Logging Progress

Thanks for all your support guys. It really helps. Over 1 week down. Well happy with that.

Over 2 weeks GF. Target is to get to end of December GF. I keep thinking about what I could of done with 15k but mustn't dwell on it. Pay day yesterday so got to be strong.

3 weeks gamble free. I did try but all the self exclusions I have made meant that I couldn't find a site that would accept me. Reflecting, that makes me happy. If the debt cleared even quicker that would make me happier. I think that has been a problem in the past, I tried to gamble my way out of the debt.

Just lost 2.5k. Start yet again. Ffs. I don't think I can this on my own.

Lost 3k today after going a week not gambling. I think it is beating me. I can go for a few days/weeks then I get complacent. I can't take it anymore. So desperate. I will cut up my debit card but every time I put these blockers in place I find a way round it. How the hell do I stop!! Please please give me some advice/support as I am really struggling.

Hi dogears.
I've just had a read through your diary. Mate you need to do some serious strategy planning.
You can't go on like this.
In the last few months you have blown almost 40 grand
Is that even substainable to you?
I noticed you had a sizeable win this year but blew the lot in the same session. You have to ask yourself what's the point?
You sound a lot like me. It's not about winning its more the act of engagement you enjoy.
A appreciate its not easy to quit gambaling. It's a struggle from when you get up. To when you go to bed. Bit it's a struggle worth fighting for.
You can beat this I've seen you put some serious day's in
This all depends on how far your willing to go.
You can talk the talk about self exclusion and no card carrying etc. But it's just word's and usless if your not going to see it through.
You can get up tommrow and take your life back bit by bit step by step. Or you can repeat the cycle over and over. The cycle never changes does it not?
The choice is your's

Sorry for the rant.
Hopefully something in there will strike a chord.

Get fighting
Deano

Thanks Deano. Stopped for a month then went back on it. Feel so weak. My life is a mess. Had a chance to start again but I've blown that. Desperately, desperately want to stop. Your right, it's just words... I need to see this through.

I'm so f****king angry with myself!

As mentioned in past post, can you sustain such loses. I am so fed up even at losing the smallest amounts that it is my driving force. I don't want to see you destroying your life, just as I need to regain control of mine.We when we gamble are all on a path to destruction, we arrive there at different speeds...but it's a one way road.