Last Gamble 30th August 2009

Day 35 - Went out with friends last night and didn't drink alcohol as planned, felt good for a change. No urges to gamble yesterday.... this afternoon hasn't been so easy, but it was nice to do some 'normal' stuff this morning, bought some bits n pieces for the house and did the groceries too. Feel ok.

I won't gamble today....

Jim

Day 36. I had a really good day, worked my a55 off had a couple of beers, feel good. No gambling, happy days..... tough but happy days.

Jim

Hi Jim,

Keep going, you are doing just great,

DT.

Day 37 is a good un, another really busy day some urges to gamble but I am proud to say I didn't gamble. I wont gamble today nor tomorrow.

It seems to be quite tough at the mo, but I remember butting my pillow when waking up in the morning, shaking the steering wheel of my car with anger at myself. i will not gamble.

Jim

Day 38.

I had nightmares last night about gambling, can't remember the details but was glad to wake up and realise it was a dream. I can't even sleep without doing my nuts! LOL.

Anyway the day whilst awake was good, stayed out of trouble and going to go for a meal with the wife, money that would have been fed into a machine in the past.

I hate gambling. I can think of 18,000 reasons why.....

Jim

39th Day

I just went on internet banking to pay a bill, for first time since hitting rock bottom and am still in a mess, but onwards and upwards eh?

I seem to be on a bit of a downer today... crapp day in work and well it is the weekend tomorrow, rugby weekend too. I must say focused and get through it.... I simply must.

Trying to stay strong.

JIm

And on the 40th day the pain stopped.... if only!

Its the weekend... Yaay... S***e week but didn't gamble which is a positive for sure. Haven't got the sports package as I don't want the temptation to gamble on rugby and its freaking expensive... so I am bored and sad that I am not watching the sport.

Anyway will find something else to do instead, no idea what but will think of something.

Jim

Hi Jim,

First of all, well done! Day 40's really good, your well on your way! I'm on day 18, it gets slightly easier but still a massive struggle . . daily!!

Keep up the good work and keep your money in your a**e pocket, you might still be skint but think how skint you would be if you still gambled!!

Stay strong mate

James

Day 41.

I will not gamble today!

Jim

hi dazzler today is also a hard day for me i too like to watch all the sports on tv with a bet on each one although we have to admit 99 times out of 100 that enjoyment turns to disappointment i think we really arent watching the game we are monitering our bets check out the result when its over.if your favourite team has won you will be happy and if they have lost you havent just gone through 80 mins of frustration.but most of all you havent lost any money. stay strong kid jeff

Cheers Jeff, weekends are tough but do-able.

Today marks the start of the 7th week which makes me feel good. I didn't gamble yesterday and will not gamble today. I will have fun watching rugby and having a few beers though. Happy days.

I hope you all are doing ok, if your reading this you are not gambling which has got to be a good thing.

Knuckle down and we can all do this together.

Jim

Day 43

Good day, no urges at all. Chuffed that I made it through the weekend, wasn't easy I avoided all sports didn't see a single kick.... so I cheated really as I think sports vould have put me over the edge.... but I made it, and I am chuffed!

I think I am getting somewhere. I have hated gambling for a long time and at last I think I am getting somewhere.

I will not gamble today.

Jim

Hi Jim, well done so going so long without betting! Especially when its been a part of your life for so long! Theres nothing wrong with avoiding the footy, if it helps you at the moment then do it, do anything that will stop you gambling!

Well done mate, keep strong!

James

Thanks James.

Day 44 was hectic but I didn't gamble! Bring on day 45 as bed is waiting.

Jim.

Day 45 was crazy but I am glad to report I didn't gamble had a few urges today, whch I haven't had for a while and if it wasn't for the fact that I was self excluded from the local bookies I may have cracked..... but I din't and feel good for it now.

Be good and if you cant be good be careful!

Jim