My Diary - small steps to recovery

Thanks for your posting Sandra,

Positive thoughts, still small steps....Though I have huge urges I have not and will not gamble today.

Hope you're being strong too.....was reading a posting earlier that said google is making a browser that will block gambling sites etc.....think of the positive effect this would have if it was installed on all tablets, pcs, phones!! So many folk would then not go down the online gambling route.....hope for the future for the younger generation .

Mo

Hey mo

Just a quick note to say well done on getting back on the wagon and you are right it would be great to block the whole lot on computers phones and tablets, not just for us but for the next generation too.

Linda

hey mo

sorry for the duplicate posts - my kindle button got stuck!

linda

Hi Linda

Thanks for post. Hope you're being strong. I have not and will not gamble today.

Mo

Well I'm still taking small steps, one day at a time. I have not and will not gamble today. Be strong and positive everyone, we must support each other to stop gambling, especially online gambling from ruining our lives.

Mo

Another day without gambling. I haven't been counting days but still going strong. I have not and will not gamble today.

Mo

Positive positive thoughts I have not and will not gamble today.

Mo

Well done Mo, keep picking off one day at a time, and each day is another win against the bookies and the demons of gambling.

Keep it up,

Ryan

Thanks for post Ryan though unfortunately I've gone down the wrong path again - why did I just throw money away on online slots....cos I'm a CG. I had self excluded but it expired so same old story....temptation...maybe just thus time a win....no no no it never happens like that cos as we all know the minute you win ....the circle continues and you play it all in again. £100 down over last couple of days - now self excluded again - wish I'd done that right away.

Starting again....positive thoughts for tomorrow

Mo

Hi Mo,

Sorry to hear about your slip, god knows I've had plenty of those myself. This isn't an easy journey to take towards living gamble free, but its one that brings its rewards in the end. And temptation is the bananaskin that gets us as CGs.

Accepting that I can't change the decisions I've made in the past is something that's taken me long enough to accept. We can only change what we do in the future. It's a new day, keep turning those positive thoughts into positive decisions.

Ryan

Thanks Ryan, as you say it's a new day, new beginning, positive thoughts and decisions not to gamble. It amazes me how strong we think we have become then we ignore what our heads are saying and log onto this terrible sites. I know that ultimately I won't win so why do I do it.......well I'm going to try the hardest I can and think back to the way I managed to stop going to arcades 15/20 years ago. I know I can do it...I just need to stop letting it being at the forefront of my thinking - push it away and concentrate on the small things I can do each day to make life a bit more manageable for me.

Hope you're being strong Ryan.

Mo

DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nothing more to be said

Mo

Hi Mo,

I've just read through your diary and am sorry you are finding it a little difficult at the minute. I have had numerous slips over the last number of years, but to me the message is simple, you cannot give up trying. The positive is that you have identified you have an issue when it comes to gambling and accepting that is certainly the first step because without that, you will definately continue. The next step I found (and please do not for one minute think I am preaching because I am certainly not in a position to do so) is to accept that every time, you have a choice. Yes, the urges are really strong and sometimes just take over, but ultimately it was me who walked into the hellholes or logged onto the money draining sites.

Dont punish yourself, whats done is done but chasing the losses will not work unfortunately so chin up, chest out and face the world, its another day today Mo

Take Care

Blues