Life begins again

Thanks for your input as always! Only a week to go for the year which is superb! Keep it up! Sorry to hear about cold hope it clears soon m, nothing worse when the weather is good as well 🙁

Morning Suzanne.
359 days is just fantastic and you are flying to the one year.
Hope your cold clears up soon.
Have a great day.
Steve xxx

Hi Suzanne
hope you feeling better today. Great choices :0)
Stay well
Cheryl xxx

Good morning diary,

359 days of abstaining and maintaining, taking one day at a time, life is different every day, with so many different challenges cropping up lol, but gambling has no part whatsoever in my life at this time, all my energy at the moment is on fighting this bloody head and chest cold,

Wishing everyone a healthy, strong and sane gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Morning Suzanne.
360 days now that's a nice round figure, but not as round as 365. Just 5 days to go!
Well done. I am so honoured and proud to be walking along side you on this journey.
Have a great Thursday.
Luv Steve xxx

Thanks Steve xx

Good morning diary,

360 days today, still full of cold but feel slightly better, last day at work for the week, thank goodness, (this cold is draining) lol.

Abstaining and maintaining one day at a time and looking forwards and upwards.

wishing everyone a good, strong and calm gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Nearly a year suzanne amazing hope the cold gets better at least it's not man flu 😉 have good day any well done again x

The bear x

Hi Suzanne
hope you feel better soon and at least you have some days off to recover.
5 days to go whoooo hoooo
So so proud of you
Cheryl xxx

Morning Suzanne, a more sociable time to post this morning lol.
361 days is some achievement my friend.
Nearly at the 3% milestone.
Have a great Friday. You deserve it.
Luv Steve xxx

Suzanne - Massive congratualations on the upcoming one year 365 milestone - how does it feel??

Have you ever been so long before?

Does it worry you that a big milestone may make you relax a little too much and let your guard down??

Hopefully not - just wondering as i know complaicancy can be dangerous for me....

Do you still get urgres??

Regards

Wayne

Good morning diary,

361 days of my recovery journey,

Still feeling rough, can't shift this chesty cold, wearing me down now, as have not slept properly for 5 nights now HD.

Not having LM today as I don't want to pass it on, (think he gave it to me last week lol either that or from taking him swimming ).

Everything has been a big effort this week, except gambling, have had no desire or urge to play whatsoever so that is another big positive for me, feeling low and grumpy but not wanting to gamble. In the past I would have cheered myself up with playing online and then being even more miserable after losing far more than I won. and so the chasing would start. Utter utter madness, making myself even more poorly lol.

Wishing everyone a strong, positive and healthy gambling free Friday.

Suzanne xx

Sorry to hear you're still feeling poorly Suzanne :-(..LM probably did pass it on ..the difference between us and the nippers is, they get the sniffles for a day or 2 then pass it to us old codgers and we're rough for over a week lol....keep on fighting on all fronts...OAU..Ginger x

Morning Suzanne.
362 days and just 3 to go. Awesome going and such an inspiration.
Have a great gamble free day.
Steve xxx

Good morning diary,

362 days, just 3 more to one whole year,

Gambling does not consume my thoughts every ten minutes anymore, that addiction is well and truly starved out at this time.

Been poorly all week but I have passed that test of feeling low and sorry for myself, because not once did I want to gamble, in the past I would have been full on, especially through the night with not sleeping lol, but not this week. The changes I have made throughout my recovery reward me every day in different ways, and the biggest change to myself was making that right and only choice I will not gamble for today. every single day.

Wishing everyone a strong, positive and happy gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Dear diary,

Well well well, what an embarrassing morning I have had, which nearly reduced me to tears, ( because I am still low with this chest infection)

OH and I went into carphone warehouse, (my contract has at last nearly finished with my provider) and I wanted to change providers, and I was all excited to be getting a new decent phone at long last, I picked the phone I wanted, gave him all my details, and this took nearly an hour,( by now there was quite a big queue behind me) because I have been with my present provider for 5 years I have been able to update easily over the phone.

Everything was going smooth until he asked for my debit card to check my credit status, How naive was I to not know that going with a new provider would mean a credit check, I honestly thought because I have never defaulted on my present contract, that it would just go through smoothly, how ridiculously wrong was I, of course my card declined on the credit check, my credit score is shot through the roof, OH left hastily and I was left standing speechless, the whole shop knew my credit rating was S***e.

The poor assistant did not know what to say, except he would try another provider, but I said don't worry, (because I knew no provider would accept me) and I thanked him for his time (over an hour) and left the shop in shame and with my tail between my legs. and no new lovely phone.

Another big reminder to me of what my addiction gave me NO CREDIT SCORE it zapped it all away.

My credit score must be one year better off now, so I have to look at it that way, but at the very least it won't get any worse.

One more lesson learnt today on my recovery journey, and this lesson has strengthened my resolve even more to not go back to those horrible dark desperate days.

So diary it looks like I may have to get a pay phone, ( which OH has offered to buy) after deserting me lol ) or worse I stay with my provider, at least I will keep the same number, after more or less telling them to get stuffed this week because of the awful service I have had with them the last 2 years, I will have to eat humble pie, (which won't be hard lol) I will see what they offer me, (if of course they want to renew me, they might want to check my credit too) Ohh HDs indeed,

I will do my utmost to never be in this situation again, and I can make this possible simply by making the right choice everyday to keep abstaining and maintaining,

What a week this was one way and another.

Suzanne xx