Life begins again

Good morning diary,l

311 days of winning and starving the addiction, it hates that. Had a few urges yesterday afternoon out of the blue, to just put a tenner on, maybe it was because the sun was out and I am starting a new job, so I am feeling optimistic, this addiction is very crafty, it can bring the urges on very slowly sneaking in over a couple of days, or it can just jump on you out of the blue, and It doesn't care whether you are happy, sad, bored, busy, it does not have to appear with one certain mood, it comes with whatever mood we are in, it does not care that I have the triangle in place at all times, it knows I can fix the triangle to play, wouldn't be instant. Would have to set IPAD up. and have money on my card, enough money not a tenner, but did not need the triangle I had already stamped on it quite firmly telling it it had absolutely nothing I wanted or needed, my recovery is all I want, because I do keep winning whilst in recovery, yes money is tight, but it would be a dam site tighter if I played Infact it would totally devastating.

My 10 months of hard work, would be totally wasted, because I know if I started I would not stop, felt sooo good to tell the addiction where to go.

Yesterday reminded me again that we can never underestimate the power of this addiction, it's as crafty and deceiptful and as manipulating as I was when I was in the oblivion of its grip.

One day at a time I will keep abstaining and maintaining and keep winning in every way, why on earth would I want to do otherwise, it simply would be utter madness, my life is back on track, and I am keeping it that way.

Wishing everyone a strong,positive and calm gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne

oh yeah I had that feeling the other day....because we've got everything under control and everything's going well in our lives this little thought pops up in our head and says "you cannot loose"...but i soon come to my senses and realise that the reason i feel this way is because I'm not gambling....it's oh so true Suzanne there can be no going back.....winners yesterday..winners today..winners tomorrow..keep on traveling onwards and upwards ....and remember when Mr Gamble try's to rain on our parade Mr Formby's always there to remind him that...it's turned out nice again...have a lovely day..Ginger x

I see you're still going strong Suzanne.

Well done on 311 days as well as a big congratulations for the new job. Hope it works out for you.

Mba x

Morning Suzanne.
312 days is just fantastic.
Keeping 39 days behind me always.
Luv Steve
Xxx

Hi Suzanne,

I thought I would pop a quick post on your diary to let you know that you are an inspiration to me that beating this horrible addiction that openly robs us while we are looking is possible.

312 days... WOW!!

Xx

Good Friday morning diary,

312 days of winning, Ohh how my addiction hates it.lol.

Have the car today, so will be out and about, always make the most of having the car, and appreciate driving one now.

Getting my hair cut today (not had it cut since last October) so my Bob has completely bobbed out lol.

The days have gone when I used to go once a month to the hairdressers and pay 40, for the works, I will just go to the barbers/ hairdressers no appointment necessary and just get a dry cut, and it will only cost a fiver, but to be honest once I wash it afterwards dry it and use my amazing HD straighteners it does not look any different, to spending 40 at hairdressers.

Keeping strong and aware at this time, just concentrating on my recovery, when the need arises.

Wishing everyone a strong, positive and motivated gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Wonderful suzanne

enjoy your haircut and the gifts of recovery

thanks for sharing them with me daily

tri xxx

Hello S,

Hope your "bob" lol looks ever so nice ☺ hairdressers is something i usually dread lol...3hrs on that chair..not kidding, it's tortune! Lol..sometimes i just want to shave them off lol..a bit of a crazy Britney style 😀
Thanx for your posts and support. No dancing tonight lol..feel tired and a good run took all my energy away..not sure if i will be able to crawl up those stairs lol...give me my bungalow back!!! :-)))))))
So..plan didn't work for today, and no gym membership...but ya know what - i bloody loved my run in fresh air! Plus it's nice to sing along to myself lol (don't wonna weird looks doing so in the gym ha).

Keep going girl, ya doing more than well..look at you - you reborn and faced this world again...life is yours - hold it tight, we live once ☺

Hugs
Sandra x

Morning Suzanne.
Wow 313 days.....what an achievement. You are doing amazingly well.
Have a great gambling free Saturday.
Luv steve xxx

Good morning diary,

313 days and feeling good today.

Have little man today and with the spring like weather, we will be off to a park with OH and doggie, life music high today, gambling music, a big fat zero. And that's exactly how I like it.

Wishing everyone a strong. positive and happy gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne
313 days absolutely brilliant
Enjoy your time with little man
Cheryl xxx

😉
just couldn't help myself here lol...of course I'm livid! :-))))))

http://youtu.be/XVvMHA4Nrm8

Behave girl and look after yourself and your amazing recovery! Just do it!!!!! 😀

S x

o*g...Is it wrong that I'm laughing :-0 That is way beyond the ability of a pair of skinny jeans huh 😉

I'm lurking on & off & keeping an eye on you all 😉 & since I'm on that subject, a massive congrats on the job 🙂

Keep doing what you're doing ODAAT - Juuuuuune

Hi Suzanne
314 days big high five to you.
You support soooooo many people on here I just feel humbled to be one of them.
Hope you had fun with little man.
Take care be good and rock that Bob
Cheryl xxx

Morning Suzanne.
314 days now and you are looking good.
Smashing your way towards the year mark.
Hope you are having a good weekend.
Have a great Sunday.
Steve xxx