Long overdue recovery!

Baz

You've already made huge strides on your journey to stop.

Self exclusion is a massive step forward and you should be proud of what you have done today.

It's hard to admit to yourself that you have a problem but the only person who can convince you is you. You've done that now and we'll done for achieving such an important milestone.

The next few days will be tough very tough but just keep reminding yourself how cr** you feel after a big kiss and even how a big win doesn't even really do it for you anymore.

Keep visiting this site. Write everything down. Remember what it feels like to have no money to do anything because you've basically blown it on a worthless unfulfilled pastime.

and remember that the house doesn't give a punter the opportunity to beat it. All it ever does is give the punter the opportunity to beat himself.

Take care.

K

Hey thanks for your reply your words of encouragment go a long way 🙂

I have just downloaded the free trial of bet filter 8 days for free...All my gambling stems online so im thinking of investing the 46 pounds in getting this for a year one the trial ends... 46 pounds sounds a lot but if it helps support my recovery it will be money well spent

Baz

Baz

Fella well done for accepting the fact that gambling has become an issue in your life that needs your undivided attention.

I totally understand what you write about living a split life, problem is for us the compulsive gambler the gambling life will always take over our 'other' life.

For me Honesty is the huge issue, one which gamble free we are able to live a life of, gambling made me into a lying, cheating, decieptfull man, addiction the huge draw, everything was then decided on the outcome of my bet.

Problem is we cannot win because we cannot stop, so progressively life suffers and the lives of those we profess t ocare about too.

You have made a great start, use the resolve you have found to add further blocks.

My first days recovery I was gifted this wonderfull piece of advice.

There is a triangle Time-Money-Location

take one away at all times and the punt becomes impossible, gifting you the valuable time to think about what a punt will bring??

For me a question often banded about is

Why do you punt? what did gambling do for you??

For me the answer is Misery.

win or lose the senario the same, the chase would ensue, the losses with it.

Take all the help that is out there, first and foremost get some blocking software, I believe it is available free of charge, ask gamcare through phoning the support line.

Use the forum as a tool.

Bottom line is the choice is yours.

for me the outcome is a 100% payrise.

I did win because I did stop.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Thanks Duncan some great bits of advice i think for me to take on board

You are correct about the free blocking software once this free trial is up i will be getting my mrs to set a password up so that i never know it to overide the blocker..

Slight problem is she will be a bit suspicious as to why i am wanting her to do it...But i have 7 days to pouder my thoughts on this one

the link for the free one is

www.k9webprotection.com

Thanks again

Baz

Day 2 gamble free, So far so good, Feeling positive am going to go down my local gym tonight and sign up to a membership to give me a new hobby and i could do with shedding a few pounds

8 months today and it will be my birthday, i really hope in 8 months today i can say ive been gamble free for 8 months now that would be a dream

Baz

well done Baz, you really are in the right mindset to make a good start in addressing your problems.

Good luck at the gym, rather you than me.

Try have a read of as many different threads on this website and you will instantly empathise with the shared issues we all have.

ill follow your progress mate, the 8month raget is a realistic one and im sure you can see it through

Hi leedsv thanks for your positive thoughts, Went to the gyn that went ok, i am so unfit lol. Today i would normally have a football bet, feeling positive that i wont give into temptation its only normally 2 quid but i dont want to break the cycle.

Baz

Hi Bazza

well done on stopping gambling and doing something more positive (gym) you will find the exercise really does make you feel so much better even though its pretty tough at first!

best wishes and keep posting!

Linda

Hi Linda thanks for your support, Yes the gym certainly takes my mind off it and certainly is testing me lol

So Day 5 today pretty pleased with myself going 5 days probably the longest ive gone without a bet/gamble in years, Had a little urge tonight but that soon turned into wasted thoughts as i had a cabinet to fix and now im awaiting the chat room so no urges as im typing

Baz

Hi bazza,

I think you have made a great decision to try and occupy your time with the gym. I too have done this and I have found this helpful so far.

Keep strong

LG

Hi Baz,

Way to go - the gym will give you a positive focus not to mention all the health benefits!

Are you finding that you feel any differently to when you started? On day four I am feel more level-headed.

It would be interesting to hear about your recovery.

Thank you for writing on my diary too, it came at just the right time when things were feeling hard!

Laura

Hi bazza,

I think you have made a great decision to try and occupy your time with the gym. I too have done this and I have found this helpful so far.

Keep strong

LG

So its been a WEEK today since i started my recovery and my diary! Wow cannot believe ive got through the week without gambling 🙂

A few urges, a few sweaty moments but i didnt crumble at the hands of devil,

thanks for everyone for the support so far who have posted on my diary and on the chat

Im off out to treat myself today with the money that i know i have saved,

Next milestone is now a month being free.... bring on 20th March!

Thanks

Baz

Hello all 2 weeks today since i last gambled and feeling so happy but at times the urges had become so intense....

So i made a decision today me and the mrs were talking about getting engaged and i just blerted it out, everything about my gambling and how it is taking over my life and at first she looked so angry but within minutes she was talking to me about how are we going to stop this once and for all...

So K9 installed she is the ony one who knows the password! She now has my bank card and at the start of every week she will give me what i need for the week... sounds very sad that but im willing to do what it takes i love her too much and my life is more important.

Feeling relieved and feeling happy....

give it a few months and ill h*r enough money to live comftable and without any ways of gambling

Thanks

baz