Lifer

Hay Hun,,

You know how paying that money for that holiday , put me right off key during the week , maybe as you say the impending bill was the stresser.

Please try not to let it, allow those dark clouds descend over you again, it's happened it's over , move on head high to fight it with everything you've got

I'm going to say night now cause I ve got an early start traveling home in the morning .

You are in my thought , will try to catch up with you before I leave .

Hope you can get some rest ......please take care

Shiny xxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi A.N

Hey really pleased u came straight on here and posted as u can see no one judges on here ultimately we're all only has good as our last bet

For me it's what u do now and I think we both know it's just a one off as u av the knowledge what gambling will do to u longterm , that's exactly why u come on here and posted in the past that did not happen , gambling consumed u and wouldn't let u back but now my good friend u av the upperhand and are ready to tell it where to go

For me it just goes to show the real A,N is still with us and not been took over and that's all that matters relapse or no relapse

I still look up to u today as much as I did yesterday

Castle2

Hi AN,

Sorry 2 read about ur slip, well done 4 coming back here and posting that takes alot of strength and 4 closing the account.

I know it's hard but try 2 be kind 2 urself. Take it a day at a time. U can do this!

Stay strong 🙂

Yo

Been in my thoughts all morning

Creepy I know lol

You are more than qualified to post and advise others my dear dear friend Why cause you are real you tell it as it is there are thousands of CGs going through what you are going through today thinking and feeling just like you They think they are all alone the only ones going through this but with you posting you are helping you may not think you are but you are

Also this addiction tries hard to get us to stop using the blocks or help we have put in place It's cunning and clever and manipulative

This addiction wants you not to post it wants you to feel bad it wants to do everything it can to get you to say f******k it and bet again

But you need to stick two fingers up right back and tell it oh no not this time you were happy to be back you were happy in the way you were dealing with your addiction

Please do not give up now !

I will catch you again when I get home

Just know I really care and want you to get to your middle cause I get bit lonely without you

Shiny xxxxxxxxxx

Good morning everyone,

Thank you Shiny, Charlotte, Dotty, Rob and Castle for your kind posts of support.

After yesterday's disaster, I awake with a headache. I am committed to starting again and know that slips come sometimes when we are least expecting. This one happened as a little urge popped in out of nowhere and before I got a grip the bet was on. I wasn't feeling bad or emotional.

What I would like to say is I have a very understanding partner, a good job, a loving happy daughter, people who care about me, services I can access for support and all my friends at Gamcare. Then why do I sometimes feel so alone? Answers anyone?

A>N.

hi AN

Im not sure if you really are asking a question or if it was rhetorical...but here goes I shall answer it as I would for myself...if that helps.

I also feel alone.The philosophers call it a existential crisis which the Arts and litrature can go some way to communicating.

For myself I know the cause of my aloneness but as yet not the cure.

Dis-ease I think is a literal disconnection with ease...a spiritual yearning ...a lack of internal peace.

Doctors would call it a form of depression but our language is often too liimited to express whats going on inside.

I am not religious but as Jim Morrison said..We are all looking for something sacred.

These feelings are what causes my lonliness as I have no idea what is my true purpose..if any...and I spend a lot of time thinking I have missed the boat or that I am not on the right path.

Not sure if that helps but be reassured you are not alone.

R and D xx

ps ..your never lonely with a dog : ) xx

Hi There

Well done on coming straight back here after the slip. My slip cost me 3 months and over a grand of debt. I felt terrible and beat myself up about it. Now - it doesn't bother me, why should it, it's done, and I cannot change that.

Was there anything specific you think that caused it? If may be worth revisiting the event to see if you can pick out what it was - it will help you understand yourself even better, and let you avoid the same mistake again in the future.

If there was a pill we could take and banish the demon once and for all, we'd all be on it.

Stay strong and gamble free.

Been pretty much on auto pilot today. My OH is fed up with me 'cos I didn't want to go out today. Migraine attack last night and still recovering. It's not the money it's the principle that hurt me.

Anyway it was a lapse rather than a relapse. My concentration temporarily broken. I now continue to try and gather my normal thought patterns and regain control of my self.

I so hate the G word, I am sick of it. It should be made illegal! I wonder whether we would all be locked up. This addiction tries to keep us as prisoners. I am not the type to stay in chains, I enjoy freedom too much.

Tomorrow just around the corner, Day 2 for me.

Best wishes,

A>N.

Hey AN...

try and stop beating yourself up..and pushing yourself with sheer will .....hun..like you said its a "lapse not relapse".

You're breaking those chains...you don't have to be shackled any more...

Day 2 and day 3 is on its way...gamble free.

Minute,hour day at a time xxx

night night

R and D xx

Thats the spirit A>N And don't worry about that slip... I cannot even count the number of times that have slipped. You're back and that's what counts! -joanxx

Morning ,

Hoping I find you a bit more at peace this morning .

Start of a new week , one full of promise as to what we can achieve .

Maybe you will be out playing golf , do me a favour , write GA ( gambling addiction) on one of those balls , give it your best swing , with your heaviest iron ,And launch it into the most impenetrable terrain possible .

Shiny xxxxxxxxxxxxx

hiya AN..

following the Shiny glitter.....

Just to say great to see your posts and keep on moving forward ...

R and D xxx

hi AN

thanks for your kind words

one day at a time buddy

carl

I must admit that I thought about gambling numerous times today. My little slip on Saturday caused me considerable pain and my demon has been lurking like an masked stranger down a very dark and never ending alleyway. I beat him today, just for today and I will fight again tomorrow until I feel safer once again.

Keeping busy and company whenever I can is the only way forward at the moment.

One hour at a time.

A>N.

AN,

A daily battle isn't it against the demon?

Today you won, Saturday you lost. The difference now is that you seem as if you have more weapons to fight with, more strength and more wisdom. I have benefitted from that wisdom as have many others.

The greates pieces of advice are usually from those who have been there and done it, they have slipped but they never give up.

You are one of those people..

Here is a little tune for you to kick back and enjoy. As the song says..

'when the stars are in position

all will be revealed'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A102xE-Wnfk

Paulds