My Journey

cheers for the support sue we can do this

all the best Graeme x

Sue

My dear friend thanks for the kind words upon my thread,to be honest I am embarrassed by them,I am not in any way shape or form a celebrity,I am just a fella afflicted with an addiction the same as you and everyone else,not one addict is more important to me,we are all equal,we all share a common goal.

I don't have an ego,I don't want to be a leader,I just simply want to share this journey with like minded folk who want to see their own lives bettered by addressing their own addiction.

We stand side by side,we all have the same starting point each morning,we all have a choice to make.

I am inspired to do so by what I have around me,my amazing family,my friends,my workmates and this forum.

Keep making the right choice

Life will be full of gifts,more often where you least expect to find them

It is a pleasure to stand by your side.

Duncs stepping forward never back

Spent ages writing a long post and my bleedin' womble hands lost it!!!!

Will try again tomorrow.

Am very much gamble free tho!

Womble x

Hi womble

Glad to hear you are gamble free

It's so annoying when we write a long post and then lose it before sending it but at least we have put down what we want to even if we can't read back lol

Have a good gamble free evening and wake up feeling calm unstressed and sane

It is such a positive feeling to wake up to even if we feel like s**t lol

Take care

Suzanne xx

Hey Womble,

I've just been catching up with your diary (I'm not around so often now). Well done you getting yourself back here- you're doing brilliantly during what is an obviously difficult time for you.

You are helping those folks to adjust to a new chapter in their life, which is an admirable thing Sue.......You helped me move onto my "new chapter", for which I'll always be grateful. (I still have nightmares about the "grabbing hand" emerging from my screen!!)

Keep up the effort- you know it gets less hard (certainly never ruddy easy!) as time passes.

Take care wee furry friend

Irene

x

Hey Womble

Thank you for your recent post...posts dissapearing into the space?? Lol..yep, happened to me few times..if I write a long post these days, just before sending it I copy it all for safety lol..do the same and you can paste it as many time as you like lol

Good to hear you are gamble free and may long it continue. Life is better without this destrution crossin the path...Embrace the unknown, there is so much more out there, just open your eyes.

keep abstaining and maintaining, life is for living, grab it and enjoy!!!

all the best

Sandra x

Well here we are day 28,

Thank you everyone for the posts. I don't post as much as I used to but I say "Whatever works" and I'm sure you will all agree....This is about "our own recovery"

Work is really tough at present...having to deal with such raw emotions is real hard...when this happens and in the past you turn to the slot suddenly having to face emotion head on is pretty challenging,

We had a leaving party for all our service users and people connected to us yesterday at the golf club next door to our property.

What really pi**ed me off was one of the directors came down to do a presentation. Pile of certificates to hand out with a little trophy that said "winner" on. Well she called us all out to receive our awards.....Well even bank staff who had worked for 2 weeks got the same as me who has been there for 17 years...Go figure!

One moment really stood out though...don't know weather good or bad. My key client grabbed hold of my hand and put his head on my chest and started sobbing.......This guy has autism....Always thought people with autism didn't show emotion....This really made me go to pieces.....Broke my heart.

Anyway.....I am gamble free....emotional...but surviving.

God Bless xxxxx

Hi womble

You are doing so well with all that stuff going on at work and having a negative with leaving gift but you had a positive straight after with one of your clients and positives do really outweigh the negatives don't they

Hey your recovery is going great which ever way as long as it's working for you and it is

Keep positive and strong

Suzanne xx

Stay strong sue you can beat this

Graeme x

Day 29,

2 Down 4 to go.

Hard to describe how I feel.....So many emotions.....Can't put down in words.

Have to drive to Peterborough tomorrow..2 and half hour drive to take another young lady to her new home. It is a wonderful home and am so happy to be able to see it.

Gambling is the last thing on my mind!

Womble x

Hi Sue

Good news that gambling is the last thing on your mind

Keep at it

Suzanne x

Good to see that gambling is last thing on your mind long may it continue sue. Only ever one winner when it comes to gambling and as we no sue it aint us

graeme

Hey Womble / Sue 🙂

Thank you for your support. And let me give some of it back. Emotional roller coaster in this life can trigger some sadness or confusion. More to that it does trigger happiness, peace to your heart and sense of freedom too. Hold onto these tight, you are more than worth it.

Day at a time, best mantra to follow....only after your "gambling go to hell"one lol 🙂

B good and stay safe

S x

Hi Womble,

I sometimes think about clients past especially those whom I built up a real rapport with. I wonder how they are getting on. Am sure they are fine. They will have new and dedicated staff amongst those carers who don't really care.

Yesterday was the last day of term and to honest am glad of the summer break. Some of the kids are real hard work on the senses and my own well being.

It may take time to work through your own sense of loss from having worked with your clients for such a long time. Your gambling head will undoubtedly keep working on your emotions so stay on your guard and keep giving it the two fingered salute!... am sure you will. Take good care... S.A 🙂

Hi Diary,

Have had a day of from the work madness and emotion today. Only 2 service to go now and I am taking both of them, one tomorrow and the last one Friday.

Not being good to myself really. Started the day off well, even had sushi for late breakfast well went downhill from there.....mum being difficult, I have now accepted that she is suffering from middle stage dementia and I need to get my head round it, Drank way too much wine...hey ho...still better than the demon slots eh!

Womble....still gamble free and very proud! x