LONELY

Day 68

Starting to enjoy life again,went to see Peter Kay in Manchester last night,great to spend my money on something that makes me happy instead of all the misery that gambling brings.

Happy days Dino xx.

Hi Dino,

68 days and feeling happy,,lovely post to read,

Have a good gamb,ing free day.

Suzanne xx

Day 74

Strange week ,thought alot about gambling without ever being in danger of placing a bet.

Annoying that these thoughts keep finding there way into my mind.

Long hard battle this , Dino x.

Hi DINO,

Well done you on a massive 74 days. yes it's a tough journey at times, but it is soooo worth it.I guess gambling will always be in our minds somewhere at the back, but as the days and weeks build up, we get stronger and stronger. And recovery totally outweighs any niggly nasty thoughts.

Take care and have a good gambling free Sunday.

Suzanne xx

Back to day 2

Saturday's have always been hard for me and last Saturday proved my downfall.

I can't offer any explanation ,it just seemed creep up on me,and there I was back to my old ways.

I honestly thought I had self excluded or closed all of my accounts,but I found one still open (closed now).

No financial damage done just embarrased,disapointed,angry with myself.

Got to look forward, and had no incline to gamble in the last 48hrs so here we go again ! .

A very unhappy Dino x.

It can happen to anyone dino,atleast you have picked yourself up and got back on the bet free wagon. 😉 take it a day ata time and get those days built back up.

Hi Dino,

Onwards and forwards it was only a blip, your recovery is stronger now.

Sending you strong and determined thoughts.

Suzanne xx

Hi DINO, just dropping by to offer my support (make sure you stay busy next weekend, you don't need this stress in your life) & let you know I'm taking a break for a bit! I don't want anyone who has been so wonderful in supporting me over the last few months to think I have abandoned them!

Keep fighting - ODAAT

Back again , Just can't seem to beat this,had a three week gambling binge and back to feeling sick and worthless.

All I can do is start again , Dino

Welcome back Dino,

It's not an easy journey but you can/will do this.

Sending you positive and strong thoughts.

Suzanne xx

Hi Dino
So what can you do differently this time? You have seen from bitter experience that doing it your way doesnt work. So maybe time to try something new!
Barriers/ proper ones not ones you know you can easily pull down
GA. It works if you work it
Counselling. Good counsellor not the 1st one someone offers you
Honesty because without it nothing changes

Recovery is out there you just have to find the strength to go seek it.
Recovery will never catch us when we run from life. When we stop running & face our reality & what we need to do to change that then it has a chance to find us

Why Why Why

Do I find myself here again ,I give myself one last chance to beat this and I mean one last chance,before my life explodes beyond repair.

My youngest just gone to uni, my middle getting married in June and I being the selfish ------ that I am carry on feeding all my money to the bookies.

Not looking for any sympathy just a little support again from my alies on here.

Day 1 again, love to say this time I will beat this addiction but to be honest I really don't know, but's it more than monies that's at stake this time.

Thanks for listening Dino

Thanks GT

Your support is much appreciated,just hope I can stay strong this time.

Hello Dino,

You are like myself in that you have had many relapses
Although you managed to refrain from gambling for over 70 days which is commendable.

You are here and still fighting so you care about yourself and family. You are a fighter like me. We can beat this. Come on!!!!

Determined Toad.