lost the plot..

Hi Lb... how are you? .. whatever is going on for you drop in and update your diary.. your support is always here. Remember It don't matter if the slots have grabbed you again.. I know only to well how addictive they are.. but i also know that writing about an episode always helps to draw a line under it and move forward.

Anyway maybe your just busy with work and living life. Happy days.. S.A 🙂

Awright "blokey" ...its been toooo long since you posted...i think we can figure oot whats happened...prove me wrong buddy !!! At least let us know you are ok...youve got many friends on here who care about you...give us an update pal,nobody said this was easy,.never give up giving up 😉

LB,

Just wondering where you are and hoping you are OK. If you read this, say hello. As wp says, never give up giving up. Hope all is OK with you, gambling recovery aside.

Brian

I echo this, mate.

Pop in and let us know how you are, gambling or no gambling.

We are all here for you.

GT

f*** w******.. the lot of them..

£2800 give or take since the 25th jan..

what the f**** is wrong with me..

why do i keep doing this to myself...why????

i worked 27 hours overtime last month and have blown the f******* lot over these past 10/11 days...EVERYTHING in a 500 pound jackpot machine which i've never even liked...

******* ******* w*f am i doing playing on that peice of cr**... i hate the f******* thing , always have????

Yet i'm off on one feeding it note after note day after day

i hate what my life has become..i hate what i am.. i am a complete f******* addicted gambling w******..

nice touch by the way though that both 500 machines either side of the one i've been playing for 9 days have both paid the jackpot, the one on the right twice.. A right kick in the balls just when i needed it ..NOT...

Skint now till the 25th.. but its not over..

i will not stop on that f******* machine till i get that jackpot..with me it becomes personal

And some people think i may have a gambling problem...

God do i hate what i do or what..

but i'm not stopping ...cos i can't end of...

someone up there f****** hates me..

And i f****** hate myself too for what i put myself through more than you will ever know..

Thanks for everyones support but sometimes, just sometimes theres 1 that gets away..

and i guess i'm just not ready to stop yet or something..because i keep putting myself through all this cr**..

day 1 ..yeah kiss my a**e..

come payday i'm gonna get that f****** jackpot.. it ain't gonna beat me..

in serious s**** as it is, what follows ain't gonna matter now is it...

i'm just about ready to explode..

w*f is wrong with me....

2 weeks till payday..and god do i wish it was tomorrow ....cos i'd be in front of that f***** machine feeding it my hard earned wages once again...i WILL get that jackpot I WILL...

ps.. yes i know.. not a good post at all

I'm really not in a good place mentally at this moment..these past 10 days really have f****** my head up big time..

I'm FULL of s****...

me again..just been reading my diary

Its not a good read..but i wanted to count the slips i have had these past 16 months.but i kept losing count..

its not good..

In fact 1 word..

DISASTER

Totally understand your frustrations mate but gambling your next wages for a 500 quid jackpot is not the answer...whats gone is gone...hopefully youll be in a better frame of mind when you get up...not much more i can say...only YOU can help yourself mate...its a bas tarred i know but you will get there friend...keep trying,NEVER GIVE UP GIVING UP 😉 !!

Hi Lb.. thoughts are with you. I am the same as you when i gamble, until the last pound is gone.

Like wp says.. NEVER GIVE UP GIVING UP!!!!!

LB,

'good' to hear from you. We knew what was up, so it's good to hear you are about.

If I had a wet fish, I'd clobber you with it. You are currently in the throws of it, so in a way its like all we can do is stand back and watch the car crash happening.

I hope that you can stand back for a moment and see it too.

- I'm sure it hurts that all that extra hours worked are for 'nothing'. Been there.

- I'm sure it hurts that all that effort in abstinence is for 'nothing'. Been there too, although for years I could never make it past day 2.

I agree with you, those machines are wan kors. If the grubby arcade owners only woke up to the destruction they cause. They know but choose to ignore it. b*******s.

Payday is such a banana skin for you. Call someone LB.. call the netline here on Gamcare. Call them on the 25th to the 31st of every month. Get help my friend. It's been said to you before. Do it when the dust settles.!!!!!! I'll come back and remind you in a few days.

No point in chasing the jackpot. Some spotty teenager probably got it already. Anyway, even if you got it, you'd put all/most of it back looking for a repeat.

Brian

Why do governments not ban those machines.... they don't create jobs, they don't create tax income.. they create nothing. The income on them probably goes into the back pocket of the arcade owners because there are no receipts etc..

Would LOVE to seem them banned.

Hello LB!

Thoughts are with you pal, sure is demoralising i know, as se down head up on the work front then them thieving foooking machines get a grip.

Perseverance bud, your definitely a strong character how you keep getting back up and fighting this but you really need to break out of this cycle. Get to the rooot. Living to work definitely not the answer, work/work a few beer rewards, then a few more and bang! Break free bud, take it slowly, get out of your environment on the 25th each month, regroup, recognise the irrational thoughts. Keep/keep moving on!

Nothing wrong at all with you bud, stick that middle finger up, dust yourself down and roll on.....onwards

Hi LB,well,what can i say?,naturally i'm very sorry to read about your recent gambling frenzy,although like a few have said,i feared this was what was happening!!!.I have been speaking with someone today about your situation,and they have come up with what may be a radical yet brilliant course of action for you to consider,why not apply for a residential stay in Gordon House?,i believe the re-hab lasts for 9 months and you can apply online,i know this would involve you leaving your job,but lets cut to the chase LB,your working for nothing anyway:).Just give this idea a bit of consideration pal,it might just be what you need to break free from this addiction nightmare.

Best thoughts to you.

Seano.

Hi Londonbloke, I'm so sorry to here that you feel the way you do. I'm really feeling for you fella, as are all your other pals on here. Seano could well be right. It's time to try something different. We are all here for you. Take care my friend. Russ

Nowthen LB,

No advice to give you man, been doing the same crazy compulsive gambling as you, just wanted to say hi and my thoughts are with you.

Your post about reading past gamcare posts has inspired me to do the same, don’t know what I’m looking for but I’m sure it will enforce the seriousness and enormity of GC.

Formulate a water tight payday plan.

Hope you find the help you need.

Keep posting.

LB,

This will be a support/nag/support post from me...

support: You are in all of our thoughts. No worries about your major rant as we have all experienced this in the past and we all know exactly how you feel right now (although I hope that you are feeling a little better than a few days ago - time is a great healer and all that...).

nag: DO NOT, UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES, TRY AND CHASE THOSE LOSSES. Nag over.

support: I agree with Seanostars, perhaps this is the time to find out whether you need some extra help. By coming back on here and admitting what you have done, you obviously remain determined to beat this disgusting disease. Like Defeated said, get a payday plan in and stick to it. Perhaps find something else to keep you occupied and firmly away from any gambling thoughts that will come back and haunt you.

Only you can make the right choices and you CAN. My thoughts are with you at this moment in time and I hope that you are strong enough to come back and let us know how you are. Stay very strong mate and look after yourself.

GT