comes step by step and hoping that inner strength overcomes the addiction. Tomorrows another day.Tonights another night i can go to bed knowing i havent gambled and that i haven't wasted money.And hurt myself and my family..
You are doing really well, keep strong, you have been winning for 19 days. One day at a time, sometimes one minute at a time, we can do this!
Thankyou Casey xx
30th of july today some time to write again my daughters in club for the day..Last gambled on the 3rd of july..I'm trying to keep going focused on good things and ignoring the voice in my head telling me to gamble..I am sure you all know that little voice well.Theres the voice that tells you its no good for you and that you can't win. And the damage it will do to your family ..Then theres the other voice that persuasive seductive voice telling you oh go on it won't hurt you one more you might get that big win this time and win back all the money youve gambled away.You can walk away a winner get back at the site for losing all your money.all those times., Then you try to keep yourself busy or end up doing other harmful things so you dont gamble.You might eat the wrong things or smoke more or drink too much..Part of you resents others telling you whats good for you telling you gambling is no good you feel like saying sod everyone ill do what i want. But here today its july the 30th and my cravings are as strong as ever.But i will keep comming here and reading your inspirational stories and I will keep writing when i have the time in my recovery diary..Todays another day folks ...another day
31st of july stress levels are high at the moment. And i had money sitting in the bank and my mind on overload deciding whether to restore my i pad and get back on gambling sites again. i cant get rid of the i pad as its something my daughter really appreciates and enjoys and im not taking that away from her because of my addiction. So i contacted a friend first and told them my feelings who suggested i send the money to my other older daughter to keep till i need it which is what i did so i dont have it sat in my account tempting me all day long while my stress levels are so high..Then i came on here to tell all of you, as getting it out of my system and telling others helps as the more that know the less you want to do it and the more support you get as well....i still feel desperate to gamble right now as i write this but i have made a breakthrough. This time ive told others and asked for help.in the past id have hidden it from everyone and blow the consequences...I hope you are all okay today and winning in your addictions xx
Well done Heuly
Stopping and staying stopped can be crazy hard
Its good your asking for help off others. have you tried any counselling or support groups?
Thankyou...there are no support groups in my area i have asked gam care on the phone to refer me to the online counselling and they were supposed to have emailed me a few weeks back but ive not heard anything i did ring to tell them but still nothing i will ring them again and ask why theyve not been in contact.i think the counsilling is important as well because otherwise i wont get to the root of the problem
August 8th...struggling with those bad thoughts..aching to gamble craving it like crazy..i hope this feeling goes away soon before it overtakes me..
Hy,
I am one day gambling free and i look towards you like at a giant...congrats for your path you know it is the right one...be strong and have in mind your family they sure worth all your struggle...those bad thoughts will dissapear...waiting for your next posts and be patient with yourself sun will shine for us all!
thanks fred. unfortunately since then i relapsed without thinking really i got an upgrade to a new phone and ended up blowing over 500 pounds in one night.The same old feelings returned the tummy cramps the aggitation the anger the craving to win feeling the pain when you lose, sitting there at 5 am knowing youve blown your money and feeling pathetic and wondering when it will ever end. I managed to stay away after this relapse for a month..then yesterday my brother sent me a computer which he didnt want.And ive gone back on it today. I put 20 in got 125 back put it all back in..the drive to win is there the pains the anger forming up inside again feeling bad..,my other pc has been blocked.but it doesnt have a place for a disc so this is why i set my brothers one up thinking i could put my learning to drive theory disc in this one...ive come on here hoping someone will read this ...i know what i have to do but dont know if im strong enough not to and walk away..or keep this a secret from everyone again and carry on thats what id like to do in one way but as you know the other voice is saying do you really want to go through all of that yet again..i tried to get counsilling on here but no one got back to me through email and i just left it . i dont want to ruin all the hard work ive done i really dont ...now i know i can get on to the sites i am aching for money to get on there..the only thing stopping me now is that i dont have any money right now but i will do later this evening and tuesday..if theres anyone out there now reading this feed back will be welcome ..thankyou nov 1 2015 18 42
heuly wrote:
Thankyou...there are no support groups in my area i have asked gam care on the phone to refer me to the online counselling and they were supposed to have emailed me a few weeks back but ive not heard anything i did ring to tell them but still nothing i will ring them again and ask why theyve not been in contact.i think the counsilling is important as well because otherwise i wont get to the root of the problem
Did you hear about the counselling?
tri
Hi heuly
I too am a slot machine addict.
hi star..slots are my weakness. so easy to play.
triangle wrote:
[quote=heuly] no i called again they said they would be in touch but no email..i will ring tuesday morning when im alone
Thankyou...there are no support groups in my area i have asked gam care on the phone to refer me to the online counselling and they were supposed to have emailed me a few weeks back but ive not heard anything i did ring to tell them but still nothing i will ring them again and ask why theyve not been in contact.i think the counsilling is important as well because otherwise i wont get to the root of the problem
Did you hear about the counselling?
tri
Morning heuly. How do we stop this?! What games do you like playing? I'm in a trance when I play nothing and no one else matters! Star
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