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Hi LB Thank you very much for your post.Well done at staying gamble free for 12 days.Great achievement!We too have been trying to do different things to take our mind off gambling.Jayne has been working but i can't cos i'm disabled so i can't get out without her.She has taken me out today though and not to the bookies either!We have been enjoying this great weather we've been having instead of spending it stuck in a smelly old bookies which i am ashamed to say we have done in the past.We spent a fraction of what we would have lost as well and enjoyed it more cos we had no rows or tears.That has to be a good thing.Keep up the good work mate you are doing really well and you and everyone else here are helping us to stay gamble free.Our thoughts are with you as we fight this battle together.Keep strong Chris and Jayne.

Hi Lb.. we are about the same length of time since last gamble. Its like you say its a question of knuckling down and getting on with life a day at a time. All the best mate.. S.A

Hey Lb... how goes it? I guess pay day is just around the corner once more... stay focussed.. gambling not the answer.. we both know that.. Take care.. S.A

Hi LB

Not heard from you for a while m8.How about a post.All the best Jeff.

LB Hope you are still reading posts and we need you to keep updating, and not for us but you hope everything is alright and you are enjoying this wonderful weather.

Lee

Hey LB,

Just wanted to say I have read your diary through twice now. It is a completely honest account of how gambling has affected you. It shows an inner-determination and fight to beat this addiction which I cannot help but admire.

I'm sure your posting has helped many people (including myself). Your relapses can only help to strengthen your resolve and by writing about them you are showing others that recovery isn't plain sailing and you should never let your guard down.

You really have come a long way hun, and I would love to hear more from you.

Keep posting LB

Chan xxx

I really want to know what happened with londonbloke. His was one of the diaries that inspired me (and Im sure many others). If you are new to the site give it a read.

just read through this diary and it says a lot thanks for sharing it and at least im not alone i hope you mange to keep it going mate and look forward to hearing from you how its going im only on day one but everyone has to start somewhere.

Just bumping up this diary in the hope that you come back and let us know how you are getting on.

GT

Hello Diary

Its been a good while since i last posted, but i have never stopped reading the posts from the many people like myself who are fighting to rid themselves of this terrible addiction..

I didn't want to continue to be rude as i have done these past few months and just ignore the recent posts on my diary so thought i would post an update..

Sometimes though, when you are just going round and round in the same vicious circle, theres nothing new to be said...And thats how it has been for me..

So here goes...

Well i've been struggling to be honest, i have gambled off and on since i last posted on here way back in April. Its been that same old story of me going 2/3 weeks without and then bang off i go again. Boredom, restlessness, stressed out with work, urges, all the usual excuses as to why i have done it...(And thats what they are..just b******* excuses)...

On the plus side though these past couple of months i have been keeping to my various repayments and have managed to pay everything that i needed to pay straight out of my wages before even thinking about gambling, whereas before i would think nothing of dropping the whole months wages over the space of a few days.

And its nice to see my overall debt slowly decreasing as i slowly chip away at it..Been doing as much overtime as i could get recently as well and most of that extra money has also been going to paying various people off..

So i would say i have made a little progress over these past couple of months, i think also after all this time with me gambling...I'm now beginning to think about the consequences of blowing everything "before" rather than "after" i start gambling as i would of normally done...

Pretty basic point that one really ain't it....But before when payday had hit, off i would go without a thought of anything except the gamble..

So small steps have been made, but theres plenty of room for improvement and thats what i need to keep working on..

My battle continues..

Thanks GT, youngdad, steveneagle, chan, lee4, jeff, S.A and chris and jayne for your posts, a few of them go way back and although as i said i have been reading, just not replying but kind of got fed up in saying the same old thing..(slip here/slip there ..etc..)

Anyway best wishes to you all, keep fighting the good fight..Keep strong and stay focussed..Lets all of us get our lives back...

Enjoy the rest of the weekend

Takecare..

Hi Lb

Great to hear from you m8.

Not all complete doom and gloom then.

It sounds like you are still in a financial mess and obviously acting on those gambling urges,but your way of thinking seems to have changed.You are now working out your priorities and paying a little off them before you gamble and like you say m8 its a small change but its in the right direction.

So kid,you say that you havent written on your diary for a while because you dont want to write the same thing all of the time.Well im sure it doesnt matter to any of us if you just write whenever you feel like.I myself dont post as much these days but i do still read everyday. i dont feel like im ready to walk away from these diaries yet.

Them few words you wrote LB have brought a smile to my face (the battle continues).

So you are not ready to give up on giving up.

All the best m8 Jeff.

Hi Lb... good to see you post an update. Its like you say, when in the full grip of compulsive gambling rent and bills and debts just gets forgotten.. ive been there and come close at times to losing the roof over my head though not my current roof. Its like those adverts on the buses say.. Rent first!.. then priority bills, then priority debts etc etc.. and then when your ready you don't have to gamble the rest you can treat yourself in some other way. Keep fighting the good fight.. take care matey.. S.A 🙂

Hi LB good to hear from you again.We never tire of hearing of a slip here and a slip there cos we're all fighting the same addiction and we're all here to offer support and being consistant helps to keep it at bay.We too slipped big time and didn't post for ages because,like yourself we felt we had let everyone down so we joined a GA meeting and we hear the same thing week after week but we never get fed up of hearing it because it reminds us of just how horrible it feels to be under the awful spell of gambling so when you feel you need to get it off your chest just keep posting no one will get fed up of hearing it honestly.Your last post was really positive and you seem to be following the right track.Take care LB looking forward to hearing from you soon C and J

Hi Lb

Thanks for posting on my diary kid.Always good to hear from you.

Im glad things are starting to change for you.

I see by the time of your post that you are still working late hours.I hope work is well for you.All the best Jeff.

Happy christmas LB