Mr Grumpy: Round 3 and a half

Hi Jon,

Crashed the other night but listened to your sons song and it was good!

Glad you have got through another day and remaining strong

Keep going, your doing great

Smiling Lucy

Hi Jon,

Hope you are keeping well. Sorry about the result. I am sure your lad's time will come. Just gotta stay patient. To be fair Blackpool had a lot of chances. Goals that count though as Bayern found out last night.

Stay strong, best wishes.

IanB.

Morning Jon,

thanks for your support on the diary. Sounds like you're not doing too bad yourself. Being able to gamble in your own home out of sight of the rest of the world has been the bane of many people...me included.

Just keep plodding on and every day is a small success.

All the best mate,

Ryan

HI Jon,

Well done on 35 days, its nice to see you have been able to share your recovery with your friend, its been something that has been nagging me for a few days, who should i tell, anyways i think thats something for me to think about as i work my way through this.

Keep strong One day at a time.

Blondie day 28

Day 38: Seem to be going faster and faster these days.

I guess aspects of gambling still on my mind... if only I hadn't.. being a primary one. It is difficult to get away from it... and my dreams of being able to afford my own secluded island to live on took a severe dent by the nature of my problem. It's everywhere you look... tv, radio, internet, the high street....a constant reminder to focus us on our problem almost 24/7.

I suppose the sooner we accept this, the sooner we can move on to the more positive aspects of our lives.... either returning to them, or creating new ones.

Well I am looking forward to my next payday... so that I can say I have not spent a penny of my money on gambling for a month.. and begin to look forward to paying off some my debt... but remembering to save a little for me.

Best wishes to all who sail by.

Jon

Hi Jon, well done on the 38 days gamble free 🙂

U r doing gr8 and u should be sooo proud of urself!

Stay strong and keep going 🙂

Hi Jon, first of all a massive congratulations on your amazing achievement, you have done so well.

Thank you for your post on my diary, your encouraging and supportive words mean so much.

I fell on what would have been day 27, what a mug eh ? But, I will not let this poison beat me, I will keep fighting the demon slots, and one day I will be free from the thoughts of them.

Keep going Jon, you're doing great.

Thanks again, all the best

Cameron

HI Jon,

Thanks for the post on my diary, i appreciate the time and thought that you put into it and its one that i could really relate to especially the living in the problem. I agree i think we have to be carefull that like everything we find the balance of not being complacent but also not living the problem 24/7. I am trying to wade myself through some of the things i have to deal with from my councelling and its painfull and scary, but i know i cant run anymore and i have to tackle it and make the changes i need to in small steps.

Im not ready to give up the fight yet, so just for today i will not gamble.

Stay stong jon, i made my first payday milestone on the 15th may and have not spent one penny on gambling and it sure feels good everytime i look at my balance.

Blondie day 30 x

Hi Jonb, well done, you treat yourself on pay day, you deserve it. I know what you mean about wishing what you had not gambled over the years, but we can not change the past, we can change the future so just keep that positive head on. Onwards and upwards.

Day 40: And all is well..... ish

Came home to my daughter having cooked tea... a bonus I rarely experience.. hope she starts doing it more... sometimes I can't face cooking when I get back from work... and dread the " What's for tea Dad?" as soon as I get home... so a nice change.

Also glad to see DW back on here... hope he can at least stop for a little while to give himself breathing space.. he could do with some wise words... if anybody reading this feels so inclined.

Well... a lovely day for golf, but not for me I am afraid as my gambling this year put pay to that.... but that is one thing I have had to accept, and I think I have; not in a self punishment way, but as a reality check. I have to change my habits, I do need to feel I deserve it, but I must deal with the problem which got me into gambling problems... which was the debt I already had in the first place. OK... it's worse now... hopefully lesson learned. But that was the cause... and until it's gone, I think the temptation to solve it with a "quick fix" idea will still be at the back of my mind.

So I hope next month will be the start of sorting things out... never know... may be able to find something on a carboot... sell at a tasty profit... and get a couple of games in as a reward.

Not thought about gambling today... strangely.. not until I came on here, which is my first port of call when I switch my PC on. But this is the pivot point for my recovery and my focus of a better life in the future. Still lots of progress to be made, monetary and personal, but I feel I have made a steady start... one day at a time... as the saying goes.

Thanks to all who have posted.

Jon

Hi Jon,

Ur last post made me laugh, thanks 4 ur support and gr8 ideas.

U r soooo supportive of others 🙂

Stay strong 🙂

lol thanku Jon :0)

Well one on the 40 days.

Stay Strong

E xx

Hiya, hope you enjoyed the SC's, keep that positive head on, quick fixes don't happen in real life, it just has to be one slow slog to get there, but you will, and your golf days will come back. We all regret what we have done in the past, and think of how it could have been but there's nothing we can do to change that, it's got to be the future that counts. Onwards and upwards, and have a good weekend.

Hi John

Thank you for your message of support and congratulations on 41 days.

We are both on similar numbers of days you are right, so I'm going to latch onto you and stay on your coat tails. I will read and follow your posts from now on, as each is a good read.

pleased you liked your dinner which was cooked for you the other night, I can't stand cooking after work, so know how that feels, at least with this hotter weather, you could just fill the fridge up with salad, get some bread in, boil some new potato's or stick jackets in the open, bit of ham and serve that up five days a week, sounds easier to me :-), even add an egg maybe.

Anyway, you sound in a much happier place at the moment, happiness is the key, when our lives are settles and we are content, we realize there is no place for gambling and we don't need to do it.

Have a good weekend pal.

Wilsy

7 weeks: Good Morning.

Thought I would share this with you good people.

This song made me almost break down when I was into my first few days, as I could relate the words to my situation, even if it is a song about a break up with someone, I related to my relationship with gambling.

I posted the words previously, thought maybe it could help someone else:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uhV4me_k8Y8

Coming Back To Life

Where were you when I was burned and broken

While the days slipped by from my window watching

Where were you when I was hurt and I was helpless

Because the things you say and the things you do surround me

While you were hanging yourself on someone else's words

dying to believe in what you heard

I was staring straight into the shining sun

Lost in thought and lost in time

While the seeds of life and the seeds of change were planted

Outside the rain fell dark and slow

While I pondered on this dangerous but

Irresistable pas-time

I took a heavenly ride through one silence

I knew the moment had arrived

For killing the past and coming back to life

I took a heavenly ride through our silence

I knew the waiting had begun

And headed straight... into the shining sun

Jon