LONELY

Thanks for all the support folks.

Day 9

Tomorrow Sat could be a troublesome day,the other half is on her works christmas do from lunchtime leaving me home alone. This is usually the green light for a good gambling session,plenty of spare time and boredom usually trigger me off again.

Hopefully I can resist the temptations that I know will surface.

Dino

Hi Dino,

Thanks for your post.

Keep strong tomorrow mate. Maybe plan something to do, to distract you from any potential chance to gamble. Got to be proactive in combating these urges. The good thing is that you know your behavioural patterns so well, and are already more than aware of tomorrows potential pitfall when the other half is out.

Stay focused Dino. You know you can beat this my friend.

Stay strong

All the best

Ade

Day 10

Wow , not sure i'll make it to 11 really struggling this afternoon

Hi Dino,

Stay strong and focused do something totally different, remove yourself from the situation, go out or stay in, have a shower, have a drink, it will pass and you will be sooo much stronger.

Stay safe and win today.

Suzanne xx

Dino....it'll pass mate.......remove yourself from the temptation.....to stop feeling vulnerable......change the position you are in, to help battle the urge...leave your wallet in the house and go for a walk......even if it's only 15 mins or so......don't watch sport if that's your thing.......anything to help yourself.......focus on day 11

Hi Dino,

Please heed the advice and battle those horrible urges.

Fast forward to how you would feel if you did feed that urge. It is an empty feeling, not a buzz or a rush, just a sad empty s**t feeling of despair and regret.

Might sound harsh, but we both know that this is the reality.

Fight those urges and stay strong my friend

Ade

A big thank you to all that posted support, with your words of advice and encouragement day 11 now looking on.

Was'nt easy I have to say, but i'm so so pleased that I did'nt lapse.

So once again a big big thank you Dino

That's what we all wanted to hear....well done Dino.....see how it feels now??? It passed, didn't it? You're a day ahead of me and I am looking forward to day 11 tomorrow..........it'll get easier I'm sure......the days are getting better.....calmer.....let's hope it continues that way........

Hi Dino,

Well done Dino, you are now starving it, and you will feel sooo positive in the morning.

Suzanne xx

Day 11 made it.

Mixed emotions this morning ,the demons tried to come back and nearly won.

I feel angry at myself for nearly giving into temptation.

I feel proud at myself for not giving into temptation.

I feel a sense of not knowing if I have the strength to beat this.

The weekends are always the hardest for me ,sportsbetting and horse racing being my vices.Many more events held then.Busy day ahead today so should be ok,and back to work tomorrow when things should be a little easier.

Trying to stay strong Dino

Morning Dino,

Thanks for your message,

Day 11 has arrived and I bet that feels good.

Well done for starving it .

Enjoy your Sunday

Suzanne xx

Dino......day 11 for both of us then??? YYAAYYYY!!!! How good does that feel?? I had a different day to you yesterday....I had not one single urge....not one.....I see you struggled and there may be days when this is reversed.....but for now...you made it...make sure you be good to yourself for this. I have made that extra effort just to not put myself in a position where I think it will weaken me.......I hope your Sunday is calmer......let's look forward to day 12.......I am....

Hi Dino,

Thanks for your post on my diary.

I totally get where you are coming from with your current situation regarding the dreaded habitual urges coming at you from all angles. It's a common scenario, and one that I have encountered many many times in the past. I often failed and gambled in the past and it led me to more misery yet again time and time again.

Now I seem stronger than ever in my recovery and I'd love my determination and drive to somehow rub off on you and draw you through these tough times. Like you, I struggled at weekends on football and horses. It's tough, but if you want a long term better life scenario for you and your nearest and dearest, find that inner strength and you will be the winner in this battle.

Stay strong Dino

All the very best

Ade

Day 12

After a traumatic Saturday,yesterday was quite benign.

Christmas shopping ,ended up buying a 7ft tree instead of our usual small one,it stands in pride of place in the dining room and the family thinks it great bringing a real christmas feeling to the home.

To me it's a symbol and reminder of how close I came to giving in to those demon urges to gamble.

Trying to stay strong Dino

Hi Dino,

Well done on 12 days and well done for not giving in over the weekend,

Soon be Xmas stat strong and focused. And you will enjoy Xmas

Suzanne xx