Cappy,
Sounds like you have been feeling a bit under attack and misunderstood. Combine that with the emotions that go with withdrawal and its not very comfy.
You are a lovely presence here, and I think sometimes people can be very sensitive whilst in recovery, they can lash out and try to apportion blame - because it is far less painful than taking full responsibility for their actions and feelings.
I havent read the critism you have referred to, but I would hazard a guess that it is they who have the problem rather than yourself.
You seem to be making sterling progress, and you have a lot to feel proud of.
Keep that P****r up, cappy 🙂
f x
Hello C, it's your friend Jas 🙂
I hope you have a good weekend, and that you continue to maintain your resolve to stick to your plan. You have come a long way in all this and I am proud that you have been able to control your gambling. Takes some strength that does C...then again you're hard....like him out of the sweeney!
Have a chill and relax this weekend C...or as my girls would say "chillax".
Jas xx
"Bag of Sand" = GRAND but I think hand was worth at least half a point.
"Boat Race" = FACE
So...in my calculations I am 1.5 in the lead. Go me go me lol.
Because I like you I will give you an easy one. "Apples and Pears"
To Swarfiga
I couldnt find your diary to reply so hope you read this - I 100% agree with you that GA only target certain types of gambling and tar everyone with the same brush.
Also 100% agree that discipline is the key. I have been disciplined for 9 week now doing advance sports bets only and like you I believe that someone with the right knowledge level and selective betting can make money on it. I have proved that to myself in past periods and hope I can continue as I am now without falling into any traps.
First time I have received a post from you Swarfiga but appears we are defo on same wavelength.
Hi Captain
Just dropping in kid to say well done on 9 weeks.Hope all has gone well for you today Jeff.
Hi Captain,
Cheers for the post.
Good to see you still doing so well. I see no reason why your disciplined betting will not continue.
I did manage to avoid the virtual racing when i popped into the bookies in the week. I happened to notice they have improved the graphics for Portman Park though! I wonder if they have decided to let the odd horse fall at Steepledowns now and again??
Take it easy pal.
Oooh C....when I saw you reply on my diary I burst out laughing...sorry but....c'mon C...Apples and Pears = Bus Fares! It's stairs C. Good try though. 2.5 up to Jas 🙂
Right.. back to recovery. I have no doubt your weekend went without any hitches and long may that continue for you.
I'm glad we can have a bit of banter on here. It's not meant to be flippant but without some fun isn't life so God d**n boring.
Jas xx
"Loaf of Bread"
"Car" and head is correct...go C go C...getting the hang of this now 🙂
May see you in chat later....Jas x
"Plates of Meat"
Captain,
You haven't posted on your diary for a couple of days now,i hope you are ok?.......,it has been a while since we have exchanged messages,i do however still follow your diary with interest,and it goes without saying that i wish you every success in your approach.
All the best,
Seano.
better being too repeatative every day than havin a major lapse. .Old habits die hard mate. I know we ve had our differences (well ave swore at your diary a few times) but 9.5 weeks is very short space of time to leave the diaries in my opinion but fair play to you if you think you ve gotten hold o them demons. . wp
Hello C,
I reckon you aren't posting because you took the huff about my superior knowledge on the rhyming cockney slang!
I have been concerned about you C.....and I think others have been too. Post soon please.
Jas x
Day 69 - tomorrow I will be 10 weeks random free.
Seano/wp/Jas, thanks for recent posts of concern.
Just to confirm current position with me; my recovery continues to go well. 10 weeks ago and for a long long time before that I followed a routine of out of control random gambling on a day to day basis until funds ran out, then it started again when I acquired more funds.
Although I have only been on here 10 weeks, I first admitted I had a gambling problem in Feb 2006 so I have been in recovery for over 4 years overall, but so far being on here seems to be the final piece of my jigsaw to enable me to do things how I want to - bet on advance sports only with affordable amounts.
I have trained my brain and developed a routine to successfully do this right now.
Far from being complacent, but I am now at the 'disbelief' stage - I go into the bookies and am in disbelief how I could ever have placed £200 bets on real horse races and dog races, never mind virtual ones. A few weeks ago it was a challenge to go in to collect football coupons or returns without betting on random events. Now I just cant believe how I ever wasted money on random and hopefully these thoughts will enable me to continue to appreciate the value of money, something lost for years.
I dont now feel that posting on my diary every day would add any value for me and the posts would just read repetitively for others i.e. like going to work, collecting football coupons, placing football bets and sometimes getting returns on them.
I intend to post only anything different happens to the above, so posting this morning (and up at this time) due to worry about a social event for a colleague leaving work today which I must attend tonight. As discussed in recent chat and others concurred with the view, a lot of gamblers including myself are social misfits and simply cant converse well with non-gamblers. I can talk about gambling, sport and work and can talk about a range a of subjects on chat on here but not in real life. so I will be real glad when tonight is over.
One other thing:
I still remain miffed at chat on the Monday before Cheltenham ignoring my request to discuss it. My pre- Cheltenham post sadly but correctly predicted some would fall off the wagon that week. Luckily I managed to get through it unscathed, but I feel Gamcare have a responsibility to acknowledge what a big event that week was for many and allowing some chat on the subject may well have helped some not to slip.
How you going skipper--as you know I decided to post less last week but found that I missed it.
Cannot put my finger on it but I feel safer, happier and more confident when I post so I think I will hang around.
If you find that you feel the same make sure you keep posting.
All the best
Stumper
Really difficult day today, problems at work, also someone has acted towards me in a way which makes me sad. I must refrain from Gambling as a result of any of this though...
I am now off work till Tuesday, lots of spare time to pass, most spare time since I joined this site. Been avoiding taking holidays but these are compulsory for Easter. How will I fill my time? Feeling very anxious.
Hey C,
You've got a good job....off now for Easter....not a teacher are you?
Have you got anything planned for the Easter break C? Could you visit family or friends....apparently a lot of peeps do D.I.Y during this holiday 🙂
It's horrid feeling anxious C......log onto netline and talk one to one or call gamcare. Do anything to avoid straying onto the random gambling path.
I'm positive you can do this C.
Jas xx
P.S
Who was it a work who made you feel sad?...tell me...I'll punch their lights out! lol
Try to ignore then C...not worth it.
Jas xx
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